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What's Been Going on Behind the Scenes. Beffy Update! (Mental Health + Healing) (Patreon)

Published:
2026-10-28 18:34:18
Imported:
2026-10

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(Warning: Discussing my mental)

Hey everyone. I know I haven't been as proactive these last few months Gonna be honest, these last two months I've been struggling with mental health, suicidal ideations, and a disorder that I did not know I had. I tried my best to ignore it, but quickly ran out of fumes and crashed. T.T

I felt terrible for not being consistent. I saw everyone else run right past me and fully believed "I've been away for so long, there's no point in returning". Unfortunately, due to trauma this is how I processed my emotions/surroundings. My confidence was never built on solid foundation, so anything and everything scared me. Even typing this out is kinda terrifying for me :(

But I know the first step is always the worst so.. Here I am! This isn't me trying to be BethyVA, this is just me in my rawest form. I escaped a cycle of neglect and abuse, only to continue it for years by not taking initiative of my health. So for the last few months, I finally took those small steps towards recovery. Got medicated, going to specialized therapy every week, and just... allowing myself to rebuild what I never had.

I won't lie, it's scary. Feels like I'm slowly breaking out of a world I knew to one I know nothing about. But I know I'll be okay! I miss all of you so much. Thought about everyone and how awful I felt for disappearing out of nowhere again. I don't want to make any promises, but I can promise one thing: I will get better!!!

As for now, I am still trying to figure out how to return to content creation. I wanna find out my true niche... Hrmmm, I was even thinking about making it about my recovery! But Idk... I'll figure it out wehehe! I apologize for the HUMONGOUS post, but I don't wanna mask anymore. I've been fronting for so long and it's honestly exhausting Moving forward, I just wanna be me!!

As for now, I am slowly getting back into YT. Got a video that I hope I can make before Halloween. If not, that's fine too :D Thankz 4 reading!! I apologize for the mood nuke LOL But, I do want to end off with this. PLEASE prioritize yourself!!! You are absolutely worth the care you need. Don't let anyone, including yourself say otherwise. (Take it from me bro's, trust!!!)

Much love always,

Bethers

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Thiccc_Dak

We hope you start feeling better! Take as long as you need, self care is important.

TheWanderingHero

Your health is always important, do what you gotta do we'll be here for you c:

RamsheadRiot

If everyone could be at 100% all the time, we’d never need breaks or time to heal. Take your time, we’ll be waiting and I know it’ll be great! 😁👍

RaichuTheDripKing

Hey, as long as you’re doing okay, that’s all that matters. Mental health is something people have to start taking seriously… it’s always good to know that you’re still around and you’re doing alright, even if you’re not. 😎🙌🏽💛⚡️

DaBossBass

It takes tremendous courage to admit when everything is not okay, Bethy. So thank you for opening up to us, and keep the momentum of your health going. We’re here to support you, period.

eternalfiles.exe

Bethy we understand. Never feel ashamed or anything badly not being able to upload or share anything, we love you and we’ll always continue to support you no matter what. So please take as much time as you need to recover and get back into your grove 🫶🏼

Gengar Zeppeli

Welcome back! I truly hope things get better for you soon, it's always good to hear from you ❤️ Take care

Jaydan Bell

Your life is the most valuable gift you possess, you are worthy of so many great things, and your existence isn’t accidental because being born here means you are worthy of the best, you are worthy of love, and you make amazing things happen like your channel, for starters. It’s fine if you give up on others, like me, but never give up on yourself because you only got one life and you’re worthy of amazing gifts. I won’t ever give up on you because you are someone that’s made life more fulfilling for me, you’re someone that makes everyday a gift, and your presence is empowering because your voice, desire to make videos, and love is always a gift. Love you, Betheter! 💖 🫂

Cole Tobin

There's no need to be anyone other than who you are, Bethy.

Aion

It's completely understandable Bethy, take all the time you need to heal, while i can't speak for everyone but as long as we're able we still be here for when your back 💚

TheFlamingDraco

Hey man, sorry to hear about what you've been going through. Remember to take your time and go at your own pace, we'll be here for you

Kingston

Im happy you opened up about all this, its pretty difficult and serous stuff you've been going through. I'm happy you're starting to work on it though! We love you Beffy

UNSC Saratoga

Hang tough. We’ll always back you.

