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It’s been a minute since I put out art, and I am SO sorry about that y’all. It’s been due to a number of factors that all kinda snowballed- first family drama, then personal health issues, then my job hemorrhaging more and more staff and desperately dumping more and more duties on remaining workers (ie. myself) for no additional compensation, and then finally a dreadful, lengthy PMDD-induced depressive episode. Ya boi is hanging in there! But goddamn it’s been a rough couple of weeks. Make no mistake, I have absolutely been trying to make art, but my brain has not been cooperating, kinda like a jammed printer. No amount of pounding on it and swearing will make it work! >:( So I’m trying instead to take a little breather.

I feel myself returning, I’m getting there. I enjoyed drawing this, which is a good sign. I know that the clouds of PMDD will clear soon and my creative mojo will come back in full, it always does. But I just wanted to apologize to all of you, and communicate why I haven’t made any art lately. And I wanted to say thank you for sticking with me as long as you have. Your support means the world to me, y’all are the reason I draw! 💗I may have been knocked down, but I very much plan on dusting myself off and getting back on my feet soon. As always, thank y’all for your patience and support. 💕

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pookaWOODS

No problem at all, love. Take care of yourself first and we can wait.

ChaosTart

Hey, I don't think you should beat yourself up for things you had no control over. Especially when it leads to the detriment of you mental well-being. We are all trying to hang in there in this really trying time. You should give yourself more credit. You're doing amazing! I hope you feel better from this bad bout of P.M.D.D. episode! 🥰

Doxiedreg

Hey you are not a machine!! Take all the time you need to recover! Sounds like youve had it really rough!

ErrorVittra

Mental health comes first! It's good that you acknowledged that you needed a break, hope everything gets better Lop!

MiyaLaFlorDorada

Oh sweetie I'm so sorry, I really relate to the feeling of never ending crushing reality, especially with mental and physical issues, heck even if some say "at least you have..." or "just get over it and get your shit together" or "well it just how the world is" That doesn't help at all! And it's very condescending and mean. So even if our situation are different cuz culture and country, I hope you can get the help you need and I send you all the good vibes so everything gets better, take all the times you need 💖

Gleeman and Artist

Yeah sometimes life gets rough and I think we all get that. Especially with the political climate in america rn. Take care of yourself. I don't mind waiting for art

Mars

Art or no art, Im happy to support you anyway; Please take care and go at your pace, it really sounds like youve been going through it. Cheers

SnakesNSnoodles

No worries man, sincerely take your time I'm not going anywhere. Just make sure you're not burning yourself out even more trying to draw when you don't feel like it. Take care of yourself dude, mental health is super important

Bigsmile

You good Lop, take all the time you need your well being always comes first.

Lammergayier

Take care of yourself! We aren't going anywhere! Also dear LORD I feel you on the PMDD. I've never been officially diagnosed with it but recently I had my period come back for the first time since November and I genuinely thought I was about to completely lose my grasp on sanity until I realized what was happening :,)

DorkRaptor

Hang in there, Lop. Many of us, including myself, understand the struggles of depression and pmdd. Besides, we’re your ride or die followers. We’re not going anywhere, especially not because of a little art hiatus. You always have our understanding and support. Feel better soon <3

Calastor

Oh my guy, that SUCKS! Please keep taking care of yourself and don't worry about us, we will be here when you feel better, your mental health always comes first! ❤️❤️❤️

Queenie

No worries dude ❤️❤️ your mental and physical wellbeing always comes first. Art should bring you joy, not dread. Take all the time you need!!

