Everything Meant Nothing | Part 24: Between Two Teams (Patreon)

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The crowd spilled out of the stands in waves, buzzing like a hive that had just been rattled. Chants still rang through the air, muffled by the concrete corridors of the stadium, a messy chorus of victory songs and bitter groans. Students in Ashgrave’s blue jerseys clustered in groups, consoling each other, already rewriting the game into stories they’d retell over pints. The visiting team’s supporters shouted triumphantly as they streamed toward the exits, their voices sharp and victorious.

I stayed back, my feet heavy, following the current but never really moving with it. My head was still spinning from the match… from seeing Theo out there in all his brilliance, from the pit in my stomach when I realized who he was playing against. When the whistle had blown, I’d been on my feet cheering for Theo, my chest about to burst with pride, and then one glance had shattered me.

Luke.

Sweaty, red-faced, triumphant Luke. My first love. My ghost. The boy I’d spent months trying to erase and had failed at every step.

I lingered just outside the tunnel where the players disappeared, my sign; “GO THEO” scribbled in blue letters crumpled and damp in my fist. I told myself I was waiting for Theo, but the truth hung between my ribs like a blade.

I was waiting for him.

“Troy.”

His voice. Rough, hoarse from shouting on the field, but so unmistakable it made my stomach drop.

I turned, and there he was.

Luke stood a few steps away, jersey clinging to his sweaty chest, hair plastered damp to his forehead. His hands were still red from the cold, from the ball, from the game. He looked alive in a way I hadn’t seen in years or maybe I’d just forgotten what he looked like when he wanted something badly.

And right now, he wanted me.

“You shouldn’t be here,” I managed, but my throat closed around the words.

He stepped closer, eyes burning into me like I was the only person in the chaos. “You know this isn’t over.”

I shook my head, backing into the wall of the tunnel. My chest felt like it was caving in. “Luke—”

“I saw you out there,” he cut me off, desperate. “The way you looked at me. Don’t lie. You still feel it. Between us. I know you do.”

The words landed like blows. And worse… part of me hated how true they felt. That stupid, aching rush in my chest hadn’t gone away. Not even after everything.

“You broke me,” I spat, the anger clawing its way up through my ribs. “You don’t get to talk to me like this. You don’t get to show up and—”

“I regret it every fucking day,” he interrupted, voice cracking on the words. “Do you hear me? Every fuckcing day. I thought I could forget you, but I can’t. And I know you can’t forget me either.”

My fists clenched at my sides. The crowd around us thinned, voices fading, but inside my head everything roared louder and louder. He was too close. Too much. Too familiar.

“Stop,” I muttered. “You don’t get to say that. Not after making me feel like I was nothing. You made me feel weak. Unwanted. And now you think you can waltz back into my life, corner me after a game, and—”

“What’s going on here?”

The voice cracked through the tension like a whip.

I flinched, turning. Yuki. She stood a few feet behind me, Min at her side, both of them wide-eyed. They must’ve followed me out without me noticing, probably worried when I hadn’t come back with them.

Yuki’s eyes narrowed instantly when she saw Luke. Her whole body went rigid, fists tight at her sides.

“Oh my god,” she hissed. “Is that—? It is. It’s him.” Her voice sharpened into steel. “Why are you even talking to my friend? Haven’t you hurt him enough already?”

My throat went dry. Yuki didn’t know the half of it… she’d never seen the late nights I’d cried myself sick, never seen the pieces I’d picked up. But she didn’t need to. She could see the wreckage in front of her.

Luke bristled, jaw tightening. He turned toward her, voice sharp. “Stay out of it. This is between us.”

“Excuse me?” Yuki’s tone rose, protective fury lacing every syllable. “He’s my best friend. If you think for one second I’m going to stand here and let you drag him back into your bullshit—”

“Yuki—” I tried, but my voice cracked.

Luke’s eyes flashed, hard. “This isn’t about you, Miss.”

“Don’t talk to her like that!” Min finally spoke, his usual calm edged with anger. He stepped forward, a steady wall beside Yuki. “If Troy doesn’t want to talk to you, you need to leave. End of story.”

I stood frozen, panic slicing through me. Luke, glaring at my friends. Yuki, fiery and ready to throw herself between us. Min, protective but controlled. And me, stuck in the middle, chest splitting open.

Luke’s gaze flicked back to me. And just like that, the anger melted into something rawer. Pleading. Desperate.

“Please,” he said, softer now. “Don’t listen to them. Don’t walk away. I just… I need you to hear me out. That’s all I’m asking. Just hear me.”

I wanted to scream. I wanted to shove him away, to tell him to leave and never come back. But my heart twisted at the sound of his voice.

“Troy,” Yuki said, stepping closer to me, eyes blazing. “Why are you letting him back in? Don’t you see how he’s hurting you?”

Luke snapped his head toward her again, his tone sharper than before. “This is between us. Not you.”

The words cracked something in me. My hands shook. I couldn’t let him speak to them like that.

“Stop it,” I burst out, voice trembling but loud. “Don’t talk to my friends like that. You don’t get to come here and treat them like they’re in the way. They’ve been here. You haven’t.”

Luke faltered, pain flickering across his face. “I didn’t mean—”

“Lukeee”“Lukee” , voices shouting from inside the tunnel.“My team’s calling me,” he said quickly, glancing back toward the tunnel where shouts and laughter echoed. He turned back to me, desperation thick in his voice. “Please, just… don’t go. Wait here. I’ll be back. Please.”

Before I could reply, he jogged down the tunnel, swallowed by his teammates.

And I was left trembling, my heart hammering like it wanted out of my chest. Yuki’s hand was suddenly at my elbow, firm.

