Burning Myself Out, Upload Schedule and Commissions (Patreon)

Yeah... this was inevitable wasn't it? For those unaware, originally my upload schedule for audio roleplays was every Wednesday and Saturday. From September 2023 to December 2023 I uploaded 3 audios a week because of Youtube starting to demonitse ASMR videos and me losing some income. This schedule only lasted 3 months because I very quickly burnt myself out, and I'm autistic so with that came autistic burnout, and messed with my stress and mental health. But in June 2024 I started uploading 3 times a week again because of videos being demonitised and my following on Youtube and Patreon started to become slower and slower, and i feared that my income would go down. And I've been doing 3 uploads a week this time around for much longer than 3 months, for 17 months this time. And for this January 2026 I temporarily went back to 2 uploads a week as I had been away in December and didn't have time to record enough in advance...

And now... Here we are. I haven't re-opened commissions yet since coming back to the UK. I haven't recorded any audios since I've been back. I've felt unable to by some force that just knows I won't be able to keep up. 3 audios a week, plus on average 3+ commissions a week, plus my weekly Etsy orders, plus wanting to start script fills, plus wanting to give you guys more story driven audios and new OCs but that means time to work on writing and drawing, plus wanting to give you guys more frequent art of my OCs, plus working on my website and OC wiki, plus trying to stream 3 times a week, plus wanting to upload videos onto my emptymasks channel including video essays I promised you guys, plus wanting to give you more animation memes and animatics of my OCs, plus wanting to do more vocal covers, plus make my streams better and more engaging with new overlays and models... plus having a life and getting to spend time with my partner and friends and not working all day every day of the week from when I wake up until I go to bed with only taking a day off if I get sick or have a rare day where I go out shopping once every few months... All on top of trying to move and needing time for phone calls and property viewings and getting rejected over and over again. I've been cutting out so many stickers and doing the same motion over and over again to post to audiochan that I've re-triggered my repetitive strain injury I got from doing too my Etsy work and now doing anything with my right arm hurts, and I'm right handed, typing up this post is causing me a lot of physical pain, that I did to myself, from overworking. Last time it took 2 months until I my right arm stopped being in constant pain... I can't keep doing this to myself.

Having three weeks off from work to go visit my partner, I thought I would come back refreshed and ready to work, but instead I just feel so intimidated by what seems like an impossible amount of things to do and keep on top of.

So. Would you guys leave, unsubscribe from Youtube and cancel your Patreon subscriptions, if I returned to my original 2 videos a week, Wednesday and Saturday, schedule? I would point out you're not getting less value for money on your Patreon subscriptions because when I switched from 2 audios a week to 3 audios a week (and also when I switched from 1 spicy audio a month to 2 spicy audios a month) I. Never. Put. My. Prices. Up. I have continued to post more and more despite never increasing what I am charging on Patreon. I don't know any audio roleplay creators who post as much as I do, even regular big ASMR channels post about once a week at most. And my Patreon fledglings will still get 2 spicy audios every month, dropping to 2 audios a week won't change that. It just means 2/12 audios will be spicy instead of 2/16.

I was considering making this a poll and letting people vote... but I can't. The fact is either I drop to 2 uploads a week or I cancel commissions forever and never re-open them and continue to stress myself out over how I feel unable to work at this pace. And I've felt this way for a long time. You guys saw me worrying about my seasonal depression, offering a discount on commissions if you let them be public to help me keep up with posting on time... I've felt badly burnt out since around August and I think it's shown in my audios and not posting new OCs and not posting as many story-driven audios because my brain's just been fried. And I'm scared of losing Patreon members, I'm scared of my Youtube payout going down by 33%, but I'm hoping people stay interested in commissions and I make enough money doing that it makes up for the drop in Youtube income.

And to help with my overworking RSI pain, I have finally bought a Silhouette sticker cutting machine so now I can rest my arm and hopefully heal and start releasing new sticker designs and have the option of making sticker sheets now too. If there's any fandoms you've wanted to see me make pixel chibi and badges stickers of, let me know and I'll consider it. So if I'm going to do things to help with my physical pain... I should do the same for my mental pain.

Custom audio commissions are now officially back open, please as always read my full TOS on my Carrd and message me on Ko-Fi first before ordering anything as we must discuss your ideas and give me the right to refuse it before sending me money. There are discounted rates for if you allow your commission to also be posted to Youtube/Patreon.

I hope you guys understand I've held off on making this decision for a long time and finally it's got to a point where I'm sinking and I have to make myself a raft, and dropping from 3 uploads a week is my only raft. I'm really sorry if this disappoints or upsets anyone. Like I said Patreon fledglings are still going to get 2 exclusive audios every month, that's not changing, so hopefully no one feels like they're paying the same for less. I hope with doing this I will have more time to work on more commissions as I want to be able to offer that for you guys and I make more money from even a public commission than I make as ad revenue on a single video so hopefully this will help me out finically too and not hurt me. And I hope with less stress on my brain I can make better audios, quality over quantity, and more extra stuff like more art and animations and video essays and more. I just can't work at the pace I am currently and I don't want to stop because I like this job and I like interacting with you guys, so this is the step I have to take so I don't just give up on making audios all together. I hope that's okay. And I'm sorry. But I hope you'll continue to support me.