Update for August 2023 (Patreon)

TLDR (just read the bolded words)

🌟 G'day everyone! 💜 I wanted to share a little update with you all...

Over the past 5 years I've been genuinely passionately and obsessively creating ASMR content that ACTUALLY HELPS people! I think it's so fulfilling and beautiful! However, I've come to realise that life requires balance! 🎭

As much as I love bringing you the best ASMR experiences I can create, my dedication to my passion led me to neglect important aspects of my life such as my health, relationships, environment, and personal well-being. It's a great source of shame and guilt how bad I let things get. I definitely pushed myself too hard and burnt out. It only took 5 years of basically no weekends off lol 😅 This has been a long time coming.

I've been struggling with some trouble makers trying to make my life difficult as well as my own issues. It's drastically transformed how I interact with my own community. It's disheartening how a few spoiled apples ruins it for the bunch. But that's just the start of it.

My declining physical and mental health has prompted me to take a step back and reassess. Over the last 2 months I've been on a break (for the most part) to focus on rebuilding and nurturing these neglected areas of my life. My lack of productivity has left me feeling shitty and itchy to dive back into things however, I'm also conscious of the need to strike a healthier balance and don't want to get back into bad habits. My passion and obsessive personality make it challenging to find that healthy and productive equilibrium. Nevertheless, I'm working towards creating a schedule that allows me to pursue my dreams of helping you while maintaining a more enriching and healthy balanced life.

In this break, while struggling with fatigue, I've managed to put together ~40% of aspects my life. But If I waited till I was completely done I'd be taking years off! lol 😂 Thus if I edit on a "full time schedule" instead of all waking hours, I'll have enough time to juggle both! It's very difficult to tear myself away once I start however- taking pointers! I've struggled with sleep, especially since starting my channel but have gone from 5 hrs sleep to 7-10h!!! Which is excellent! But I'm also struggling with health/fatigue. So that might be that at work instead of me. lol. (still gotta work on sleeping before 5am haha...)

Side note: The silly thing is ASMR can take 1 day to make. If you don't spend a month faffing about with elaborate scripts, building props, filming, and then piecing together challenging backgrounds and environments, recording and layering various sounds, and tinkering manually with visual effects on a barely functional PC 🤪 etc. So I'm just making it far too difficult for myself, but I think we both appreciate the creation at the end right? (Personally, I prefer to watch more simple content to relax to but I admire the trickier stuff!). Anyway...

I feel incredibly fortunate and grateful to have such a wonderful, patient and supportive community. Your unwavering support and motivation has been a driving force for me! However, I've come to acknowledge that my success has come at a cost – loneliness and declining health.🌟 I struggle with chronic mental and physical health issues as my long time supporters will know, I seem to be very sharing and open but I only share the tip of the iceberg publicly. 💜 As I continue to make positive changes, my aim is to find that balance where I can pursue my life goals, cherish meaningful experiences, and have fond memories to look back on. I'm incredibly grateful for your understanding and support while I figure my schedule out. 🙏

I'm committed to creating immersive content, but I also want to make sure I don't miss out on living a fulfilling healthy life. Therefore, I plan to have a more balanced schedule, leaving evenings to relax and sort things, taking time off over the holidays to spend with loved ones, and leaving weekends to celebrate and enjoy life's precious moments without being glued to my editing chair! YOLO! 🎉 I'm also toying with making my creations slightly simpler and not being so fussed about the long scripts and elaborate stories where everything intermingles. Maybe even some super simple ones between.

I'm doing much better than I was 2 months ago, but every day has it's own challenges. I look forward to what is to come!! Thank you for being part of my life, I love hearing from you! If I can provide you with some comfort at times when you struggle, as I have been lately, it makes making ASMR all worth it! I can't wait to continue our journey together, where I'll be right by your side creating ASMR content to help you relax through tough times. Your support and kindness has helped me so much through mine! Let's support each other and make life a little easier and more relaxing for us all! I try to make the world a kinder and better place, and your understanding and support is definitely doing that too - not just to me, but all my viewers. So on behalf of them and myself, thank you! 💫