Sicker than ffffuuuuuuuuu (Patreon)

uuuuuuucccckkkk.So quick update, basically I'm sick with what I think is bronchitis as it doesn't appear to be ya know...-that-. I've been taking it easy as a result, but doing much other than just resting, listening to podcasts/music/ect has been all I can really do.Can't even play video games because whenever I get sick like this I tend to get ear infections (I have a problem where my ears don't drain right so if I get even the slightest bit sick I almost always get an ear ache) and I get dizzy while playing games because of said ear infection, so you can only imagine what drawing is like.For a hot minute when I first started feeling really under the weather two days ago I was pretty scared, but it doesn't seem to be, you know what, as all my symptoms seem to align more with bronchitis whcih in and of itself can turn into pnuemonia if I'm not careful, so I'm doing my best to keep it from becoming that.I'd be lying if I said this hasn't stressed me out and scared the ever loving shit out of me because well, it did.Worst of all is that I'm a bit of a workaholic so not getting to draw or even clean house, or do regular maintenance to things that I do because of how dizzy I've been is miserable and just makes me feel worse. I know you guys understand, you've made it abundantly clear that my well being is more important than art updates, but it -still- bothers me when something like this happens and I get taken out of commission.Also, I have elder family members who depend on my ability to help them out around their houses and with their chores and stuff, as well as the charity work I do, so when I'm sick-- I can't do any of the things that make me feel useful or anything and for someone with the self esteem issues I have-- to not feel useful basically means I feel worthless.I hate laying this crap out on you guys all the time, its not your responsibility to make me feel more valuable, and I'm not looking for anythign like that or even reassurance, I'm just letting you know who I am, opening up and telling you what's in my heart because I just feel like it helps me feel better about my shortcomings. If I don't feel better in a day or so I will make an appointment with my doctor and see if Ican't get something to help me feel better. <3Thanks for listening guys and gals, I love you. <3