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so last year i finally read "all that's said in the low light" by headlocket which i feel like has developed its own reputation by now, but just in case you don't know - it's kind of known in the fandom as a massive tearjerker. As promised, I cried buckets over it and it left an enormous impact on me.

I drew this comic (after getting permission from headlocket) as a what if on a situation in chapter 12, where Simon goes through a period of radio silence from Johnny after essentially giving him his blessing to date other people, the utter clown. We only see it from Johnny's side, who is really going through it, but the mental image of Simon staring at a slew of his own unread messages really stuck with me...did he think this was it? That that shitshow of a conversation he had with Johnny might've been the last they ever had? What if Johnny just never responded to him again? Did he regret giving him permission?

I tried to draw Simon in this comic as a sort of combination of my style and headlocket's interpretation of him, which is more faithful to Samuel Roukin.

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Tabby Locascio

Omg Gira I love this!!! This is one of my absolute favorite fanfics 🩷🩷

Karma_Pup

I LOVED that story and this little comic catches feels so WELL omgggg

Bibul Pass

Like always, your style and your drawings are amazingggg ! You are so talented ! And I really like the fact you put the screenshot of the phone on another page 😂😂😂

Gray

And I’m back to tears. now I have to reread it 😭😭❤️

Cobbstone

LWT MY BOY BE HAPPY PLEASE God you're art is SO good so happy to see you back from your hiatus

Morgan

This fic both shattered and warmed my heart- definitely one of my all time favorites. This art is such a beautiful companion to it- thank you!!

Cade.Aken

Ahh Your breaking my heart!!!!! 😢😢😢😭😭😭

Apache

THIS IS MT FAVORITE FANFIC EVER FOR GHOST AND SOAP I AM SO HAPPY YOU GOT TO DO THIS!! THANK YOU SO MUCH! I’m gonna go reread the fic now ♥️

Faith Brown

Never heard of this and I’m so glad I now know, but this art?! STUNNING I don’t know how you get better every time but it’s so good

Sharpy

Holy shit this is lovely, haven't even read the fic and I can feel the empty loneliness in these panels.

Ines

I still have to read it but I’m so scared now 😭 lowkey wanna print it out so I have a physical copy of it. I think reading it like that would be easier

Crowo

I love it when you introduce me to fics I’ve never found through ur art, honestly some of my favorite posts

Nicole Rodil

Never read the fic (will absolutely need to now) but I love how expressive you make your characters!! Even through like subtle stuff it just really conveys emotion (and emotional damage)

Mush_Pit

This is how my friends probably feel when I don't answer in the group chat for days 😅

patchy

GIRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA NOOOOOOT THIS FIC I CANT

Rowan

All that's said in the lowlight aka the bible

Beans

omg thank you for drawing this! personally I love when people draw out fanfic scenes bc it really helps me visualize what's going on (visual learner curse 😅) this is so good!!

LtJVega

I’m already tearing up just looking at this and I haven’t read the fic 🥺 I don’t think my heart could take it

mordechai

I am so wanting to read this but can anyone confirm if it's a happy ending (?)

justsaysiri

i was not prepared for this today but oh my god jesus christ i think i just got stabbed in the heart

luka

is this my sign to finally read it😭

FerindenCadash

Oh okay. It's crying time, I see. 🥲 This is a beautiful tribute to the best fanfic I've ever read. ❤️

cleric

I was thinking about the inverse of this comic literally 30 minutes ago and I bawled my eyes out for Soap and now I'm bawling my eyes out at your comic for Ghost. Truly so fucking beautiful, both your art and headlocks story. This is obv my sign to reread it. 😭💕

Aurora

This fic left such an impact on me, and your art brings me back. You did such a good job with Simon's expressions here wow, it hurts in a lovely way ❤️

MoonlightMarble

I read this pic at least once s month ❤️❤️

Rox

Low light 😩😩😩 I bound this fic for myself on maternity leave (with permission!!) and I’m rereading it now. So so so good

Loki

Nooo now I need to see how it continues 😭

Karolincki

Noooooo, this is another gut punch to an already gut punch fic 😭❤️

DamienCole

Whelp time to reread it again *grabs tissues and hot cocoa*

Lily 🦚

I've been in the COD fandom for almost two years now and I've seen so many nice things about this fic but I still haven't found the courage to read it...

Skulli

This hurt my feelings 😂

SlytherinStolz

I read it after you talked about it on X and I have to thank you. This is by far my favorite Ghoap fic so far

SK

just made all of the emotions from reading it come back 😭

Vamp K

Hey! So I don't know of a way to hide spoilers here on Patreon, BUT feel free to message me elsewhere and I'm happy to share as little/lot as you want! Tumblr/Instagram/Bluesky: @vampirekilmer X: @vampkilmer

Monzi

Yeeeeeeeees I love that story! Your art is so gorgeous and accompanies it so well!

Etolie

Omg I love this!! I'm so glad to see this in your style! I was thinking a kit Ghost during this too, those two just have so much tension. I cried like crazy through this fic and seeing another POV here has made me race through those emotions again 😭😭 Thank you so much for drawing this!!

DexTheHexx

My favorite COD artist making art for my favorite fanfic. I'm in heaven 😍😍

Lux

You made this amaziny

lea

AOUGHHHHHHHHH

Amanda

This is have no words it so good

TerrifyingTermite

I wish you could've heard the unholy screech I just let out seeing the email preview...and just after I finished another reread last weekend 😭 but🔥 hurts so good!!

