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If any of this feels familiar to you, check out this guy's book it's. Helping me a lot.  http://www.pete-walker.com/ 

I am defined by my trauma. Because I don't know what my personality is or who I am outside of it. :')

I'm a nice people pleasing person because I know what it's like to feel like shit and don't want to get yelled at, and pleasing others makes them happy which makes me feel happy and safe.That's it.My entire personality is a coping mechanism.

Also CPTSD and mental health is an epidemic and I hope you guys have family who actually aren't just and endless cycle of people perpetuating trauma.

I know ONE person IRL who has parents that. Arent abusive.It's wild. PEOPLE LIKE THAT EXIST? WOW.

But uh.This is why I plan to move out in March/April.I love my mom. But she's stuck in a cycle of trauma and is bad at trying to cope in a proper way sometimes. She's like 70 so it's not like she'll change it's been a lifetime of this for her.I don't wanna be all "im a speshul snowflake pwease considew my twiggers bc emotionaw fwashbacks are a binch" but