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-Seven Years Past-

The wooden beams of Winterhart Manor creaked under the autumn wind, a low groan that Victor had learned meant the temperature was dropping fast. Eight years in this world, and his body knew the sounds of approaching cold better than his mind could name them half the time.

Weathering, his Earth memories supplied.

The wood contracts when it gets cold.

He sat cross-legged on the fur rug in his father’s study, hands folded in his lap like a good noble son should, but his mind was running tactical assessments like he was back in a command tent at Guadalcanal.

The fire his father had lit crackled in the hearth behind him. The Marshal’s starmetal blade rested at his side. He now knew everything about his past and present life, and after eight years of watching his parents channel magic stones, he understood the mystical nature of this new world.

Frostfall. Not Montana. Not even Earth.

His parents sat across from him in high-backed chairs that made them look like they were holding court, which, in a way, they were.

His father—Marshal Alden Winterhart, a Baron—had his arms crossed, face carved from the same granite as the mountains surrounding their valley. His mother’s green eyes held that soft concern she always wore when one of her children was hurting, one hand resting on the emerald pendant at her throat.

And there, standing beside his father’s chair, like a squire ready to bolt, was his older brother.

Except he’s not older… Not a reincarnate, Victor thought, studying the twelve-year-old’s white-knuckled grip on the chair back. He’s terrified, and he doesn’t even understand why yet.

“Victor,” his mother said, voice gentle but weighted with something he recognized from officers who had to deliver bad news. “That is your true name, is it not? It’s what you told me in the past. We…need to know if you still see us as your parents now that it is your eighth birthday.”

The question hit his gut and twisted in a way that felt…wrong.

Memories surfaced, emotions accumulated over years of fragmented experiences in this new world. Yesterday he’d woken up screaming, the Battle of Okinawa reverberating through his bones, soldiers’ faces seared into his vision.

Eight years of fragmented memories—learning to walk, his mother’s lullabies, his father’s sword lessons, the people his family governed—crashed into eleven years of war like two waves meeting in a storm.

He’d been seven years, eleven months, and twenty-three days old in this world when the veil finally tore away completely. Now, the real questions were being asked.

Silence pressed in on them, Victor’s gaze wandering through the study as he reflected on the journey he’d taken to be here today. 

On Earth, I lived twenty-eight years, two months, and six days…before dying on Kunishi Ridge, Japan… I’m in a new world…without Elara. Without my little sister.

“Some reincarnates reject their new families,” his father softly interrupted Victor’s thoughts, tone carefully neutral in that way senior officers used when they were trying not to influence a subordinate’s decision. “It’s…understandable. You had a family before. People you loved. A life you were torn from.”

Victor’s hands tightened in his lap, but he kept his face calm. His family had mainly been his little twin sister, but a letter in the midst of a hurricane had changed that.

Eight years of being a child had taught him that adults here didn’t underestimate noble children. He’d been raised with the understanding he could be a reincarnate, something that didn’t turn out to be true for his older brother. The nobility had a way to increase the odds of a reincarnate birth, though he did not fully understand the details.

He wanted to punch something—someone—as his last day on Earth returned with the sounds of bombs, gunfire, and shouts ringing in his skull. Yet eleven years as a Marine had taught him never to show weakness unless it served a tactical purpose.

His brother shifted, and Victor saw the fear there—raw and sharp as a fresh wound. The kid was trying to be brave, doing that thing where you lock your knees and hope nobody notices you’re shaking.

He’d seen many young boys just like him on the battlefield… He’d had to kill one Japanese boy around his brother’s age, running at his men with a grenade in hand.

Closing his eyes, he let a slow breath ease his thumping heart as he reconciled the smell of gunpowder, the feeling of the soil shaking from cannon fire beneath him, and the threatening sound of planes overhead.

“I see this is difficult for you,” his mother began. There was steel under that gentle voice now, the kind that reminded him she’d been a princess before she was a mother…before her fall from grace in her mother’s rebellion against the empire.

“If you wish to leave…we will not stop you. We will face the Emperor’s judgment for evading the Northern Warfront Edict. Your brother will take our place as—”

“No.”

The word came out sharper than he meant to as he opened his eyes, and all three of them straightened like he’d fired a warning shot. Victor caught himself, forced his shoulders to relax.

His voice was higher-pitched. He was thirty-six, considering both his time on Earth and his life here. They knew he was from another world and retained his memories.

I’ve made harder calls than this before… Talk.

“I mean,” he corrected, shifting his tone to the way he’d been taught in this world. It wasn’t softer, but…tempered, though he didn’t back down.

“That won’t be necessary, Mother. I only need a moment to process this… The language and forum are new to me—the fact we live in an empire—a governing force I fought to the death against in my former world… But I know how good you have both been to me. Better than my other parents were… Far better.”

He saw her eyes widen slightly at the formality. This was an assessment. His father was evaluating him the same way he’d probably evaluated scouts reporting enemy positions, and his mother was reading him the way she read everyone, looking for the truth beneath the words.

