pic that I forgot to post + blablabla (Patreon)

(pic unrelated to post)

Hi guys. I’m sorry I’ve been so inactive last month. A couple of months ago my partner broke up with me — it was really unexpected, even though things hadn’t been smooth for a while. And the mistake I made was convincing myself that I was totally fine. Like, “Oh, I’m such a caring and understanding person, I’m handling this great,” just because they were being kind while breaking up with me.

Of course I felt sad and angry — but only for a little while. And last month it finally caught up with me. I’d wake up every day with no reason to get out of bed. Thankfully my dog forced me to go outside, and those walks actually helped. But I had no energy for anything, I couldn’t sleep well, and I had no idea what was going on.

The good thing is that a few days ago I finally realized what was happening (without going into details of how). It’s been about a week now, and I’m slowly starting to feel like a living person again, little by little, day by day. I have a feeling (and definitely hope) that I’ll get my energy and mood for drawing back soon.

The lesson is: my friends, don’t ever let wishful thinking get the best of you :DIncluding the image of yourself as you want to be, instead of how you actually are. Suppressed emotions slowly drain the life out of you. Peace 🤞

Also, I started doing transcendental meditation (I wonder if anyone here also practice it) — I’m finishing my lessons with my teacher today. So far it feels good. Maybe I’ll write about it again sometime when/if I notice more results.