Modeling Set: Ashley French (Patreon)

I've not been feeling very stoked on my appearance lately. I mean, I've always been disappointed with my appearance but over the years I learned to accept it and comforted myself with the idea that one man's garbage is another man's treasure. 

I thought I couldn't feel more fucked up about myself after the catastrophe that was my relationship with Kolton but I was wrong. I recently discovering the guy I was sorta seeing in Phoenix has already moved on and seems to be more invested than he was in me in a very beautiful girl 15 years younger than us both and lacking in any type of personality. It was a massive blow to my self-esteem.

Sometimes I think if I could do it all over, I would have put all my effort into my appearance instead of into degrees, skills, and experiences. I feel like there would have been a way better pay-off had I got that route. At the very least, the people I liked would like me back. 

I keep falling for people whose personality vibes with my and the only reason I can see that it doesn't work out is because I'm not pretty enough because everything else seems to be perfect. I would just really love to never hear the phrase, "I don't deserve you" ever again.

Anyway, I know that sounds like a bunch of self-pitying, fishing nonsense, but that's all I could think about when I looked at these photos. They're not bad, they're great photos, I'm just not great.

Besides that, it was nice to finally meet Ashley French after following her work for awhile and coming from the same area as her. It was a little odd that she was SO MUCH younger than me but I liked her energy and we'll definitely be working together again soon. Actually, I'm hoping we can shoot together at the nude beach in my hometown next month!

$15+ Patrons can see literally hundreds of photos of me by Ashley French in the dropbox folder Modeling / Ashley French.