Update June 2024 (Patreon)

Thank you so much to everyone who has left kind responses & shown your support.

It was last December during the video marathon when I was feeling blue, the videos weren't doing badly, I appreciate I was able to put out a video on pretty much every topic I could think of & they all broke 50k (more or less),

but the race and stress to keep going for what was a minimal reward made me wonder if I could really keep it up, there was also the failure of the plush project, which was niche but I wanted to see if I could do it.


The channel was never a money maker, of course. But as long as it made the amount I needed, I didn't mind, although it can lead to a constant feeling of chasing, of always having to release something this month. 
Afraid to check the support level in case it drops, your sense of self-worth becomes tied to that number.
I'm getting a bit in my head about it all and the ADHD doesn't help me with being the best and maintaining the channel or Patreon, I'm trying my best.

 I'm also a bit tired of the problem brand, I try to write the videos around that theme when I use it, but sometimes it can feel a bit suffocating. 
It's become the brand of the bigger videos on the channel for sure, and naming videos is hard to get right on YouTube, honestly I don't feel I'm the best at it.

I don't know if I'm going to use it in the final mega cut of this potential series, at this point I'd just like to throw it all to the ground and call it "Mamoru Oshii Documentary" or something. Not sure if YouTube would like that.

 I've been offered a second sponsorship commission from squarespace for the Winter Original, I didn't want to take it as I was afraid I'd overdo it, but I've worked with them on the terms & I have something more viable planned.

 I'm going to start the project now and take a break over the Christmas break to do some other simple videos.

Thank you all for your continued support and I hope you're looking forward to it!