I SCREWED UP. NO LIVE STREAM. (Patreon)

I was in tears with Danny this morning and he insisted that I post up here to let you guys know whats going on. 

I'm not able to do the live stream today and I feel absolutely terrible about it. I take pride in being someone that people can depend on. Someone that stands true to their word. But I really can't do the live stream to the level that you all deserve and what I have promised. 

I told him that I feel like a fake. I've been promising these live streams and then one after another they get messed up. Either it's zoom update being dumb, my internet going out, then getting it fixed only to find out that I cant have more than one device up, then we finally move into a new house with better internet and it's been zoom the whole time. So when I decided to switch to Twitch, I had NO IDEA what I was getting into. 

Even after hiring a OBS specialist to set up my system, I'm finding out that I simply dont have the equipment needed to properly stream in a way that shows the YT videos and me and camera and mic. My computer simply doesn't have the amount of ports I need. 

I feel like I'm failing over and over again and I really just feel horrible that I'm letting you all down. 

I can't balance all of this with moving countries, earth quakes, and then we move again on tuesday to our year long home, only to have me leave ten days later to visit family for two weeks. I'm late with paid video reactions and I'm barely keeping up with episodes. 

I simply feel overwhelmed and more than anything I feel like a fake. You guys mean the world to me and I want you to know how truly sorry I am that Ive been messing up so much lately. Please know that I'm really trying my hardest to give you the content that I promised. My heart hurts that I'm letting you down time and time again. 

So, I need to step back and set things up properly before I launch back into live events. That means that if you paid for a live song reaction, I have two options available for you. You can either get a pre-recorded song reaction from me that is not live OR you can wait until next month when I have everything settled and go live again. Also if neither of these options work for you then message me and I will refund your song reaction charge. No judgment or questions from me with any of the options you choose. 

I have messaged the OBS specialist to have another meeting with him about what equipment I need to upgrade to make the next live event as smooth as possible. I will then purchase that and have it professionally set up. I promise you the next live event will go as smooth and professional as possible.

Lastly I want to say THANK YOU! I know most of you don't know me personally, but I really truly care for all of you. You support has utterly changed my life. If I could give you all a hug in person then I would. When I first started my YouTube channel, I never thought I would have such an amazing community of people to lift me up. You all mean the world to me and I never want to let you down.Love you all!Audrey

P.S... does anyone even write PS anymore?

P.P.S. I will be in Sacramento Oct 19-24, Los Angeles Oct 25-30 and Vegas Oct 30-Nov 2nd. If you want to meet for a cup of coffee or even just a drive by HUG then private message me :)