Gengar Rob

Thank you for feeling brave enough to be so vulnerable. I been feeling the same way lately and it seems like I keep running into people that are showing that even if it’s not easy, you can take those first steps to being better. It might not feel real but I’m sure your community is here to support you while you figure out what ever you want to do going forward. And there is no timetable for healing, so do what ever you need, for however long it takes. And I hope you find peaceful moments along the way till you feel like you’re in a place that feels safe and happy. I’ll leave the lights on until then.

Zero

Take as much time as you need fo everything and don't worry about being gone for "too long". I believe your community will always be happy to see you no matter how long it takes.

CommanderMacho

I think we can all say we appreciate you being so open and brave enough to tell us what’s going on with you and we’re hoping you start building yourself back up again and be a healthy Beffy! I’ll still be here and no matter what and hoping the best for you! Feel Better 💚.

DrEarthwormRobotnik

Bethy, take as long as you need to heal. Your content as helped most of us out in the past, and we'll be ready when you are.

GINGYDAGOAT

I feel this in a molecular level. I have a few family members that have gone through stuff like this before. But just trust the process. I believe in you and if anyone else says other fuck em. We all fight our own battles mentally and physically. Military taught me that the most. You and any one else can win and make it out of the tunnel.

Reabe

Glad to know you're still with us and recovering, and I have nothing but respect for the courage you've shown in telling us! Still, hope you have someone close at hand to help you through the rough bits, you deserve that much and so much more. Take your time, be well, eat some good food, and have a happy Halloween (or don't, I'm not your mother)!

Drew Lyon

Sorry to hear about what you went through, happy to hear you’re recovering. We’re were for you as I believe you’ve become part of our lives. Please continue taking care of yourself and being yourself.

Davin Long

No need to be sorry Bethy, I’m sorry you have to go through this at all. I’m also proud of you for putting in the work to take care of yourself even when it’s clearly difficult, it shows strength in your character! I wish you the very best in your mental health journey and will continue to support your amazing work, I’m grateful you’re still here and I’ll sure be there for when you eventually come back! Best wishes and Have an amazing Halloween 🎃- Davin Long

Phoenix Brave Hideki

Im glad things are better Bethy and no problems on any audios. Take as long as needed. Your health and safety are the most important. We will support you as always.

MrcWillis

I’m really sorry to hear that, glad your getting the help you need, please take care and thank you for the message. Please don’t be ashamed, there’s no need to be sorry, it’s more understandable why you’ve had to take time off and what matters is for you to take care of yourself. We are very proud and happy for you taking that first step, you deserve to live and be loved, please never forget that. We love you Bethy and we appreciate you, thanks again for all the wonderful ASMRs audios over the years, they have helped so much and are wonderful. Best wishes and hopes for you, we’ll be here to help as much as we can. (Apologies if this message was all over the place, I’m not the best with words) Lots of love to you as always Bethy 💚💕

YoBaronICanDigIt

Take care of yourself, Bethy. Rooting for you, no need to rush, whenever you are ready. Keep rockin' it.

Leachy

Take as long as you need!!

Evan Muro

This is a lot to take in, but Im just happy you're taking care of yourself. You don't need to push yourself just for us, all we can ask for is that you do what's best for you. Hope you feel better Oshi

OrangeMarvin

All we care about is you’re doing ok. Great to hear you’re taking positive steps. You’ve got this!

Samuel Philbrick

It's okay to not be okay, Bethy. I know I don't comment much, but I've listened to your videos for a long time, and I've always thought you were great at it. That's neither here nor there for what I'm ultimately trying to say, but what I am trying to say is, I'm proud of you for doing what you have to do to take care of yourself. And don't ever think that a message about healing and growing is a mood nuke, that's one of the most uplifting things anyone can share!