Caro

Beautiful! That fic is so great, I hope you'll also read the sequel in lieu of the bells!

Plz2DaySatan

OH MY GOD OH MY….i am screaming and running around flapping my hands. This is wonderful, brilliant and AHHHHH! 😭😭😭😭 this hurts so good.

Betty M

I wish I had the headspace to read this 😭 I've heard it's beautiful. I shall content myself with this comic and assume things end happily 😭💖

Cheyll

I am actually crying at this holy shit. Two geniuses combined. Thank you so so much for creating that

High-witchery

WILL OUR FANDOM EVER KNOW PEACE 😭 ABSOLUTELY AMAZING THO

Sei

Thank you for this

Anita Snack

SPOILERS: They do end happily. It's actually quite an adorable ending. If you ever find the space to read it, I highly recommend.

TheWiccanCafe

My *heart*— the justice you’ve done for this is just….augh

Rin

Gods, this is heart breaking 😭

Bubbleteahamster

do not read fanfics and don't know the context outside what you said (which thank you 😭) but this is still beautiful absolutely love it 👍

Noodlecup

I’m reading this right now omg. I’m on chapter 10

Aiden

My day be so fine, then BOOM: angst

Gracie P

😭😭😭😭

Chelsea Hogan

I absolutely love that fic, so getting art for it is an absolute treat. Especially when it's self-imposed angst from Ghost being his emotionally constipated self. Love that boy, but SOMETIMES...

Nyah

THIS IS AMAZING!!! im honestly so happy you did this! I love the simon pov especially beacuse we all were sobbing at johnnys self destruction so a bit

Frost

God, they both were struggling so much. Simon kept so much of his emotions locked up, but eventually they made it.

Nightshade

screaming, crying, throwing up. every time I think my heart has moved on from this fic, I go crashing back into it face-first (thank you so much for bringing this to color, I absolutely love seeing Simon’s side)

Soapy Johnny

This fic is on my list to read, and omg just from 5 images I'm already fucking heartbroken 😭

Tyrsdottir

GOD i forgot about this fic until i saw those texts and then read your description... This is one of those fics where i found it right before bed, thought, "oh I'll just read one chapter" and then ended up staying awake most of the night actually crying bc it made me feel so much the whole time... I literally called out of work over that fic because i finished at like 4am and realized i hadnt slept

Lux

this fic genuinely owns me i re-read it every few months it's so good your comic is perfect augh 🙏🏽

WildMoonflower

Not gonna lie to you, be prepared to cry really fucking ugly. Johnny.... really goes through it. I've read that story several times and I cry every single time, almost every single chapter will break your heart

Katie C.

This makes me want to reread it soooo bad. This and pattern breaker have found their home on my kindle lmaoo

sero!!

I’m gonna have to read this now- I have not known if it’s existence and now I do

Cal

This is amazing! Opened the fic again and gonna reread it tonight again 👌

Ry Bread

god am i finally gonna have to read this

LittleMarimo

"You've left him in a state" the way i almost cried at work just now. That revelation cut so deep back then. The guilt, beside all of the emotional burdens. To anyone who hasn't read the fic yet, do it. Its so good and so cathartic.

Mrs

It is an amazing fic. I actually can't really remember the scene(s) you depicted, though. I guess that means I'll have to read it again 😄

SunnyCapri

It’s one of my favorite fics and you portrayed that scene so well!!

AvianDarling

Don’t do this to me I named my rdr2 horses after this fic 😭 I can’t even read the title without my heart sinking that fic CHANGED something in me

houndofhell

After seeing your artwork I went to ao3 to read the fanfic and ty for drawing this - this fits perfect for the Story 🖤🖤🖤

Queenie

Ooooh I LOVE this. The look on Simon’s face when he’s thinking about Johnny fucking someone else is incredible. What a gorgeous and heartbreaking piece 💖

Saturn

I love when you do these! they get me hooked on a fic before even reading it

Ardie

Akkkkk!!!! Dude THATS my favourite fic!!!!

Leah Marsters-Skerry (Lady Armageddon)

I can tell by your illustrations that I’m not strong enough to read this fic! But oh my gosh, the emotion you show here is beautiful. The distress on Simon’s face is so well illustrated, and the idea of him staring at the messages constantly throughout the say is heartbreaking. Kudos to the author of the fic, and also to you for nailing the emotions perfectly! 🖤

Reiko

Read the story, cried my eyes out

Liam

Oh how dare you draw my attention to this fic i didn't know existed before. I'm sobbing my bloody eyes out 🥹

Commoner

Oh wow ! Awesome to see your interpretation of what Simon thinks after "letting Soap loose", I did wonder what type of low self esteem and punishment Simon was feeling to think such a thing was a good idea. Awesome to read and I'll go re-read the fic right about now !

Julia Vitkin

Could I be that one annoying person and just ask what your posting schedule is if you have one? Not for any reason, I just get excited for your post and want to know when you do 😁

bit

Gahhhhh!!! Seriously one of my favourite fics of all time and look at this beauty that you’ve brought to it!!! 😭😭😭😭 my heart hurts so much, in that really good way.

Worm

This is the art that finally got me to read the fic and I love and hate you for it

Thanatos

I haven't read this fic but ohhh you have managed to tell me it is angst so *effortlessy*. Simon's inner torment thinking about Soap being on the market again, sleeping with other people... ooh lord, you've spiked my interest with this one. I'm gonna prepare to cry my eyes out now

Blu3isheeps

omg i forgot u made this omfg this was what made me read it and it broke my heart but i love it so so so much