On delays and personal things (Patreon)

Hey folks.  

Felt it important to update you all on the status of everything, myself included. 

During this month I've mostly been dealing with a decent dose of depression; which has lead to having a hard time with keeping up enthusiasm for my usual art. Same goes for streaming. Its quite difficult to do without enthusiasm backing one up.

Mixing all of that with guilt over not being able to deliver as I said and expected I would, has also allowed for stress to creep in amongst the sadness, and overwhelm. Its like an ouroboros of sadness and stress.  

This month has been a disappointment for me, personally, professionally, to say the least. For that I'm sorry. I wish I did so much more as I know you all deserve more and deserve better. Especially given you've all been nothing but kind and supportive. Don't think I haven't noticed. The only thing I can do at the moment is try and work on myself. Bit by bit, day by day, to feel better and improve gradually. I'm really trying to get to something better daily, but it takes time.

So what about the request stream? Its not going away. But I need to postpone a little longer. Hopefully not for long (if I can do so, I'd like to do it in the month ahead at the latest). I really would rather not do it with little enthusiasm. I want to have fun and be happy while creating some of your ideas; to do otherwise would be unfair and joyless. The same goes for my projects. I'd like to get back to them, especially in a better mindset and in better spirits. 

I'll be pausing the patreon for the next month so no one gets charged in the meantime. I owe you plenty of good, happy, fun, creative art. I hope I can get to making it happen much sooner than later. 

Thanks for reading and I hope I've not left anyone unhappy. That is and would be the last thing I'd ever want. 

- Glassfish