Important message (Pixiv Fanbox)

Hello!

I do a longer break to recover and rethink certain decisions I've made in the past.

In the past couple of days there was some drama because of various things that recently happened and because of some older things I have experienced in the past. I decided for myself to pull the “Emergency break” and take a longer time offline before I make it worse. Decisions were made I’d regret now.

What happened this time? <.<

Some people have already told me that I’m currently pretty much burned out and that I need a break. I did make breaks in the past, but they weren’t long enough, it seems. I have become a very unstable person for a while, which results in stress situations where I might say things which are not okay. I simply can’t see the consequences in those tense situations. Speaking of it I want to use the situation to apologize to the people I made angry and for my arrogant behavior in the past. I don’t really want to blame anything for the situation, but before I try to sort out my personal and private problems, I thought I could at least let you know what’s going on.

My behavior in the past and on certain social networks was caused for various reasons. One reason was that I’m burned out. Since the monetization about 2 years ago I almost work nonstop on content. The other reason was stress and that I’m displeased with myself. I’m aware that I annoy people with this kind of behavior and drama and decided to simply keep the profile low and make a longer break from the Internet and from creating art. Other things like the lack of feedback/interest in my art came along as well to make me say bad things about other people.

I’m very sorry for my horrid attitude I showed to some people in the past. A friend told me that I’m not perfect and I totally agree. We’re humans and we have flaws – physically and mentally. I try to work on my flaws and to do so that I need to get some distance from the things that triggered me in the past.

What now?

I will not be able to do any artwork during the time I’m gone. That means that the fanbox content will stop sooner or later if all scheduled artworks are released. In this time, I won’t be able to earn any money since people will definitely unsubscribe, which makes sense. The website might become slower and certain things may become broken. Commissions and all other projects are frozen/cancelled until I feel better. I will be living from my savings during this time until I return and restart creating new content for you.

Those measurements are drastic, but before I turn completely into an arrogant asshole, I’d rather pull the emergency break here before I continue doing content. This might only be a small artblog from one of thousands of creators out there, but I understand now that the human factor and friendships are more important than stats and likes. I hope we can all do a fresh restart after all that. Thanks to all the great people who supported me and maybe will be in the future.

I wish you all the best and I hope I’ll see y’all later all refreshed.

~FairyCosmo