Frisky February 2020: Days 21-24! (High Res.) (Patreon)

Good afternoon, everybody!

I know I've been a little quiet with work, considering all that I've updated you (albeit vaguely) and with the recent state of the world. These pieces come to you with a lot of hard work and  sweat put behind them, so I hope you like the finished products.

There are still FIVE (5) pieces I have left to complete, and I am doing my absolute hardest to finish them before the end of this month. To think that FF would take me TWO whole months to finish is... insane, and I apologize for the tardiness of the pieces. 

Not to leave you all without some kind of look into what I was dealing with, I figured opening up about a sliver of the issues I've encountered would help put a bit of my situation in perspective. There are, of course, a multitude of other factors that have set me back - all of which pertaining to my personal life, and thus affecting me emotionally/mentally more than anything - but at this time I only feel comfortable enough to talk about the following:

These past two months have been less than ideal in so many ways. As I may have touched upon on my social media, I've had a very time mentally/emotionally due to a number of factors, one of the bigger ones being that I had been struggling in one of my relationships and, at the beginning of March, decided to split with one of my partners. 

A good chunk of February was spent finally addressing a lot of conflict and obstacles put in our way throughout the past several months, meaning I'd been having to deal with so many issues that have put me on edge and have been difficult to navigate for months. A decision to take a break for the remainder of February was made, but in the end it caused more damage than it healed. 

Ultimately we decided that we couldn't really salvage what we had. Although we parted amicably for the most part, the stress, anxiety, and overall exhaustion dealing with the situation has put me in a bad place mentally and emotionally. Still, I'm trucking through as best I can while still fending off other sources of negativity and pain in my personal life, and I'm taking careful steps to surround myself with my support systems, take regular breaks, and to just make sure that I am okay.

This was not something I wanted to address even on Discord despite the community we have in the server being one I consider close to me, nor was this something I wanted to bring up on Twitter. I feel that you, my Patrons, were owed a little more insight to what was happening beyond the vague suggestions, though. It feels silly, of course, to admit that a lot of my stress and sadness stems from the loss of someone I loved from my life, but I can't deny the impact it's made.

Thank you so much for your understanding and for your patience, and for being here for me despite everything going on. I love you all from the bottom of my heart.

XO, AZULITY