Monthly Bonus #2 - Valentines Special - Nate Sewell Love Letter (Patreon)

(Hand delivered by an Agent directly from Nate)

It’s Valentine’s Day!

It’s so strange to take note of this date now. For so many years, it was simply another day in the long eternity that lay out ahead of me. And, I’m ashamed to admit, not even one I would remember in my past relationships.

Then you arrived in my life.

Now, Valentine’s Day may be the day when those in love share how they feel, show their affections, but every day has become that with you.

Before you, it felt as though I was sleeping. Unaware of the real life around me. Resigned to the reality of a forever in a numb state.

Now I am living. I’m experiencing everything anew because of you.

I admit…part of it scares me. There are facets of my life that I wish you never to see, and every day you inch closer to shining light on those shadows.

And I’m glad you never knew me before who I am now.

I truly wonder what you would have thought of me? Would you love me as you do now?

You couldn’t.

…I’m not sure where my thoughts are leading me when this letter was meant to express my love for you!

Although we are apart today, I wanted you to know I am thinking of you always. You are the only one who consumes my every thought, my every dream, my every desire. Sometimes I think you don’t truly know how much I feel for you.

…And would that scare you away too?

I think I better start this letter over…I’m putting too much of myself on the page, and that will definitely frighten you away!

But maybe one day, if I am brave enough, if I’m ever ready to let your light throw its radiance on the deeper parts of me…I will send you this letter.

Then again, what stays hidden won’t scare you in the first place.

Just know, ya rouhi, that you have all of me. Every part of me. Even the ones I wish I didn’t have myself.

With my deepest love forever,

Your Nate