House of Alphas Chapter 154: Liquid (Patreon)

You hummed to yourself as you and Toji walked side by side. He carried both of your things, despite your battle of objections. He had held the buckets above your head so you couldn’t reach them, forcing you to concede.

It was a bit quiet as you walked the stone path to the outdoor bathhouse.

You could see from the corner of your eye how fidgety your alpha's expression was, as if he was trying to come up with what he wanted to say to fill the space.

You didn’t push him; instead, you kept humming lightly just in case he wanted to interrupt and speak what was on his mind. Your steps were soft and bouncy, showing you didn’t mind the quietness and you didn’t feel uncomfortable. It was important to create this safe space for him.

A space of- if you don’t talk, it’s fine, and if you do, that’s also fine.

There was no rush.

No divide that created hard feelings.

Toji liked to beat himself up about a lot of things when it came to you. As a matter of fact, he liked to beat himself up about all things you. You were positive those dreadful days you lost yourself still tore at him. Even though you tried to mentally distance yourself from that time as if it were so long ago… it was still fresh. And now he had this message that had added to his stress, making things even more complicated.

It made you a bit afraid, not knowing what had him annoyed, but if it were something you truly had to worry about, Nanami would have called a pack meeting, right?

Maybe Toji owes money to someone, and he’s going to lose his allowance for the month. That was a typical occurrence.

You will have to ask him again when he is in a more settled state.

Once you can finally add some healing words to his wounded heart.

Being alone always brings out the naked truth; that’s why it was important for you to have these moments with your alphas.

So whatever was locked inside could finally be released.

Just like Sukuna. He would have never voiced his feelings so openly around others. They were all like that.

This you knew well.

For their safety, you must let them express whatever they held within, no matter what it is-

“Chess…”

Guess it is chess that is in his battling mind.

“Hm?” You acknowledge your alpha looking toward him as he shyly repeated his sentence.

“You like chess?”

“Pffthaha-“ You burst out laughing, making your alpha blush. It was just so funny how he said it! It caught you off guard. Like he was asking if you like jazz!

“W-what?” He questioned you with a red tint.

“Sorry sorry- it was just the way you said it!”You giggled, pushing the bamboo door open, holding it so Toji could step in.

“How did I say it?” He asked. Despite being embarrassed, he was still smiling, loving that you were giggling. Even if it was at his expense.

“Like this scene from a movie in my world; it’s about a bee haha.”

“A bee? What is a bee doing asking about chess?”

“Not chess, jazzzz~!”

"What-what is a bee doing asking jazz?"

"Because he liked this woman. Let me explain!" You shouted with a chuckle, seeing his bewildered expression. You began to summarize the movie while taking your clothes off and setting them in the basket. You didn’t feel shy; if anything, you felt confident. Especially so when Toji took an appreciative peek at your figure.

While you were talking, the letter had slipped out, but before you could even acknowledge it, Toji's shirt was tossed on top.

He didn’t want you to see.

Now you know... earlier, when you asked him about it, he diverted your attention with purpose. Faking that he didn't know what you were referring to. Toji was a lazy alpha... he was one of your laziest alphas. He only did things to please you. Even if it’s to help others. He does it because you care. So the fact that he was putting this much effort into hiding something from you was a bit scary.

“The bee-“ he spoke casually as if he didn’t just conceal the letter- “and the woman get together?”

“They do!” You released a little laugh, trying to ignore your anxiety from creating its own narrative. There's nothing to worry about!

Your alpha shook his head, baffled. “How terrible of a partner do you have to be to get your woman stolen by a bee?”

“To be fair, it was a kids' movie, but now that I’m older I think the guy was the only sane person in the town.“

Your alpha releases a snort, opening the sliding doors for you. The steam of the bathhouse was thick, like morning fog. But it felt good upon your skin and lungs as you breathed it in. It was like a gentle caress upon your body inside and out. The herbs used in the bath always made you feel more than relaxed.

