Deleting Everything (Patreon)

And changing my life.

Thats some clickbaity title, eh?

I recently found out whats mostly up with my brain. Audhd (Autims + Adhd) and that i have basically lived in a constant state of burnout.

till reaching my final breaking point.

i was at a very, Very dark and disgusting place. But thats not what this post is about.

I have a lot of unfinished projects and hate everything about them. I hate that they have potential but i just cant get myself to finish them anymore.

I hate that i have multiple projects on my pc but no finished content for you*

All of that burned me out.

Work burned me out. Social Responsibilities burned me out, and even trying to rest or relax.

just trying to live and fix my life without drowning burned me out.

I was at my breaking point. Or slightly past it.

Right before some real dum dum decision.

But I won't give up!

Healthy life arc

in order to try and start living a healthy happy life, and actually experiencing life, im going to change the way i live.

To create a life that fits me and my needs instead of trying to force fit myself into a system that was never designed for me.

That means... well, i dont really know yet.

guess ill have to find out.

For now Im going to drastically lower my expectations to myself. Step off the gas. And take my time. little by little.

Dont overwork / overstimulate myself, notice if i do and relax for a bit.

What does that mean for TTG?

probably only good.

Thanks to you, I am very fortunate that my little animation thing here seems to bear fruit. And has potential to become my main job some day.

Which is rather amazing because a normal job, or the normal job system, just is not working for me. I learned that.

So thats my Goal in life for now.

Built this into a healthy, sustainable thing that works with me and my reality.

So what does DELETING EVERYTHING MEAN then... WTH?!

This means, instead of seeing all those unfinished projects as wasted time and disappointment, i will take em as a learning. See em as practice, testing... ya know?

Delete em. start fresh. (AKA store everything on an external drive and put it in a box)

Soooo and what about my main Job then?

yea fuck that shit! im out! im not doin that anymore!

well almost...

sadly one still has to make some money to live, eh?

so i now do a 9 hrs / week mini job.

its pretty risky but thats okay. shit will work out, im sure.

What does all this mean for you?

nothing, probably...

only that the animation ideas i teased, talked about or promised wont happen... sorry

Instead (if shit works out) you can expect other and possibly even better content till the end of time.

but lets keep expectations low, for now ^^

remember guys, little by little.

*but of course i wont leave you hanging with nothing. I have a little pov internal animation thats Rendering right now and should be done very soon.

Heres a preview frame