Everything Meant Nothing | Part 8: Closer Than I Meant to Be (Patreon)

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Part 8: Closer Than I Meant to Be | The Way He Looks at Me

By the time we reached the flat, the night was quiet again. The kind of quiet that made everything feel more intense, like the world was holding its breath just for us. Theo’s car door clicked shut and before I could even brace myself, he was around the front, opening mine.

He didn’t speak. Just bent slightly, slipped his arms under my knees and shoulders again, and picked me up.

I didn’t protest this time. I didn’t even look away.

His grip was firm. Not rushed. Not awkward. Like he’d done this before. Like he wanted to.The hallways blurred past in the low light, the hum of the fridge, the soft creak of the floorboard just outside my door. His chest was warm against my side, his jaw so close I could see the faint shadow of stubble coming in. I could smell him again, slower this time, without the rush of adrenaline. It hit me in layers: the crisp warmth of his cologne, something faintly citrus but grounded with a deeper, musky edge. Underneath that was the raw, clean scent of his skin like sweat and warmth, the kind of masculine heat that made me want to press closer. His breathing stayed calm. Mine didn’t.When we got to my room, he didn’t hesitate. He nudged the door open with his foot and carried me in like I weighed nothing. Then, slowly, gently, he lowered me onto the bed. His hands lingered at my back just a second longer than they needed to. His eyes met mine for the briefest moment.

There was something there. Heavy. Unsaid. Close.

I don’t know if I leaned in or if he did. Maybe both of us did. But our faces were too close now. His breath warm against my cheek. Our knees touching. My lips parted, heart thudding, the air between us suddenly razor thin.

And then he pulled back. “I’ll get you an ice pack,” he said softly, and disappeared.

I sat there, blinking, trying to gather myself, every nerve still buzzing. I touched the bed where his hand had just been.

When he came back, he had one of those reusable gel packs from the freezer wrapped in a thin towel. He walked over, paused at the edge of the bed, then jerked his chin toward me.

“Scoot.”

I blinked. “You don’t have to....”

“It’s the least I can do after being an asshole to you straight for a week.”

I didn’t argue. I moved over.He sat beside me, ankle in his lap, one hand cradling my foot, the other pressing the ice pack gently against the swollen spot. His touch was warm through the towel. He kept his eyes on the ankle like it was something delicate. Like I was.

I glanced at him. “So... you do know how to be nice.”

He didn’t look up. “Don’t let it get around.”

A beat passed.

Then, quieter, “It’s weird. With Bailey, I felt like I was putting in all this effort. Showing up. Planning things. Caring too much. And somehow it still wasn’t enough.”

I looked at him. Surprised, maybe. I hadn’t expected that.

“I didn’t see you as the romantic type,” I said.

He shrugged. “I literally carried you from the car.”

That made me laugh. More than I meant to.

He finally looked at me then. “There it is,” he said, almost smiling. “You’ve been looking like someone kicked your puppy all week.”

I rolled my eyes, but I felt the heat rush to my face anyway.

He adjusted the pack slightly. “You’ll need to keep this on for a bit. Elevate it.”

“Yes, Doctor.”

He didn’t say anything. Just sat there, hand still resting on my foot. The silence wasn’t uncomfortable. It was something else. He looked like he had more to say. I did too. But neither of us said it.

Eventually, he stood.

“I should let you sleep.”

He made it to the doorway before pausing again.

“Hey,” he said, turning back. “Next time, let me win the dance game.”

I raised an eyebrow. “You literally beat me at everything.”

“Still.” He gave a lopsided grin. “Let a guy dream.”

Then he disappeared down the hallway. His door clicked shut a second later.

I laid back on my bed, ankle throbbing faintly, but my chest louder.

He didn’t kiss me.

He didn’t have to.Because whatever this was... whatever it was turning into; it felt like more than just physical attraction. It wasn’t about the way he smelled, or how his hands felt on my skin, or how good he looked under flashing arcade lights.

It was the way he carried me without hesitation. The way he didn’t flinch or pull back when people looked. Like he wasn’t afraid to be seen with me.

Like I wasn’t something to be hidden.

He danced with me. Laughed with me. Stayed close without pretending it meant nothing. And maybe that was what undid me most; not the heat between us, but the safety. The quiet way he showed up. No explanations. No disclaimers. Just a man who saw me and didn’t look away.

I closed my eyes with the feeling of his hands still on my skin, his voice still in my ears, and the scent of him still lingering like a question I wasn’t ready to answer.

And for the first time in a long time, I didn’t fall asleep thinking about Luke.Everything Meant Nothing | Part 9: He Looked at Me Like That Again