Padding across the damp pathway, you stepped into the water. Toji held your hand for assistance. The two of you sat at the same time and released deep sighs.

"Haaaa~ I love a good bathhouse." You mused happily, leaning into your alpha as he tossed his arm behind you.

"Yeah..." He agreed, sinking further into the water.

You soaked for a bit, letting the warmth melt the tension in your muscles.

Toji tapped gently on your shoulder. "You didn't finish telling me about the movie."

"Oh? Yeah, you want to know the whole story?"

"Yeah, start from the beginning.”

“Ok ok, so…”

You started telling the movie, using your hands expressively. Toji nodded along and raised his brows at certain parts, making you laugh. Near the end of you talking about the movie, you had a moment… like a feeling of something magical.

It warmed your insides.

Made you feel almost as good as you felt when you were high.

You stopped speaking, causing Toji to lean his head, questioning your pause, “What's wrong baby?”

You began to smile, staring at him sweetly. You felt as though there were little heart bubbles around him. An imaginary spotlight on him as romantic music played in your head. It was almost overwhelming how you felt.

It was hard to describe, but you did so anyway.

“Nothing is wrong... Everything is great actually... because of you. I like that… I can talk to you about absolutely anything, and you listen…and you care…even if it’s something silly about freaking bees.”

Toji looked a bit surprised, “Well yeah, I need to know what happens with the woman and her new boyfriend.”

Your face hurt from how hard you were smiling. “See? That’s what I mean, I feel like I could talk about a-a piece of trash! And you…you would listen to me blab about it.”

Your alpha rubbed his chin in thought before saying, “What color was the trash?” He tried to keep a straight face, but you both cracked at the same time. Bursting with laughter. As the humor faded, he moved his arm around so he could play with your hair. “You can talk to me about anything… talk to me all day long, I would never get bored listening.” He finished as his thumb graced your cheek.

You felt loving warmth cradle you. Physically and metaphorically. It brought the sudden urge to pamper your alpha. You had to show him how much you appreciated him.

You leaned forward and kissed his lips with a sweet peck, then sat up, grabbing his sponge. “May I wash my alpha?”

“You want to wash me? Let me-“ he went to move, but you swatted his hand like a cat.

“Ah ah! I’m washing you, sit back and relax!” You pushed him by his chest without much of a fight.

“Okay, okay.” He surrendered with a grin.

“I need to take care of my wonderful alpha.” You flashed him a smirk while sudsing up the sponge.

“You don’t have to sweetheart.”

“You guys always say that! I want to! Let me pamper you, dammit...”

You gently massaged the sponge upon his arm, holding his hand with one hand and cleaning him with the other. You realized as Toji chuckled at you-he was just like Nanami. Your alphas have no idea how much you desire them. How much you cherish them. You know your attention could be quite divided with saving the world. For them and your future pack- but they needed this. They needed these moments where they were the center of your attention. You made Toji your sole focus in this moment.

“…You are an amazing alpha…hard working, funny, sweet, kind…“ You speak your affection while washing him with care. As you continue, you could hear the soft rumbling of a purr and feel it as you massage his chest. Your eyes meet as he awaits your compliments. “…and…” You speak slowly, making sure he was hearing each and every word. “…you make me feel safe, not just physically… but mentally. You make me comfortable to be myself…”

Toji had turned his head when you had said ‘safe,’ but you had finished your compliments despite him avoiding it. You already knew he was going to reject the statement.

“Safe…” he said the word as if he didn't know the meaning, “…I couldn’t keep you safe…I let you get hurt and fucked you up even more myself.” It was as if his words had triggered something in his own mind, because he had grabbed your wrist to stop you. “…I don’t deserve this... not after I failed you so miserably...”

“Failed?” You allowed him to push you away, but that didn’t mean you agreed with what he was saying. “You didn’t fail me, Toji. I’m not fucked up now, see? I'm fine...I just … well we kind of all went through something, and now we are here, ready to patch things up and be stronger than before. I had a moment of weakness, and you did what you felt was right-“

“And I was wrong. I almost lost you forever. I don’t know how to take care of you- I don’t know how to protect you and make you actually safe.” He held such disdain for himself.