They’re good at this.

He looked between them, seeing his father's posture, ready for any action. Victor’s military mind told him the grim truth: it probably wasn’t unheard of that a reincarnate attacked their parents once regaining their memories.

They’re professional. They have to be, given the location this far north, with limited resources, and political pressure from the capital. Dad would have to be extraordinary to marry a princess, like Mom.

“You are my parents,” Victor continued, meeting each of their gazes in turn before glancing at his brother. “And you’re my brother, Alexander. That doesn’t change just because I remember…before. But it does give me many questions… Many thoughts.”

Before, he was Captain Victor Smith, and he’d led 220 men through a nightmare… He’d been in hell, unable to protect his sister from her hell.

His father uncrossed his arms, leaning forward slightly. “I’m glad to hear that, and that is understandable… What life did you lead before?”

Guadalcanal. Tarawa. Saipan. Peleliu. Mac’s face when Victor held the grenade. Soldiers who followed him fell with holes in their chests. The letter telling him the impossible.

“They’re gone,” Victor said simply, because that was the truth, and lies wouldn’t serve anyone here. “I died. That’s all there is to it. And yes, my name is Victor. Victor Winterhart.”

He stopped, seeing his mother’s expression tighten. “Only two things matter: I’m here now, and you’ve raised me well for eight years. You’ve taught me, protected me with love, and given me a home. I won’t repay that by running away and getting you killed. I’m not that kind of man…”

The silence that followed was thick enough to cut with a bayonet. His brother’s grip on the chair had gone from white-knuckled to trembling, and his father’s eyes had that sharp focus that meant he was processing intelligence, running scenarios.

“Victor,” his mother whispered, and something in her voice broke, making his chest tighten. “You don’t have to—”

“Respectfully, Mother, I do.” He looked at his brother again, really looked, and saw himself at seventeen in that Marine recruiting office, too young and too stupid to know what war actually meant. “Alexander, my brother, is my flesh and blood. He shouldn’t have to lose his parents because I can’t adapt to new circumstances—a new mission. That’s not his fault. It’s not yours either. This is your culture…”

The lessons he’d learned in Guadalcanal came back to him: supply lines, resources, training, allies. Running gained him nothing. Desertion gained him nothing. Staying gave him a base of operations and a purpose…

What is my purpose?

The question was a grenade to his gut.

But it wasn’t just tactics—couldn’t be just tactics—not when his mother was looking at him like she was watching her son disappear in real time, not when his father’s jaw was tight with the weight of command decisions that affected more than just the mission.

“Besides,” Victor added, and this part was pure truth, no tactical calculation, spoken without his careful noble speech, “you’re not bad people. You’ve been kind to me. Fair. I’ve seen what bad parents look like—”

He cut off, rolling around his jaw and licking his lips, nose twitching. “No, I’ve seen bad people, and you’re not them. So, yes. You’re my parents. That’s not changing because I have the ghost of memories from an old life.”

His father stood, and Victor tensed on instinct before remembering this wasn’t a superior officer about to dress down a subordinate. Habits from The War were hard to break.

Marshal Alden Winterhart crossed the space between them in three strides and knelt to put himself at eye level with his eight-year-old son.

“Thank you, Victor,” his father mumbled, voice rough. “Thank you for choosing us when you didn’t have to… For choosing your brother.”

And then his mother was there too, arms around both of them. Victor let himself be pulled into the embrace. Then, tears started to flow. He didn’t know where they came from, but no, he really did know… From that last night on Earth.

The pain of a guilty soul.

After a time, his hiccups and tears ceased. At some point, his big brother had joined them. 

His father pulled back, hands on Victor’s shoulders, looking at him with his red eyes, and something calculating was in his expression now. The Marshal was back.

“If you’re staying,” his father carefully pressed, “and if you’re truly a reincarnate with full memories…we would like to know who you were… Who you are. We raised you with the knowledge of what is required of us by The Emperor, so we must know, for our own peace of mind…if you can survive the north.”

Victor’s stomach dropped, but his face remained calm as he reached into his memory. “North? The Emperor’s—”

“The mandate,” his mother confirmed, her voice steady even as her hands shook. “One child from every generation of noble house. It has been the same for every one of the six kingdoms of the empire for nearly five hundred years. Once a noble family has their third child, it must choose which one is sent to the northern frontier.”

“Three?” Victor mumbled, glancing toward his nervous brother. “Me, Alex, and…”

His brother looked down at the floor. His mother’s face went pale, and his father’s jaw tightened further before he answered.

“Your twin sister, Victor. You have a younger twin sister.”

The words hit like artillery fire.

“Where…is she?” he slowly asked, acid squirming in his gut.

The silence that followed was worse than any bombardment.

His mother’s fingers curled around her forearm, unable to lift her gaze. “Twins triggered the mandamus… So we tried to hide her. To save us both from the mandate. And… Well, someone found out.”

