🎂Happy Birthday to Me 祝我生日快樂🎂 (Patreon)

昨天是我生日！

很開心今年有好多人來參加我的生日派對，和我一起度過今年的生日

今年是我創作以來最忙碌的一年，有很多想做的事，也有很多新的機會雖然忙得沒什麼時間休息，也有想躺下甚麼都不做的時候，但想到有這麼多人在支持著我，就會讓我想再努力一點，才不會辜負大家的支持

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今年生日派對的消息只分享在 Discord 的伺服器

每年唯一一次的生日，我想和那些把我放在心上的人一起過所以只收取當天的場地和餐飲費用，沒有其他宣傳或行銷目的，也禁止超過 1000 新台幣以上的禮物我想和大家一起聊天、玩遊戲，也邀請大家一起出現在我的直播裡，希望是一個有趣的慶祝方式和回憶很謝謝大家願意空出時間，來參加我的生日派對雖然這次行程有點倉促，也沒有完成原本預期的直播內容，希望大家開心

開始創作及直播以來，有很多話想和大家說，有開心也有難過，但總想著很多事情不必張揚，更不需要用說的，又或著想等更好的機會再說，所以遲遲沒說出口

我想生日是個不錯的機會，是個值得開心的日子，也是有很多情緒的一天

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我總把自己想成是一個單純的娛樂提供者販售自己創作的作品，也提供情緒價值陪伴大家

這聽著很冰冷、很無情，也很無趣，但這之中我放了很多真心我偶爾會想，是什麼原因讓你們願意留下，是因為陪伴，還是我的創作，或是單純的支持不管事什麼原因，我都感恩在心，把大家放在心上

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每一個人的支持對我來說都非常珍貴，在我眼裡每一分錢都是每個人付出時間和汗水換來的

所以在大家的支持外，我不想再要求任何金錢或物品，所有我想要的物品或創作上需要升級的設備，我都會自行購買和升級也因為這樣，我從不買什麼豪華的奢侈品，除了可愛的盲盒公仔 (´꒳`)b

我幾乎不做任何行銷手法，沒有累積打賞提供獎勵、行動的機制，或一些節日優惠、飢餓行銷等等

我更希望自己能做的是不斷提升作品品質和數量，穩定的直播陪伴，提供更多真正的價值

【 我希望我的所有創作和付出能忠於自我，大家的支持也能感到值得 】

這是我一直努力的目標，只是也不希望最後變得越來越忙，反而連原本很珍惜的東西都沒有時間顧到

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不過最近感覺好像有點努力太多不是因為我覺得累，而是我發現我越來越沒時間和大家聊天和相處

創作這幾年來，有很多新粉絲的加入，這讓我很開心，非常非常開心每次寫下新的名字，記住新的聲音，認識新的人，都讓我感覺充滿力量但是這之中，也有許多離別

隨著一場又一場的活動，一次又一次的相聚，有些熟悉的面孔慢慢地不再出現以前活動合照裡總有幾個固定的人，Discord 裡一起玩遊戲的人也有固定的一群，現在回頭看，好像也換了一批

雖然新的粉絲又不斷地加入，每次活動散場前的大合照後，都還是會讓我百感交集

我知道人來來去去很正常，不需要甚麼理由人生如果有什麼值得自己前往，或著值得離開的地方，這都是好事有時也可能不是誰離開了，是我自己先走去了不同的地方

我也確實越來越忙，一起相處的時間越來越少有些人不再出現後，我才發現想說的話已經沒機會再說

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所以我想說：

如果你還在我身邊 - 【 謝謝你願意支持我，我會努力讓每一份支持都感到值得。】

如果你已經離開並讀到了這裡 - 【 謝謝你一路的陪伴，我不是希望你回來，只是希望那段一起走過的時間，對你來說也曾經是好的回憶，希望所有的離別都伴隨著理解、感謝和祝福，不論暫時或永遠。】

如果你曾經陪我走過 - 【 謝謝你曾經的陪伴，我很珍惜，雖然你不一定會知道，祝福你快樂，也平安。】

深夜時我難免還是會想，是不是自己有什麼地方做得不夠好，偶爾也會懷疑自己但我也慢慢知道，每個人都有自己的生活，也有自己的方向

相遇有它的時間，離開也是，沒有誰一定犯了什麼錯這大概也是我要不斷複習的課題

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最後提我最不想提的，因為不想提所以放到最後

我一路走來並不算順利，不被看好甚至曾經被訕笑雖然一路走來也依然有遇到一些貴人相助，但我總會聽到有人在背後議論我的聲音

這幾年來我一直很少說這些不是因為完全沒有話想說，而是很多事情一旦開始解釋，好像又會產生更多的誤解，解釋也可能被當成藉口

我也不想把大家拉進原本不屬於你們的私人關係裡，不希望任何人需要選邊站，也不想因為說了這些，讓誰因為同情而支持我

我希望大家留下來，還是因為喜歡我的作品、直播，或單純喜歡和我相處

如果你有聽到或曾聽到關於我的任何事，你可以選擇從別人口中認識我，也可以親自來了解我

我只願相信誤解的人只是誤解，誤會也僅止在誤會如果真的有人因為一些誤解離開，我想我更多的是遺憾

但人生也不是每件事都要追根究柢，也不是每個珍惜的關係都要拼命抓住好像有些遺憾更適合接受，才能慢慢放過自己

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新的一年開始，希望大家都能找到讓自己自在的歸處，都能平安、順利

也希望大家都能在這世界，無論面對多少風雨，感受多少悲喜，品嘗多少酸甜

最後回頭看的時候，都能感到無悔、值得

Yesterday was my birthday!