“Toji… you cannot protect me from everything. That is unrealistic…But I know you will do your best, and you are doing a great job, so stop beating up my wonderful alpha.”

“Who?”

“You!” You chuckled, unable to stop the incredulous snort that came from you. “You are my wonderful alpha, and without you I wouldn’t be able to survive.”

“You…have the others.” He crossed his arms stubbornly.

These alphas of yours! Always trying to sell themselves short, dammit! When will they understand that you needed them?

ALL!

ALL FIVE!

NOT ONE- NOT TWO- FIVE!

"OH!" You looked around with exaggerated flair. “I’m sorry, are there other Alpha Daddies named Toji that I don’t know about who have a scar on his lip and call me princess?”

Toji let out a little laugh, “You know what I mean… Princess…I might...put you in danger, not because I want to but because...I might just fuck up and do something that gets you hurt...” He spoke like he was pre-launching his departure.

Just like Sukuna.

“Were you…going to leave with Sukuna?”

“No! Never.” He shook his head quickly. “I was… I was more along the lines of thinking like…maybe…taking you home…”

This again...

“Away from my alphas? Why would I want to go there when you are here?”

“I know, I know...It was a thought… like... I was thinking if I truly loved you I would… get you somewhere you are safe…where you can’t get hurt… like do I keep you here because of selfish reasons or…should I push you to leave because I love you…something like that…” he scratched his head, unsure if he was getting his message across.

You slowly nodded your head, understanding what he was conveying. “It’s like that saying, 'if you love me you’d let me go'?”

“Yeah…kinda like that…”

You set your hand upon his chest, over his heart. “My world is here…My world consists of you…So do not think so foolishly as to try to send me somewhere else. I would lose myself in unimaginable misery. You chose me to be your omega... don’t regret it now.”

His eyes widened a bit. “I don’t- I don’t regret choosing you.” He placed his hand over your own, giving it a tight squeeze. “Why would you think that?”

“I dunno, it seems like you are trying to get rid of me.” You popped your lips playfully with a shrug.

“No- it’s… I just… I love you so-fucking much. I’m just scared… I may be a part of your heart, but you are my heart…the whole thing. Do you understand how it is to have something so important in the open?” He hit your hand against his chest for emphasis. “It’s yours…I would tear it out of my chest just to give it to you…"

The look and words he was giving you cut deep. So deep it stung.

You tried to lighten the tone.

“That’s... Sukuna’s thing, alpha, not mine…” You smiled softly, but you still felt that tinge of pain. Whereas you are his only love, you had five lovers, but each of them mattered so much to you. They equally had your soul and heart. “I understand how you feel...I know you guys may not fully understand, but... Toji…I ruined the relationship I had with the witches to get Sukuna back…there was nothing that would have stopped me…not even you guys could… it was all I could think about. It was the only thing that consumed me. I felt like a woman possessed. Like someone had taken my very lungs away-"

"That was Suku-"

"Yes." You cut in. "That was Sukuna, but if that were you, I would have reacted the exact same way. I don't function properly unless I have all of you...This pack doesn’t function unless we have every vital piece… that includes you and me. You can’t send me away, and you can’t run away. I won’t let you run away. I will hunt you down and drag you back home kicking and screaming.” You spoke with some humor in your tone, but there was a blend of truth. You couldn't imagine your life without one of them.

It was impossible.

“You would…chase after me?” He questioned with a little turn of his lips.

You narrowed your eyes ever so slightly, “Just as you did me.”

That brought forth a knowing smile. “Should I disguise myself as an older man?”

“Yes, and then I will sit across from you in an inn and tell you about a dance I need to do for my chosen alpha.” You blinked repeatedly.

Toji looked hopeful. “You would do that dance for me?”