“The Emperor discovered the deception through him,” his father said flatly, military precision returning to his voice. “Your mother’s uncle—the King of Winterholm—took your sister as punishment. She will likely be sent north with his son when they come of age. The king sets the location of every noble and their settlers each year.”

All Victor heard was the chime of divine providence.

She’s alive. Somewhere in this frozen kingdom, my sister is alive… Is it my little sister?

His hands clenched into fists before he could stop them, and he saw his father notice, saw the recognition there.

“Where?” Victor asked, voice harder than an eight-year-old’s should be, all decorum lost. “Is she my sister from Earth—from my previous life?”

“We…cannot know, I am afraid,” his mother admitted, and there were tears in her eyes now. “We have been barred from seeing her. The only way to find her would be to go north yourself, establish a settlement, and hopefully, find the prince’s settlement…” She trailed off. “You want to find her.”

“I will find her,” Victor corrected; there was no ‘want’ about it. This was a mission now, and he’d spent eleven years learning how to complete missions even when the odds were suicide. “But I need training. Information. Resources.” He looked at his father. “You were a Marshal before obtaining your title. You led campaigns into the north?”

His father’s expression shifted from grief to something like respect and relief.

“I have. I secured this region through military action, expanding the northern front myself at 15. I killed a frost giant, which earned me the Marshal and Baron title.”

“Then teach me.” Victor worked out his stiff arms and stood tall. “Teach me everything you know about survival, combat, and tactics in this world. Everything that kept you alive up there. Because when I go north, I’m not just surviving. I’m finding my sister, and I’m bringing her home after establishing my own fort in the north.”

His brother finally spoke, voice cracking with adolescent terror and confusion, “but there are ice drakes up there. No one has been able to claim more territory since…since Dad did. How can you—”

“I’ve heard impossible before,” Victor grunted, meeting his brother’s eyes and letting him see the truth there. He softened slightly, remembering what it was like to be twelve and terrified. “You’re the heir. You’ll rule this barony someday. I’m the spare, the one who goes north anyway. But I won’t fail her this time… I won’t fail Elara again.”

His father stood, and there was something different in his posture now—not the grieving parent, but the Marshal assessing a new recruit who’d just shown unexpected competence.

“You seem to have the steel needed to step into the north… Good. Understand that we do not know if your twin has the same spirit as your sister from…Earth?”

Victor smiled, feeling his focus curve razor sharp. “Either way, I’m saving her. She’s my little sister. I have seven years before I’m fifteen. I have my mission.”

His father reached down to his belt to the hilt of his star-metal blade. “There are materials and objects of power in this world, my son. I will guide you upon this road and teach you all I am permitted…but first, to understand where you stand, we need to know who you were.”

His mother’s hand went to her emerald pendant—a nervous gesture he’d learned meant she was preparing to heal, protect, or use wind magic to generate hurricane winds.

“It looks painful to him, Alden. Victor, you don’t have to tell us if it’s too much.”

Alden shook his head, placing a hand on hers and squeezing. “Anna, we need to know if he has any hope of righting our failings.”

She looked away, possibly cursing her own mother’s rebellion—the previous queen of the Kingdom of Winterholm—who had allowed her uncle to seize the throne.

Victor held firm, though, his voice starting soft before building to a normal volume.

“I was a Marine Captain. United States Marine Corps, World War II, Pacific Theater… A war that encompassed the entire world and affected billions of lives.”

His parents mouthed “billions” in shock—this world had nowhere that many humans in their isolated continent, surrounded by horrific monsters and encroaching, mystical environments.

“I led a company of 220 men through the bloodiest battles in human history. I was twenty-eight years old when I died, taking a ridge called Kunishi on an island called Okinawa.”

His brother’s face had gone from pale to ghost-white. His father’s expression was unreadable. His mother’s eyes were wide with a mix of horror and heartbreak. The study was silent except for the crackling fire and the wind outside. 

Victor took a deep breath, feeling the weight of both his lives pressing down on him—eight years as a noble child, eleven years as a U.S. warrior, thirty-six years of memories, all trying to fit into a body that should barely know how to write.

“I’ll tell you everything,” Victor began, and his voice was different now, older, harder. “Every battle, to my final day…”

And as he spoke, as he laid out the battles, the death, and the lessons learned in blood, he watched his parents’ faces shift from shock to understanding to something like awe at the world he’d come from. His brother stopped crying and started listening, really listening, as if he were hearing about a hero from legend rather than his eight-year-old brother.

But Victor felt anything but like a hero.

He felt like a man who’d failed once and refused to fail again.

I’m coming for you, Elara. Or whoever you are now. I don’t care if it takes seven years to get strong enough to step into that mission, or if I have to build a settlement from scratch in a frozen wasteland, or if I have to fight every damn monster and noble in the north… I’m coming for you. I won’t lose my sister twice.

The fire crackled. The wind howled. And in the study of Winterhart Manor, an eight-year-old boy with thirty-six years of memories began to tell his family what war truly meant, culminating in his final tale—The Battle of Okinawa.

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