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Update delay (Patreon)

Published:
2021-10-06 12:23:05
Imported:
2026-06

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Hello! Unfortunately, I'm writing this to say that I may end up having to skip this weeks chapter. I've written about 3300 words - again, kinda crunching at the last minute - but I've been looking over some the stuff I wrote back in spring this year at the same time, and the disparity in the quality of the prose kinda hit me like a rock. I've always been kinda overworked and brain-dead while writing this story, but I've been spotting way more clumsily-written segments, typographical errors, and missed details I'll have to find a way to insert later in the chapters I've been writing post-surgery, and just a general... Awkwardness or lack of focus compared to my usual output.


This most recent attempt felt like it took that to an unacceptable level. Even if my writing if often indulgent conceptually, I always try to hold on to the outlook that everything that happens should mean something sort of important - thematically, for the characters, for the mystery, for the tone... But I'm so exhausted that it feels I can't hold a big picture outlook on the text in my head, and just end up in creating filler. Worse, I keep accidentally breaking the logic of the mystery, and am worried there are more instances of that I'm missing and could slip into the published narrative.


So I think I need a week, or at least a couple more days, to clear my head and rewrite it properly. I apologize for the delay again. I feel like the story has slowed down tremendously since my tumor was spotted between the shorter updates and weeks like this, and I already put out less content then most professional webnovel authors, so please feel free to drop from the Patreon if you are mostly in it for the advance updates and feel kinda ripped off. I appreciate everyone's support, but I kinda hate the idea of becoming one of those people who basically have to use the platform to perpetually apologize. (I guess I kinda have to extent already, lmao)


Honestly, this has all frustrated me a lot. I've said before that this all kicking off the same month (June) that the story really started to get more popular felt like an awful coincidence, and things stagnating since then has left me feeling pretty bummed out. But I'm still obsessed with this project, and will keep moving forward. 


Unless I die. Then I guess it'll be cancelled. 


By the way, I meant to mention at some point: I do have a Discord set up now, as I promised before surgery hit me like a truck, but I've been holding back on posting it out of worry that it will end up pretty dead, or will be awkward because I'm not sure how to run it... Silly reasons, basically. Maybe taking a little time to clear my head now that I'm actually semi-functional will help with that, too.


Thanks for reading to my usual moaning. I'll at least add a bit more to the current advance chapter later today, since it's one of the only parts of the draft I wrote that's not janky and honestly paces better there anyway.

Comments

Anonymous

I can't speak for anyone else, but personally I'm subscribed because this is one of the most imaginative and well written stories I've read, and I want you to be able to keep writing it. I don't mind the slower updates even before your surgery, I hope you can keep writing at whatever pace you feel comfortable and happy with the quality of.

dryff

I definitely haven't noticed a drop in the quality, but I'm relieved to hear you're stepping back to take a break because you really have seemed overstrained and exhausted from the tone of your posts for the last few months, and I think it definitely can't be healthy or sustainable to keep pushing yourself so hard! You have been through a lot and deserve some time to relax and destress if you can! I definitely agree with Jager that I think the most important thing for you and the story is that you're able to keep writing it at a pace that you feel comfortable with and where you can be confident and satisfied with your work. That matters much more to me than just the principle of seeing an update every week, which always seemed like a very fast pace to me. I'm subscribed because I want to support you to do whatever it takes to keep writing, and that includes keeping yourself healthy and being able to take breaks. And much as I kind of feel like a broken record saying this, I just want to say I really love and appreciate your story and I'm glad you're writing it, whether it gets super popular or not! You show such a great level of thoughtfulness, reflection and piercing yet compassionate insight into people and the human condition that shines through in everything you write, and your story really has that sort of quality of... sort of acknowledging that life and existence is kind of a chaotic horrifying mess but still sort of managing to order those human experiences into something that can be reflected on and have meaning and understanding drawn from them despite that, which is common to all my absolute favourite writers. Your writing is always inspiring to me in that sense, and that's not even getting into the depth of your characters and setting and the in-universe mysteries that makes for such an immersive read. I keep finding new ways of looking at things and framing the themes of the story, and noticing implications and foreshadowing I hadn't picked up on before each time I return to the earlier chapters, which is a real sign of a well-crafted story and mystery to me. I think your work is really impressive and valuable, and hope it gets all the recognition it deserves!