“Hmm~.” You hummed, dragging your hand downward, and as you spoke, you went lower into the water. “Maybe…” You slide your hand over his length. It was semi-soft, but as you trailed to the tip, it quickly hardened in your grasp. You squeezed, making him hiss. “…If you be a good alpha and accept your mine.”

He let out a groan, "I'm only yours-" The desire flashed in his eyes before you could even register it. His lips were upon you.

You moaned into his kiss, wrapping your hand around his cock as you massaged it.

You were ready to drown in all things Toji, but the next thing you knew you were plucked out of the water and sitting on the edge. Cock and lips gone as he held you arms-length away with a firm grip upon your shoulders.

“Wait-“ he breathed heavily, looking at you with a hard gaze. “…Are you..." He gulped nervously, afraid of the answer to his question. "...you aren't just doing this… are you? Just saying you want to go home because you feel like a failure and this is your way of distracting me?”

You looked absolutely shocked that your alpha could suggest such a wild scheme. And they say you were the overthinker.

You tried to keep your tone serious, but the silliness bled through just a pinch. “No, Toji, I’m not on some seduction mission to get you to let your guard down. I am sound of mind. I almost beat Nanami in a game of chess."

"He was letting you win because he wanted to play your game. I've seen him win matches with just two moves."

"Ah- let me live in my fantasy world! Anyways...I want to go home because we need a break. We can’t keep jumping into battle after battle or shit storm after shit storm. I’m not giving up. Quite the contrary, actually. I'm taking a much-needed breath of air before our next mission.” The whole time you spoke, your alpha kept his stance. “I’m not on anything Toji.” You finally added.

“…Ok…” his hold on you loosened.

“Ok.” You repeated with a little grin.

"We...are on a little break...that's all..." He slowly nodded.

"Do you know what that means?"

"..." He tried to think but then couldn't find the answer to your question. "No? What does that mean?"

"You can...use that stuff on me."

"What stuff?"

"The gel? The one Nanami had."

"That-yeah-I can use it?" He questioned excitedly. "Are you -sure? You might not be able to do much if I..."

"I mean~ I'm not busy tomorrow, are you?"

"I'll be busy...Taking care of you." He smiled as you pulled him closer.

"I guess I'm all yours then." You seal the deal with a kiss.

He let out a low groan, loving the idea of fucking you to oblivion, only to take care of you right after. The Toji special.

He broke your kiss with a loud smack. "You have no idea how happy that makes me-" He stuck his hand into his mouth and pulled out nothing. His eyes went wide. "-Shit- where is my worm?"

"Oh- it's in the woods with the others. We can always wait until-ai!"

Toji had flung himself out of the water.

"I'LL BE BACK!" He shouted while running faster than you have ever seen.

"TOJI!" You called to him more in shock than anything, but he was gone. You let out a laugh as you blinked in utter disbelief, realizing what had just happened. You didn't know if he was running with a white towel wrapped around his waist or as naked as the day he was born.

Each image brought forth another fit of laughter as you kicked your feet in the water.

Before you could even think about getting back in, he had returned in record time.

"I-I'm back!" He gasped, holding the bottle within his hand. He looked like he was about to fall over.

"Welcome back, my alpha." You giggled as he hopped into the water...much calmer than his abrupt departure.

"How-how does this work? I just snatched it and left."

"Hmm..." You opened your legs a bit. "he just put it on the outside and inside of me...like rubbed it in. Do you want me to do it, or do you want to do it?"

Toji looked at you as if you had just said you were helping a bee sue the human race. "What?! Is that a serious question?"

"Just wondering~" You lean back upon your hands as he popped the bottle open. He looked so excited he could barely contain himself.

He poured some of the gel on his fingers, careful not to drop any of it. "Ready?" He looked at you for confirmation.

"Mhm~." You bit your lip as he touched you gently.

"It's a little cold, sorry..." He commented, moving his fingers up and down.