“Come on,” she said sharply. “We’re leaving.”

Min’s eyes lingered on me, full of concern but quiet. He didn’t say anything … he didn’t have to. The look was enough.

I stumbled after them, my legs weak, every nerve in me still thrumming from Luke’s voice, from his eyes, from the ghost of what we’d been.

But even as I walked away, I knew… this wasn’t over.

────────────────The stadium air thinned the farther we walked from the tunnel, but Yuki’s fury was like its own heat, blistering against my skin. She didn’t even look at me, her jaw clenched so tight I could hear the grind of her teeth. Min walked close on my other side, steady but watchful, as though afraid I might crumble where I stood.

I kept my head down, dragging my sneakers across the floor. Every cheer echoing from the crowd outside sounded like a taunt. Every burst of laughter from Luke’s teammates felt like a reminder of what I hadn’t escaped.

The three of us moved past clusters of students, through the press of bodies spilling toward the exits. People jostled us, bumped into our shoulders, but Yuki barely flinched, her glare fixed forward like a shield.

Finally, when the path cleared enough, she spun on me.

“What the hell was that?” she snapped, her voice low but shaking. “Troy, why were you even talking to him? Why didn’t you just walk away?”

Her words hit harder because she wasn’t wrong. I opened my mouth, then shut it again. What could I even say? That my chest still remembered what it felt like to love him? That one glance across the pitch had cracked open years I’d buried?

Min reached out, brushing Yuki’s arm like he was afraid she’d explode. “Babe,” he said softly. “Maybe not here. Everyone’s still around.”

She shook him off, her eyes burning into me. “No, I’m not going to shut up. He doesn’t get to corner you like that. He doesn’t get to—”

“Yuki,” I croaked, my voice raw. “Please.”

Her mouth closed, but the fury didn’t leave her face. It just shifted, tight and trembling, as if holding it back cost her more than letting it out.

I swallowed hard. “I’m going to see Theo. He’ll be waiting for me.”

Yuki’s eyes narrowed. “Fine. But Troy—” She jabbed a finger at me. “You are not going back to meet Luke again. Not for one second. If he comes near you, you walk away. Promise me.”

Her protectiveness made my chest ache. I wanted to promise, to give her the certainty she needed, but my throat closed around the words. I forced a nod instead.

Min sighed softly, but his gaze lingered on me, calm but unyielding. “Call me if he troubles you again, okay? No matter the time. Don’t handle it alone.”

The warmth in his tone undid me a little. I managed a whisper, “I will.”

They exchanged a look… Yuki still bristling, Min quietly steady  then finally stepped back.

“We’ll see you at the apartment,” Min said gently.

Yuki gave me one last look, half warning, half worry, before turning sharply on her heel. Min followed, glancing back once before disappearing into the crowd with her.

And just like that, I was alone again.

The stadium seemed to stretch endlessly, the tunnel to the locker rooms pulling me in. My body felt heavy, every step echoing like guilt.

I pushed through a side door, the buzz of the crowd muffling into a hum. The air was different here… damp, pungent with sweat, liniment, wet fabric. My stomach turned.

Ashgrave’s locker room.

I hesitated at the threshold, then forced myself inside.

And there he was.

Theo sat on the bench, towel slung around his neck, hair damp and curling at the edges. His jersey clung to him, darkened with sweat, and he looked utterly exhausted. But when his eyes lifted and found me in the doorway, he smiled. Wide, easy, unguarded.

“Hey, babe,” he said, voice warm despite the rasp of fatigue. “Did you like the match?”

My chest twisted so violently it almost knocked the air out of me.

I tried to smile back, but my lips barely obeyed. “Yeah. You were… incredible.”

And he was. He’d been a force out there… fast, fearless, magnetic. The way he moved across the pitch had made my heart swell until I thought it might split. Pride and love had rushed through me in a way that felt like flying.

But underneath it now was only the poison of guilt.

Theo leaned forward, elbows on his knees, towel slipping from his neck. He ran a hand through his hair, sighing. “Sorry we couldn’t pull through. I’ll play better next time, I promise.”

The words gutted me.

He thought my silence was disappointment in him. He thought the heaviness in my chest was because he’d lost. He thought he had to apologize to me… when really, I should’ve been the one on my knees begging forgiveness.

“Theo,” I started, my voice cracking.

But what could I say? That while he was out there fighting his heart out, my own heart had been betraying me in the stands? That the man who’d broken me once was suddenly alive again in front of me, shaking my world apart?

Theo mistook my hesitation for something else. His smile softened, gentle, reassuring. “It’s okay. I know it stings. But I’ll make it up to you.”

And I hated myself.

Hated myself for letting him believe this lie. For letting him carry the weight of my silence.

Before I could choke on it, I crossed the room and pulled him into my arms.

He tensed for a second, then melted against me, warm and damp, the towel slipping to the floor. His skin smelled like sweat and grass and the faint sharpness of sports spray, but underneath was the Theo I knew.. steady, comforting, mine.

I buried my face in his shoulder, arms wrapped so tight around him it almost hurt. I clung like if I held him close enough, maybe the guilt would drown under the love. Maybe if I pressed hard enough, I could smother the ghost of Luke still clawing at me.

Theo chuckled softly against my hair. “Whoa. Didn’t think you’d miss me this much.”

If only he knew.

My throat ached with words I couldn’t speak. So I just held him tighter, hoping he couldn’t feel how badly I was shaking.

Theo stroked a hand down my back, slow and soothing, like he thought I needed comforting after the loss. “We’ll be better next time,” he murmured. “Promise.”

I nodded into his shoulder, eyes burning, my chest so full of love and shame it felt like it might split me open.

And all I could do was hold him.

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