Bluesky Vacation (Patreon)

Just a heads-up that I'm taking a break from Bsky again. I haven't deleted my accounts or anything, they're just deactivated for now so I'm not tempted to go there and crash out.

Just been feeling kinda bad lately and it's been too easy to just vent shit for that instant dopamine hit, instead of writing it down in a journal or dumping it on write.as where it can vanish after a while. I'm sick of being sad all the time but I'm also tired of the part of me making it everyone else's problem.

Maybe it's selfish, but seeing Eric Bauza's passing, and what a good person he was, and how fondly people remember him, it's made me have to take a step back and assess the fucking mess I've turned into. Like, I'm not evil, but I'm not friendly either. I'm not nice to people. It's not that I want to be fake, but I could definitely stand to change the way I act, and actually mean it.

I see the prickly bitch I've turned into and she needs to go.

So, still working on it. Much as I can. Removing the reward center for that behavior will hopefully help.

For now, I'll just keep updating here when it matters.

Hopefully with less of the salt.