Gimmie your OCs! (Patreon)

I really don't think people understand how serious I am when I ask for drawing prompts. My body really is so broken that the slightest bit of tension - from grinding my teeth, tensing my shoulders, or scrunching my forehead - can end my day. Thus, I can ruin my day BEFORE I START if I don't have enough of a plan when I pick up my pencil! My energy windows are incredibly narrow, so any shortcut that lets me jump to executing art is so important!

Unfortunately, another downside to being so broken for so long is that people have given up on me, or put up protective barriers because watching me struggle makes folks extremely uncomfortable. I keep asking for prompts on Twitter, and the result is the ego-shredding realization that no one every responds. I can't even give away FREE commissions, because so few eyes are watching me now. Everyone is 100% justified in moving on from me, but I'm completely unable to self-motivate like I used to, so I gotta keep putting my ego out there to get stomped. I need other people to give me a push and/or prop me up, which is a problem if you spent the decade before the bodysplosion with an "I'll pull back and build myself into a person who deserves support, THEN I'll make my connections!" philosophy.

Email or DM reference sheets, or a picture of your pet, with a brief comment on what you’d like to see done with it. I could even try Precocizing a pic of human you! And now the disclaimer: This isn’t really a commission deal. I wanna use these as warmup exercises, to help get my pain-scrambled brain in gear. No promises about what will come of this. Some will be drawn quickly. Some will sit around in a prompt folder for months. Some won't click with my warmup needs, and won't turn into sketches. (This is why volume is important! Non-artists don't know what makes for a good prompt, so flood me and hope you get lucky!) Some will be "loose sketch" commission quality, and some will just be quick gesture work. Many will end up looking nothing like the character, because I'm trying to relearn how to art, and that means a lot of missteps before I regain some consistency. 

Again, the theme from this last year and so is that I'm trying to find inspiration and energy where I can, and I want to maximize the still-rare sparks. Anything that can help me workaround the mental and physical blocks is super important. I'm trying to gauge where my energy level is, and set projects that will maximize what I have. With people supporting me, that emotional high could help me raise me energy ceiling. Maybe my energy boost means you'll be a lucky one and get some swell art out of this! Maybe it'll all work so well, and I'll be so boosted by the inspiration from knowing people are supporting me at my worst that I ignore all your requests because I put the energy into making comics! Probably not (yet), but let us dream.

Maybe my meds are wearing down, and I've kinda lost control of what I'm typing??? I am not going back to read and edit this stuff. I'm gonna go crash in bed and watch Netflix while my next medication dose catches up.