OC sketch practices (Patreon)

When my head gets all anxious and messy, I know good old EXECUTIVE DYSFUNCTION is unconquerable in my current heavily-addled state. That’s when I need external help to anchor me down long enough for me to do a simple task. That’s when I ask for some furry OC references, so I can pretend I’m doing a commission task, but with minimal stress. (Hope I posted the right “best” images. I forgot to put them in the folder that signifies the keepers. Hard to tell when typing on the phone.)

Sometimes it works. Sometimes it fails. Usually I get at least a window of production before my brain finally overcomes all the workarounds I did to circumvent its idiocy. These exceeded expectations greatly. The colored pencils happened to be on my desk, and I went with it.

After these warmups, I turned to working on one for myself. (It’s over on my Twitter, but I’ll hold off posting it here, as it’s meant to lead its own separate Patreon post.) I’ve only got one ref left in my queue, and I dunno if I can recapture what I had, buuuuut…

I’m also in a constant anxiety meltdown right now, with psychosomatic manifestations, and it is TERRIFYING. Which means I could use more distractions. If I don’t draw my own stuff, maybe I can draw something for you without pressure. (Unfortunately, that means prior commitments don’t count, as they’re on hold cuz I want to do a GREAT job on them. I’m at low function, so low-grade work only.)

I knew this week - Botox week - would be one of the most stressful weeks of my life. I was supposed to see 3 docs in 7 days, during a Covid spike, when I’m high risk! I’ve already cancelled one due to not being able to handle it, and I may cancel all but Botox by the end.

I don’t know if I can produce in my current state, or if trying helps or hurts, but I know sitting around and dwelling on it is DEFINITELY the wrong call. Distract me, please!