Blah Blah Blah 4/16/2019 (Patreon)

Been a while since I did a blog post!

First off, hi new patrons!  Welcome to the team!  I hope you enjoy your time with us :) If you have any questions feel free to shoot me a message here or in an email ( farore.nightclaw@gmail.com )!  I'm very glad to have you and I look forward to seeing you around n_n

Life stuff life stuff... I've been having an issue where an old habit has been flaring up again - biting/picking at my fingers - and I'm not sure why it's back or 100% positive on how to stop doing it.  For now I've settled for covering my fingertips with band-aids so they can heal without me worrying at them, and I hope once they're all smooth unbroken skin again I won't be tempted to pick or bite anymore.  My mental health in general is doing pretty well, I'm not manic anymore and I've been feeling pretty stable except for getting fussy in the evenings when I'm overtired.  I've also been having a bit of what I recognize as being overwhelmed in an.. autistic sense?  I've been very productive and doing a good job of adulting lately, in a way that the autistic community would refer to as 'masking' (ie pretending to be neurotypical), and it takes a lot of energy.  I'm in a good place emotionally to be expending that energy, but it's easy to go a little bit too far on any given day and end up fighting a meltdown around bedtime.  Still trying to find my happy medium.

I swear, so much more stuff made sense for me once I got the autism diagnosis.  I have words and concepts for things I've struggled with my whole life and they make sense and I can explain them to other people and to myself, and CassioBunny is learning lots about the disorder right along with me so she can support me in the best way possible (she's doing fantastic at it and I am eternally grateful for having such a wonderful wife).

I made this new fursona, Ari, the big buff male tiger.  That doesn't mean I'm a dude now, I'm still agender, it's sort of like putting on a different outfit for a bit.  That green shirt feels great to wear and you love how you look in it but it doesn't mean you're going to dye your skin green.  If that makes sense.  I have been enjoying being in the mindset of Big Strong Dude though.  And I think CassioBunny has been enjoying our fantasy dynamic being the more traditional Big Dom, Little Sub for once instead of our usual opposite (which is also super fun for different reasons).  We enjoy both scenarios but it's fun to have a change now and then.  Rawr.

P01D is coming to visit for 2 weeks starting tomorrow.  She's my metamour, Cassio's wife, and lives in the UK currently so we only see her once or twice a year.  Having her here is a special treat.  We have a new king size bed so we might be able to all pile into it this visit too, instead of kicking someone/s to the floor! :D Which is just as well cause with the king size bed in here I'm not sure the futon would fit XD I'm gonna be spending part of today cleaning, just doing some laundry, taking out the trash, and maybe vacuuming.  Gotta figure out what to do with the giant box leftover from our new bedframe @_@  I am very excited for Poid's visit though, I love having her here, we mesh super well and the three (or four, if Hale's here at the same time) of us make such a good cohesive and supportive unit.  We have lots of fun and she fits right in.

I think that's it for now, please tell me how yall are doing!  I want to get to know all of you better and have us all be more engaged. Still considering that Discord server, maybe making a public one but with Patron-only private rooms and roles.  Hmmm.  Any interest?  Oh, and are any of you going to BLFC? I'd love to say hi!

xoxo