SeLf PoRtRaiT i (Patreon)

this one is my first self portrait, titled so anyway  (っ⌒ . ⌒)っ

there was the intention to convey multiple states of the self in drawing two gazes; as if one could look into a mirror from one self states and see the other(s); that was the intention behind the overlay. here i see one of the faces expression as more mischievous & fierce, and the other  contemplates the viewer back with a loving maternal gaze. i don't conceptualize my paintings so much that i start off with an idea.. i try to just follow impulses hoping they surprise me, hoping that the image that appears in front of me can teach me something about myself. only in studying the process in hindsight do some realizations become possible when looking back on things one has made in the past. <3