Another Apology (Patreon)

To all, i don’t know how to properly explain and apologize. Please understand that i am in a very stressful situation.

at 2nd March 2026, my siblings brought my mother again to another Hospital because her body ache progressively worse (slow downhill progress ever since she got out from the first Hospital which are specialized in Heart Surgery)

And after checkups, turns out her kidney is failing very bad (very high creatinine). Right now, she’s passed the critical / HCU phase (again) she already got 2x haemodialysis (and more to come, maybe every 2 days onward) - Without dialysis, she feels neddle sharp pain on her whole body. (toxic blood/sepsis shock)

After the news + my sister told me that my mother is looking for me, I dropped everything without notice & without thinking, i closed my real life businesses & jobs, i paused everything (including AI adventure) and rushed to the city where my mother’s hospital is located. (Siblings thought the hospital & doctors in their city are better than my city.)

Her brain functions are normal, she still communicates very well for her age and current condition. (although her voice is weak because of drugs, anemia, lethargy, etc) I have done my complete honest heart to heart talk with her, strengthening both heart & spirit of hers and mine to accept whatever fate awaits, although both me and her still doesn’t want to give up and will fight to the end.

I am writing this messy message in the hospital room sitting beside my sleeping mother, with tears already dried up. I’m deeply sorry and i humbly ask for another break time to use whatever time i’ve got left with my mother, for (maybe) the last time. But i still hope for miracles.

NOTE : the doctors & hospital are currently trying to find the “root problem” for her kidney failure.