A plan for the continuation of the story on SNS (2 pictures and text) (Pixiv Fanbox)

Good evening!

Yesterday's erotic anime... No, making erotic flash was so much fun that my creative motivation went up to 120%!

Also, I added some illustrations to a plot I came up with about a week ago, so I'll show it to you!

I was thinking of drawing a little story between episodes 2 and 3 for Comiket Summer, but Natsume-san got a lot more into it than I thought, so I don't know if it will be available at Comiket Summer 😌

It's just a rough plot, so it might be hard to follow, but here you go!

Setting: The two of them went out to play in the summer

Kou-kun's heart starts beating fast when Natsume-san wears a sleeveless top that shows off her armpits.

We had plans to hang out in various places, but summer was too hot... and we quickly got exhausted, so we decided to go into some shop—but everywhere was packed, and we couldn’t get in.

Since we hadn’t eaten lunch yet, Kō-kun’s stomach gave a loud growl. Seeing that, Natsume-san said, “Wanna come to my place?”

“Is that okay?”

“Yeah, I’m hungry too.”

“Well then, I’ll come over…!”

And so, Kō-kun ended up going to her house.

The whole way on the train, he felt nervous without really knowing why. Even though he’d been on that same train before, his whole body was pounding.

Natsume-san glanced at him with a small smile.

He felt a strange aching down by his crotch where he was wearing a chastity belt.

Every time he met Natsume-san, his heart raced more and more. He wondered if this was desire... sexuality.

Just as he was lost in thought, the train reached his stop, and she took his hand.

Watching that, Kō-kun thought, “I’m always just going along with whatever she does.”

When they arrived at Natsume-san’s house, she asked, “Well, the only thing I can make right now is omelette rice, is that okay?”

Without hesitation, he replied, “Yes!”

Natsume-san chuckled softly at how obviously nervous he was.

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After eating together, Kō-kun said, “I’ll wash up.”

Natsume-san answered, “Please do~” with a relaxed smile.

He watched her sink comfortably into the sofa, looking at ease.

While washing the dishes for two, Kō-kun started drifting off in thought.

...It kind of felt like they were living together.

Could a relationship of S and M become a romantic one?

Was Natsume-san enjoying this?

She was cute today, too, and popular without even needing S&M.

Maybe as an M, he shouldn’t hope for anything more...

How long would they stay like this, together...?

“Oh! That was quick~!”

Natsume-san peeked over his shoulder, snapping him back to reality.

“You’re good at this!”

Her smile made him at a loss for words.

“That... makes me happy.”

“I’m full~! Let’s lie down~ sit there.”

When he sat on the sofa, Natsume-san rested her head on his lap, giving him a lap pillow.

Looking down from this new angle made his heart race.

Her peaceful face made him want to stroke her hair, but inside he chanted, Don’t touch...!

Meanwhile, Natsume-san casually said, “Pet me~”

“Is that... okay?”

“Yeah, I made you omelette rice, so praise me.”

She grinned mischievously.

He stroked her hesitantly.

“Mmm! That feels good,” she said with a carefree smile.

“Heh, this feels kind of strange...”

“Right? It’s so relaxing~”

Seeing how truly comfortable she was, Kō-kun relaxed and smiled too.

“…Am I your pet?”

The words slipped out before he could stop them.

“Yeah, you are.”

“…That makes me happy.”

Her immediate answer made him hide his negative feelings behind a smile.

“You look funny.”

“Ugh...”

She saw through him right away.

“You don’t like it?”

“N-no...”

What would happen if he said he hated it?

Would she think he was a bad M and reject him?

What exactly did “more” mean?

He didn’t even know what he wanted or how to ask for it...

He didn’t want to break what they had.

“No, it’s not that... right now is the best.”

“...You’re such a good kid.”

Clatter!

The water heater switched on.

“Want some coffee?”

“Oh, yes!”

“I’ll make it for you.”

“Thank you!”

“Sugar?”

“Just a little...!”

“Okay~”

Natsume-san made the coffee with a thoughtful look.

From Kō-kun’s spot, he could only see her back and felt complicated inside.

Later, drinking coffee...

“Half a year’s passed already, hasn’t it? Time flies.”

“Yeah, it really does...”

“Not used to it yet?”

“Y-yeah...”

“It’s written all over your face.”

Natsume-san chuckled softly.

“...Why did you agree to meet me?”

“Talking with you was fun, and also... you were someone who could hold back.”

“Hold back...”

“I wanted someone not just for a one-time thing, but for the long haul. We’d been messaging normally for two years, so I felt safe meeting you.”

(Ah, that was close... I almost threw my ego at her...!)

“Also, I don’t want you to belong to anyone else.”

Trying not to reveal more of himself, his heart wavered.

“I’ve never thought about anyone else but you.”

“I know,” she said with a smile.

Her bright smile made him feel like there was a huge gap between them, and without realizing it, he slumped a little.

After some back and forth...