L In Motion

We are all here for you my dude - and it's gonna stay that way! 💜🫂✨

owlcoholik

real talk tho why is the pre period like 1000x worse than the actual period. Pre period I feel like I’ve made every wrong choice then bam period and I’m just sleepy and crampy. Hang in there and play some video games till your brain reorientates itself in your skull and the hormonal miasma clears

Rumpeltyltskyn

Take your time. I don’t even think it’s been that long since you’ve posted art. You’re good, take care of yourself

lopoddity

Right? Growing up I HATED getting my period because my cramps were miserable. As an adult I'm always happy to get it because it at least means a switch from mental misery to physical misery. I have months where my PMDD is manageable, and then I have months where I straight up want to swerve into oncoming traffic, or become so engulfed with rage at the smell of my coworkers burnt popcorn that I have to rush to the bathroom to burst into tears. I'm legitimately in an altered state of mind during these times and can't trust my own feelings or intuition, I HATE it. I feel reduced to a toddler-like state, kicking and screaming, unable to be comforted, swinging wildly from depression to rage, wanting to isolate myself and convinced everyone hates me and it's too late to ever find happiness. Then I get my period and it's like la la la what a wonderful day~ 🌞🕊🌷🏞🌈 teehee #blessed. It'd be funny if it wasn't, y'know. Genuinely debilitating

lopoddity

Thank you. 💗I try to never go more than 2 weeks without posting art, so I was very upset to find myself sitting today at 3 whole weeks since my last upload. It's a first, and I worried I was letting y'all down and/or ripping y'all off. I'm trying to take care of my mental health, but also, I REALLY want to draw again. Art is a big part of maintaining my morale and my mental health takes a hit when I'm art blocked. :/

Must Love Frogs

We are not art robots. Be safe and well.

Strixcaliber

God I feel like this past month has been cursed. I hope you're feeling better and your situation has improved! take all the time you need to rest :> ❤️

Mangosight

We're all just glad you're taking care of yourself!

Mastodon

Honestly, this has been the year from hell for a lot of people (myself included, I got [poses] laid off), and even though your art brings me a lot of joy and much-needed distraction from The Horrors, I don't want it to be at the expense of the artist! Take your time, rest up, and I hope you feel better soon!

EarthnAshes

Rough times man, rough times. :( No need to apologize for taking care of yourself man, take as long as you'd like and need! I hope things improve on your end! 🙏

lopoddity

Thanks! The funny thing is, sometimes I get so caught up in this sorta paralyzing Expectation to Produce Content that my brain clogs up and I can't make anything at all. I made this post to be transparent with y'all, but also to alleviate my own guilt/shame a little, and the neat thing is, it's working. Now that I've been honest and the Expectation to Produce Content has been at least partly abated, I can feel the clog starting to dissipate. I made another drawing after this one, and am drawing more right now. :3

AsTheJayFlies

I’m glad to hear that drawing this was therapeutic, because im amazed at how detailed it is! The wrinkles on the shirt, the shine on the hair and tail, the burnt texture - if this is you when youre feeling low, then im impressed! you could’ve uploaded a stick figure (or no art at all) and i would’ve understood, but this just makes me cheer you on all the harder :)

lopoddity

ALSO, I'm so sorry to hear you got laid off. :( That fucking sucks, and I hope you can find better, secure work soon.

Paladin

I hope you feel better soon! I don't mind waiting at all. :3

Royce and Royce

You got this, Lop! Burnout sucks, but it's not the end. Hoping you're able to recover, whether you want to share art soon or not. <3

Mastodon

I appreciate that so much ;_; it's been a real shit couple of months, but I'm trying to just focus on the bright spots (and go outside more, lol). I hope your work eases up a bit soon! Truly the only thing worse than unemployment is a stressful job... it's almost like this system isn't set up for workers or something, who knows

Robo87

Oh love I’m sorry 😞 Come cuddle in my ample bosom boobs make everything better!!! I sincerely hope you feel better soon and just all the love and hugs and good vibes and dirty milf thoughts sent your way 🌈 🌈 🌈 🌈

Morghann Patterson

I mean honestly- it’s been less than a month. You’ve got a life! You’re allowed to live it! I’m a patron because I love visiting the art gallery and I would like to favor my favorite artist. I hope you feel better soon- you’re not a machine, and you’re certainly not expected to behave as one! Burn outs a bitch and we’re rooting for you!!!!