Personal Log(#5) (Patreon)

This log has been long overdue. Time for a bit of self-reflection. If you are averse to whining and complaining, please feel free to skip. It's how I'm wired, to big tummies.

TL;DR: I'm currently at a low point(Health/IRL/Art Block/Motivation). I'll catch up with the drawings as soon as I recover. I'm sorry.

There are a lot of things happening this month so the drawing progress has almost come to a halt. And you deserve to know about some stuff that is happening to me currently. Initially, I thought it wouldn't take as long, but it is taking a lot of time.

Health

My wrist was fatigued. However, it's better and good now. This means I must take a different approach to drawing. I am figuring it out. I just have to "draw smarter" from now onward. I have been doing adequate stretches and rests. There is no need to worry.

IRL Things

My IRL things are wild right now. I had to go to different places away from my drawing setup to deal with many immature middle aged people. I haven't gotten enough sleep at all. However, I've dealt with most of it so far and I'm out of the mess for now.

Going to many (physically and mentally) unhealthy places also make me sick and feverish. I'll sleep it off in no time.

Inspirations (the lack of it)

I love bellies. And I will always love bellies. I like to draw them all day. I always like to browse social media for arts and content creators for inspirations. I love to study their shapes and intricate qualities of it. It gives me some fuel to draw.

Lately, there are a lot of problematic contents floating around. For example, AIs, and fakes. There are a number of content creators who are dishonest about their contents. They are not honest about their fake bellies. I wouldn't mind if they're straight forward with it. But some are even earning money from people who fall for manipulated images.
It is simply disheartening to see.

There isn't a lot of good irl tummy to look at in this moment lol. It's affecting my ability to come up with original ideas. It is a small but notable factor compared to topics above.

I am currently trying several new approach to be inspired. Hopefully many approaches to things will help.

Major Art Block

All of the above culminate in a terrible art block and blinding brain fog. The current piece I'm doing, Marciana, is going very slow, because I believe I should be in my best condition to draw. And my body and mind is not doing good at the moment. You deserve my best effort, after all.

Things in Art

Onto a lighter topics, I've been observing several artists about how they approach their arts. I've found that I usually stick to my OCs like Kao Pong most of the time. However, it makes me realize that I have only been drawing OCs like her because I haven't been caught up with recent animes.

I could've just drawn them, but I don't want to larp, honestly. While I'm resting and unable to draw, I may as well look for some new waifus. Besides, I feel like a lot of my personal art style gripes stem from the fact that I haven't been looking at newer animes.

I'm also looking at more technical things so I don't feel like I've been wasting everyone's time as much. For example

• Learning types

• Colors

• Adjusting my mindset

I'm looking forward to making more animations once things are back in order, though the quality would probably be different from that of Goldshi's.

Ending Note

Honestly, I don't want many events to happen all at once in a single month. But things are often that way.

I'm trying to recover ASAP to get back to drawing more tummies.

Over the years, I'm realizing that I'm the kind of artist that goes "SET YOUR HEART ABLAZE" type shi as I draw. Honestly, I don't like being like that sometimes, but what can I do?

So, I'll say my usual line. I'm grateful that you're here supporting, whether you're reading this line or not. Thank you. I will do my best to sort out my things and let my tummy drawings speak for itself. Anyway, cool quote:

Why do we fall?
So we can learn to pick ourselves up.
Batman Begin