Natsume-san opened up her heart for the first time.

“I thought it’d be good if Kō-kun just fell for me.

It doesn’t matter what form it takes. At this point, could you really go to someone else? Impossible, right?

I always do SM play because I want all of you to be mine.”

I couldn’t take my eyes off Natsume-san as she looked straight at me and said that with conviction.

My heart was pounding loudly, but I desperately tried to catch the true meaning behind her words.

My throat tightened with nervousness, making it hard to swallow.

“I know you’re struggling with it all. But I’m not trying to hurt you. I tell myself to be kind and ‘take care’ of you.”

“Honestly, I do have my own ego too. I want to mess you up more, make you cry, be gentle and ruthless all at once—I have that desire to dominate. Even now, stirring up your heart like this gets me excited. Saying ‘S’ or ‘M’ already shows I have my own ego.”

This is kind of the feeling I was going for!

At this point, Natsume-san, portrayed as the ideal dominant (S), seems to not be completely absorbed in her partner—but rather, her feelings also come from that ego-driven desire to make all of Kō hers.

I was thinking of drawing a peaceful chapter—like, just casually going out, being invited into Natsume-san’s room, playing a bit… showing their everyday life. But then I ended up diving deep into her true feelings, and thought, “Oh, maybe this isn’t something I can just casually put out there or lightly depict.”

People often talk about “ego masochists,” but having ego is totally normal for humans. The difference is how much you show it or hide it to match your partner. It feels like Natsume-san waits for the right moment to let hers out.

Since Kō’s feelings have reached that point, it seems like Natsume-san is now facing them, too.

I wrote this while they were drinking coffee, but maybe it’d be better to have her say these things during play. That would be more teasing, I think.

Also, it’d look better visually if she said it wearing bondage gear, and it’d be more confusing for Kō who’s opening his heart completely during play (which is also thanks to how gently Natsume-san has trained him).

She’s going in for the kill… 😌

While working on this plot, I’d stepped away from real-life S dynamics for a while, but my feelings got stirred up clearly again!

There’s a line from a favorite work:

“If there’s a desire to dominate that won’t let go, and an excessive attachment at the same time, that’s basically sexual desire.”

I sometimes think the sexual desire as an S is kinda close to that—sometimes I don’t.

I like both writing and drawing choking scenes, but it’s not about actually choking someone. It’s about exposing their vulnerable spots, seeing that worried expression because it’s dangerous, and feeling like you hold everything about the other person—that’s the feeling of dominance.

That’s what I realized again while writing this plot. ☺️

But seriously, don’t do anything dangerous for real! The work may show dropping and all, but don’t imitate it!

Actually, this story about meeting an S woman on social media and being kept through SM play was offered for commercial publication by other publishers too, but I wanted to write more freely, so it didn’t quite feel like the right fit.

The first part was drawn more for masochists, and the second part had stronger S elements, so there’s a bit of a “went a little too far at the yakiniku (barbecue)” Natsume-san. 😌

I’m really happy many people are looking forward to the next installment so far, but I also feel like this story is a chance to freely explore and sift through masochists even more, haha.

I feel like many readers are real-life masochists, too, wanting to be teased or dominated by a particular person.

For me, this SNS story is basically about normal S and M. Nothing exaggerated—just two people living ordinary lives who happen to be S and M, and just happen to meet.

If you break it down, they’d be dominant and submissive, but yeah!

What I want to say is, I want to write stories about ordinary S and M people.

And surprisingly, I feel there aren’t many works like that.

So when I wrote the plot, I thought, “I’d like to read this!” and then I wanted to stop drawing and just be the reader. 😌

Someone please draw it… or do I have to? I want to read it, haha.

But after drawing this much for the summer comic market, I felt like it was fine to end with this as an answer from Natsume-san—or maybe the next theme she throws to me.

Trying some painful play, then at the end, that line:

“I do have my ego too. I want to mess you up more, make you cry, be gentle and ruthless all at once—I have that desire to dominate. Even now, stirring up your heart like this gets me excited. Saying ‘S’ or ‘M’ already shows I have my own ego.”

I want to throw that at Kō and mess with his feelings a bit… ☺️

Then maybe at the winter comic market, Kō will have his own answer, which would be perfect.

The kinds of play I want to include—also for winter—are:

Going to buy a collar, watersports play, shaving play (maybe not), pain play (because I want him to cry), play that clearly shows the power dynamic like trampling (to deepen their bond and portray master-servant), and also pleasure play as a kind of reward!

I’ll tinker with the story from here, but I think it’s shaping up nicely.

I’ve heard from people on Twitter that many masochists really struggle with these feelings, so I focused on depicting Kō’s anxious feelings deeply.

But I think this is a realistic S and M relationship.

Especially since these two are in their twenties.

I’m sure some people feel it’s different as they get older!

There’s more I could say, but this is getting long! Sorry if there are any typos after writing so much. 😔

Thanks so much for reading! ✨️🤍