some talking about things (Patreon)

I'm going to admit that since the car accident, the BS with LT3, some super BS with a friend, and then being sick on top of that, I haven't had much drive for writing recently. I've really been TRYING, but all I end up doing is rearranging sentences, editing, deleting things, changing minor things. I have to write entire scenes for this next Obscura chapter and I honestly have no energy for it. I haven't even been READING, I've barely been doing anything. I think I have hit a burn out point, and I am trying really hard to push through it. So hopefully I will get this chapter, and the bonus stuff, done by the end of the month, but this is why it's been slow. A combination of a lot of things all happening at once zapping all my energy, and on my best days I function at 75% energy anyway.

I also did get the job I interviewed for, and have been at that for a little bit. It's a new schedule for me to work with BUT I am 100% always MORE productive when employed because I use my time more efficiently, so this is totally unrelated to why there's been no content this month yet. It's totally me and my mental state and my inability to feel like I can produce anything worth reading right now.