Steven Islas

*hugging tightly* thank you for opening up to us Bethy, you are so loved, cared and appreciated, it breaks my soul and heart to see you go through this, You deserve the world and more love from loved ones and us around you. We’ll get through whatever you’re going through. Sending lots of love, strength, hugs and prayers. We love you so much. May the Lord watch and comfort you in his care. 🫂❤️🫂💚🫂💚🫂❤️🙏🤍🙏✝️

Josh

Sorry to hear that. I'm glad you're slowly taking the steps to improve your mental health and your courage to show your vulnerability is inspiring. We may not know you personally or interacted in real life but, your still human being with fears, doubts and worries. many of us go through our own battles. The one thing we can do is to see the light at the end of the tunnel and keep moving forward on our continuous journey. hope your mental health heals up. 🩷💚🐸🎙

Dragon Prince

No need to apologize. Your mental is super important and we’re all happy you’re making steps towards bettering it. Remember to take time for yourself and we’ll be here for whenever you’re ready

I Dunno, Something

Take your time. I get how this sort of thing can go and no sense forcing yourself into something you don't feel you can do right.

Sam

Thank you for writing this out. It takes real courage to put the hard parts down instead of masking them, especially after everything you’ve already come through. Getting medicated and going to therapy every week are solid steps, even when it still feels scary and unfamiliar. You’re allowed to take the time you need and figure out what content looks like when it’s actually you, not a front. No need to apologise for the post or for disappearing. A lot of us are just glad you’re still here and taking care of yourself. Your raw form is enough. You’ll be okay, and we’re still here whenever you’re ready, no pressure and no timelines. Prioritise yourself the way you told everyone else to. You’ve already survived so much. You’ve got this! Sorry for long lol 💚

Beach Bumm Casey Jones

Know how you feel a little to well TBH just take care of yourself we care bout ya even we don't know ya to well

Michael_Star

You said that even typing out this was scary for you, so first of all, Thank You! Thank You for pushing yourself to type this update for us, we are so grateful to even hear from you Bethy. Mental Health is such a cruel mistress, the human mind, furthermore is such a fickle thing. Even when people tell you positive things, it's so hard to believe them sometimes, as much as you want to, the trauma inflicted on you takes hold tells you otherwise and it's so hard to shake those thoughts. In fact, I just had a depressive episode just this morning before work, and I had to text my best friend about it to get those feelings and words I was feeling out because it was painful and causing me a lot of heartache, just typing my thoughts out to him helped me feel better, so I hope typing this update ended up having a similar effect for you. Let me just end my comment with this: WE LOVE YOU SO DEARLY. We are not upset that you've been gone, especially when this is the reason. We just want you to be better. I wish I could give you a hug, but unfortunately I can't through the boundaries of the internet, so you'll have to settle for an internet hug 🤗 🫂 Also, we're happy your trying to get that video out before Halloween, but if not, please try not to worry about it too much, okie? One more thing, Thank You so much for taking a step back from content to realize you weren't in a good place mentally and prioritizing it, because that isn't the easiest thing to do, especially since you might've thought that you were letting us down by stepping away to focus on your mental health, so again, Thank You for focusing on yourself! Your health, mental, physical, emotional, whatever it may be, IS, HAS always been and WILL ALWAYS be more important than you giving us content, okay? Occasional updates like this is more than enough for us, okay? PLEASE, take ALL the time you need, we will be here, when your ready to come back, okay? Please take care of yourself Bethy. With Love -Michael 🧡🖤✨️

Urban Hermit

Thanks for the update, Bethy! I wish you a speedy and complete recovery!

Shanard Smith

I'm terribly sorry to hear that, Ms. Bethy. I really hope you get better! I'm sending you a big warm hug.

Michael Miller

Take care of yourself Miss Bethy, and take as long as you need to recover and figure out the path ahead. It sounds like you went through a lot, maybe even just a slice of hell, and rushing recovery is never a good thing. Take as long as needed, and make sure you're okay. Missed you and your content a lot, but it's good to know you're on the mend now and getting better. :3

Celticguardian1020

Take care of yourself first. The rest will follow naturally. And remember that even if you can't see it, you are loved. God bless.

KingXeno

We've been patiently waiting and we can continue to wait long as you come back fully charge and happy with yourself. You got this bethy and we all believe and hope the best for you

CerberusH.o.H.

I’m sorry. As someone who has also struggled with suicidal ideation and thoughts, I’m so sorry. There is no comfort I can offer. All I can say, is that I’m sorry. I love you my friend.