Cancer (Patreon)

i dont wanna get into too much but i've recently gone into a bit of a spiral back into some bad hold habits after learning some time earlier this month my father has cancer (we don't live together so i didn't know right away). There has been a successful surgery last week to remove the mutated cells. in my head everything was fine.; I wanted to go back to work earlier and update you guys but failed every time for days. i only tried to distract myself more. i've only just then started to realize how much it actually affected me.

i've spent over a week processing this. i think i'm in a place were i can work on stuff again mostly because i don't want to sit around and wallow anymore. it's only making things worse. It's exhausting.

i hope i can do better this week. im out of tears. i just want to be better.