"It-mmm will be fine soon enough..." You felt a bit breathless as he continued to rub the substance over your lower lips as if it were lip gloss. You knew the effects weren't fully there yet, but you were already feeling yourself getting wet from his attention. "...Good...feels good..." Your legs twitched a bit, opening ever so slightly, your body inviting your alpha in.

"You ready for more?" Toji was already in motion, getting seconds.

"Yes, please."

He did a few circles before he began to push two fingers inside, but there was a bit of resistance. His muscles tensed as he breathed deeply. "You're so tight, sweetheart. Can you be a good girl and let me in?" He questioned, pulling out one finger so he could move the other inside of you.

"Oh-" You felt that tingle in your body, the ache of lust sparking your very core. "-I'll be a good girl for you. For my alpha." Your eyes flutter as you look upon him.

"I know you will be." He leaned in to kiss you while he slow fucked you with just one finger. "I can't wait to get you wet for me...." Within the next second, he was adding another finger...and then more gel, and then his thrusting was much quicker...all while he kissed you sloppily and told you dirty sweet words.

Toji must have had enough of the gel because he set the bottle down on the side with a clumsy hand, but he pulled you by your waist, surprisingly delicate and precise.

"Toji-" You place your hands on his chest so that he can give you time to speak.

"Yeah, baby?"

"I want your cock in my mouth please~I love to have your taste on my tongue."

He grits his teeth, breathing heavily, "You need to be careful with what you say before I rush things."

He was two seconds away from pouncing on you.

"Sorry, I was just being honest." You slid into the water, keeping your eyes on his.

"You like the way I taste?" He questioned as you grabbed him with both of your hands.

"Mhm, it's one of my favorite treats, remember?" You were about to go in for the kill, mouth open wide, but he stopped you with a grab of your chin.

Tilting your head back, he said, "Don't get too greedy, I'm going to knot your cunt."

"I understand."

He released his hold so you could continue.

Sucking his cock into your mouth, you started slow, enticing low moans from him and soft breaths. You took your time, showering him in pecks and licks before you swallowed him down your throat.

That's when his body shivered, and the curses started slipping.

This was the part you always enjoyed, watching your alpha bite his lips and flutter his eyes in pleasure while watching you. That, coupled with the effects of the gel, started making you feel hot. The ache was light but slowly began to build the more turned on you got. Your head was swimming with lust; you wanted to touch yourself, but Toji's length required all of your attention.

And when he praised you-

"Fuck you are getting better at this baby-"

That- made you all the happier. You let out a deep moan. You were pleasing him, and he wasn't trying to shove himself into your throat. He let you work on his length at your own pace, finding how you liked to slide him on your tongue. It seemed there were no wrong answers, and it gave you the confidence you needed. And perhaps he wasn't just saying you were getting better just to say it because you didn't feel much of a tickle as you began to bob your head quicker.

It felt soooo good to be able to do it without that uncomfortable feeling. And once you got into a perfect rhythm, Toji's hand gripped the back of your head, and his hips began to match your pace. Your eyes watered, and you felt like you couldn't breathe, but somehow you were still very much getting off on it. Just as your eyes crossed, Toji pulled you off with a gasp. But you knew his demise was near, and something in you wanted it bad-maybe it was your cunt you don't know, but it was like your own orgasm was right there with him. So you pumped faster.

"FUCK-" Toji pushed your hands away, stepping back; he lost his balance plummeting in the water.

Your mouth fell open in utter shock, but then you started laughing, realizing what happened, "Toji! Toji, are you okay?"

Your alpha surged out of the water, grabbing you in the process. He had you pinned against the side. "What did I tell you about being greedy?"

"I'm sorry, I just-got a little excited to make you cum with my mouth."

"You can choke on it all you want tomorrow when you are in bed. I already told you what I was doing, spoiled girl."

You know there was some anger in his voice because he wanted to be able to go all out finally, and you almost made him blow his load, but at the same time you knew he wouldn't actually be mad at you.

But you show remorse.

"I'm sorry~."

