A Hiatus, an Experience, and an Apology (Patreon)

Till date, I never believed I could ever develop an aversion to typing out my own imagination. Not until I experienced it myself. I finally understand now why some of my favourite mangaka can disappear into hiatus.

I had very high expectations for this year. I charged into 2026 like a mammoth, but reality is far crueler than the land of imagination. I can assure you, writer’s block is as real as it gets. The Outer Gods alone know how many ideas popped into my head, ideas that could have been some of the best I ever had, only to disappear because I couldn’t bring myself to record them or type them out.

The sheer laziness I seem to have been cursed with has stuck to me like ink on my soul. I genuinely cannot describe it any better than that.

I tried a brief resurgence in the middle of the year, but that was quickly crushed by some harsh reviews and comments on Mum Knows Best. I cannot even say they were entirely wrong. I wrote some of those chapters in what felt like a fever dream. Originally, I had gone even wilder, but I toned things down and later retconned parts of it because they started weighing heavily on both my conscience and the logic of the story. Even porn logic has limits to how far it can be manipulated before it starts collapsing on itself.

For the last two months, I have been asking for advice from other people like me. Sadly, as a smut writer, I cannot exactly walk up to people and explicitly explain every detail of the problem I am having, but I did eventually get an answer.

You cannot write properly without enough experience with different emotions and without reading extensively. Running after perfection while still writing the first draft is one of the fastest ways to kill a story. At best, perfection comes when it wants to. Most of the time, it happens almost by accident. Even legendary authors cannot simply recreate it whenever they desire. Maybe you can chase it from the beginning if you are writing some great epic built on years of blood, tears, and sweat, but for most stories, obsessing over every line before the chapter even exists just stops you from writing at all.

So here I am again, with another apology.

But this time, I do have something to show for the months I disappeared. I have amassed several chapters that I have been proofreading and editing over time, and I am going to release them across the next fifteen days.

Today, I am releasing TWO chapters of Mum Knows Best. Be sure to read the interlude as well, because it may eventually develop into its own tangent later. If you have any ideas regarding it, feel free to message me.

I will also be releasing rewritten versions of some of my older works. Looking back at them now, I can see that I can do many of them much better, so I might as well try. I will be re-releasing those here as well.

Once again, thank you for sticking with me all this time. I hope you stay until the end, or at least until the day I finally stop writing smut.