Tomodachi Message (Pixiv Fanbox)

Hello to all my followers and friends!

I wasn't sure how to write a message like this, but first of all, I want to thank you all for your support and for following my art.

It is a pleasure for me to draw and create; it is something that truly fills my soul.

Please forgive me for sharing this chapter of my life with you:

Sometimes, things happen in life—moments when one falls into a very deep darkness. That moment came for me a while back. Without going into too much detail (because it is very complex and I wouldn't know how to organize it all), I endured severe abuse from my family, especially from my siblings. In recent years, I have suffered a great deal, not only emotionally but physically as well. This abuse took a gradual toll on my health over the last three years—to the point where, in April 2025, I had to go to the emergency room; it was an ordeal that, without exaggeration, nearly cost me my life. It hurts so much to believe and accept that, even after going through something like that, the abuse from my siblings didn't stop. I fell into denial; out of love for them, I stupidly normalized the situation and blinded myself to all the red flags. On top of that, my parents dismissed my situation whenever I spoke to them about it, and out of love, I gave in to many things I shouldn't have. That abuse—especially from my older sister—has been going on my whole life.

A few months ago, I hit rock bottom—a downward spiral where I felt like nothing could fill the void inside me. I don't know how to describe it all, but fortunately, my special someone—my partner—has supported me in every way possible, providing the emotional backing I needed. I don't know what I would have done without her by my side. Recently, after much persistence, I was convinced to seek help. We visited a doctor, and from there, I was referred to specialists and have been receiving ongoing care. I’ve started treatment; it hasn't been easy, but I’ve been feeling better. My chest doesn't feel heavy or painful like it used to, my thoughts don't batter me the way they did before, and that mental fog—I don't quite know how to describe it—doesn't feel as intense.

I felt a desire to share this with all of you—the people who make it possible for me to keep doing what I love most. I apologize for the delays or the disorganized state of my galleries; I’ll soon be getting back to work on pending Fanbox projects as well. I truly appreciate your support regarding commissions, and please know that I’ll continue to welcome your ideas and will happily draw them.

Never hesitate: if you feel like the darkness is closing in on you, please seek professional help. There is always a helping hand ready to bring us the light we need.

Thank you so much for your time; I am here for all of you as I go through this rebirth.

Sincerely,

TOMODACHI DRAW