"Are you?" He questioned as he grabbed your thigh.

At least you tried. "Maybeaaah~" Your words quickly melted into a moan as his fingers slid around to touch where you needed him the most. That warmth seemed to explode with a crackle of pleasure. You arched your back for more.

"Ah, baby, you are so wet." Your head was leaned back with pleasure, and your alpha seized the opportunity to place kisses upon your exposed neck.

"Oh fuck-Toji please-ooh~" You cried with each peck of his lips and each brush of his knuckles against your sensitive bud.

"Tell me..." He licked up your neck to speak in your ear, " ...what you need."  

He was getting his payback on you!

"Your knot! Please! Please knot me!" But you were not shy to beg for the occasion. "I'm sorry for not being a good girl!" Or apologize.

"You want me to fuck you here?" He questioned, hooking his thumb into your mouth.

You shook your head, pulling his wrist so you could show him where you wanted him. "Here- here, please~ Do it- do it like how you showed me with the toy."

That had his eyes darken. "You will take it for me?"

You quickly nodded, "Yes- I will be a good girl and take it- so be my good alpha and give it to me, please. Will you be a good alpha and take care of me?"

"Yes. Always." He released a growl, hiking your legs up.

"Mm!" You felt the press of his tip, and you couldn't help but release a cry of pleasure as he popped into you. You were so sensitive from the gel that you had come within an instant. Toji groaned with you, rocking slowly as your natural lubrication gave him ease.

Each new bit of him made you sigh in delight, and also gush. Your body was already trembling from cumming three times before he was able to thrust himself inside you fully.

You felt him nuzzle your damp face, kissing you softly on your temple as he purred, "You still with me, baby?"

"Mhm..." You licked your lips as your eyes rolled to find his own.

"How are you feeling?" He questioned with worry.

"Good...so...so good..." You wrapped your arms around his neck, "...Make me feel even better...Make me drunk on your cock."

"You want me to spoil you?" He grinned as he began to move, in and out, his cock sending a shock of pleasure to every part of your body.

"Y-yes- please-"  

"Tell me if it's too much. Understand?"

"Yes, alpha." You couldn't even move with him; all you could do was hold on to him as he lifted you into the air and began to really bounce you on his cock.

It was so intense and exhilarating. You were crying and moaning all at the same time. The way he fucked you made you feel as though you were going to go to Tengen with the fattest smile on your face. You were so consumed with Toji. He was all you could think about. His heavy grunting, the slapping of your bodies fucking, the sound of your juices dripping into the water, the praises that you were receiving.

Nothing else mattered.

You were just mush in his arms, and you felt so comfortable.

"I'm about to cum-"

"I-I love you, I love you, I love you-" You whined against his chest.

"Fuck-" He grunted, slowing his movements. He was panting heavily, as were you, as you continued to spill your love for him. He moved to sit with you in his lap, rubbing your back gently. "I love you too- you did so well taking me." He lifted your chin, giving you gentle kisses. Your arms were too weak for you to even hold his neck anymore; they had slid off his chest.

"Hmm~" You hummed, your eyes barely open. "Did you...you didn't knot?" You questioned, fear in your voice.

Shit-

"I got a cramp." He lied.

That made you release a little giggle as you slowly pushed yourself up, "L-Let me try to..."

"No, I'm good, baby, I just want to hold you."

"Mmkay..." You lay against his chest. "Was I a good girl?"

"You are always a good girl."

"A good... spoiled girl." You say with a sleepy laugh.

"My good spoiled girl." He corrected, kissing you on the forehead. That put a smile on your face as you drifted off to sleep.

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Chef Notes:

1.) Sorry this has been a busy week, so I didn’t get a chance to reply to your messages! I’ll get to them as soon as I can 🖤!

2.) I leave you to decide if Toji ran across the lawn with a towel or without a towel.

3.) Growing up is realizing you're becoming Squidward, and it was crazy that Vanessa left Kevin for the very thing that he was allergic to lol.