I’m really happy that so many people came to my birthday party this year and spent my birthday together

This has been the busiest year I’ve had since I started creating content. There are so many things I want to do, and so many new opportunities too.Even though I’ve been so busy that I barely have time to rest, and there are definitely times when I just want to lie down and do absolutely nothing, thinking about how many people are supporting me always makes me want to try a little harder, so I will keep on going.

I only shared the details of this year’s birthday party on my Discord server.

I only get one birthday every year, and I'm glad to spend it with people that love me and have been caring for me so much.

So I only asked everyone to cover their own venue and food costs for the day. There was no other promotional or marketing purpose, and I also asked everyone not to bring gifts worth more than NT$1,000.

I just wanted to chat, play games together, and invite everyone to be part of my stream too. I thought it would be a fun way to celebrate and make some memories together.Thank you so much to everyone who took the time to come to my birthday party.Things were a little rushed this time, and I didn’t manage to finish everything I originally planned for the stream, but I hope everyone still had a good time.

Ever since I started creating content and streaming, there have been a lot of things I’ve wanted to say to everyone, both happy and difficult things. But I’ve always felt not everything needs to be explained. Sometimes I also kept thinking that maybe there would be a better time to talk about it, so a lot of those words were never really said.

I thought my birthday might be a good opportunity. It’s a day worth being happy about, but also a day that comes with a lot of emotions.

I’ve always thought of myself as simply someone who provides entertainment.I sell the things I create, and I also try to be there for people that need my emotional support.

That probably sounds a little cold, emotionless, and boring, but I’ve put a lot of genuine feelings into it.Sometimes I wonder what makes you want to stay. Is it the companionship, my work, or simply because you want to support me?Whatever the reason is, I’m grateful for it, and I keep all of you in my heart.

Every person’s support means a lot to me. To me, every dollar comes from someone’s time and hard work.

So beyond the support you already give me, I don’t want to ask for more money or gifts. Anything I want, or any equipment I need to upgrade for my work, I’ll buy and upgrade my work.Maybe that’s also why I almost never buy expensive luxury things for myself… except cute blind-box figures LOOOL

I also rarely use marketing tactics. I don’t have systems where people unlock rewards or actions by donating more, and I rarely do holiday discounts, scarcity marketing, things like that.

What I would rather do is keep improving the quality and amount of my work, keep streaming consistently, and give people something that actually feels worthwhile.Because I don’t want people to support me because of those kinds of conditions or psychological pressure.

【 I hope everything I create and everything I put into it can stay true to myself, and that everyone who supports me can feel that it was worth it. 】

That has always been something I’ve tried to work toward. I just don’t want to become so busy one day that I stop having time for the things I originally cared about the most.

Lately though, I feel like maybe I’ve been trying a little too hard.

It’s not because I feel tired. It’s because I’ve realized that I have less and less time to actually talk to everyone and spend time together.

Over these past few years, a lot of new people have joined. That makes me happy. Really, really happy.Every time I write down a new name, remember a new voice, or get to know someone new, it gives me so much energy.But along the way, there have also been a lot of goodbyes.

Event after event, gathering after gathering, some familiar faces slowly stopped appearing.There used to be a few people who were always in the group photos at events, and there used to be a regular group of people I played games with on Discord. Looking back now, I realize that group has changed too.

New people keep joining, but whenever we take that big group photo at the end of an event, I still end up with a lot of mixed feelings.

I know people come and go. That’s normal, and there doesn’t always need to be a reason.If there’s somewhere in life that someone feels they should go, or somewhere they feel they need to leave, that can be a good thing too.

I really have become busier, and there’s less and less time for us to just spend together.Sometimes it’s only after someone stops showing up that I realize the things I wanted to say to them might never get said anymore.

So there are a few things I want to say.

If you’re still here with me — 【 Thank you for choosing to support me. I’ll keep trying to make every bit of that support feel worthwhile. 】

If you’ve already left but somehow ended up reading this — 【 Thank you for everything along the way. I’m not saying this because I want you to come back. I just hope the time we spent together was a good memory for you too, and I hope every goodbye, whether temporary or forever, can still carry some understanding, gratitude, and good wishes with it. 】

If you were once part of this journey with me — 【 Thank you for being there. I really did treasure it, even if you may never know that. I hope you’re happy! 】

Late at night, I still sometimes wonder if there were things I could have done better, and sometimes I still doubt myself.But little by little, I’ve also learned that everyone has their own life and their own direction.

There’s a time for meeting people, and there’s a time for leaving too. It doesn’t always mean someone did something wrong.I think that’s probably a lesson I’ll have to keep relearning.

A new year of my life is starting.

I hope everyone can find a place where they feel comfortable being themselves, and I hope that no matter how many storms you face, how much joy or sadness you feel, or how many different flavors life gives you,

When you eventually look back on it all, you can still feel that you have no regrets, and that it was all worth it.