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It's probably no secret that I live in Germany. I want to tell you how my 8 months here went and what problems I faced. I would write this text in German (since it is only for Germans) but I do not know the language, so I write in English. I will divide the topics into subgroups and want to be written out how I should act in this situation since I do not want to offend or humiliate anyone.

I don't feel safe, I don't feel like I'm in a safe country. I have friends who help me with translations, but they are not with me 24/7, but in government agencies, pharmacies, and even supermarkets, they force me to learn German. It’s one thing when a person doesn’t understand and speaks German, but I come across people who either very rudely answer in English what and how I need to live, or just tell me in German so eating the words that it’s more like a set of sounds than some kind language. I'm already tired of explaining to everyone, but perhaps I'll write it again. For now, I keep all my energy and attention on learning English - this is my work and my communication with you. No matter how the Germans try to force me to realize their language, I will not do it. At least for now. But the desire disappears every time when a person appears who behaves very disgustingly and does not try to understand my situation. I didn't come here because I wanted to live here, work here, or collect your taxes, I came here because of the situation in the country. And I came here because I thought that the situation here is the most stable. I don't understand people who are so hostile. I don't get citizenship or permanent residency to stay here for the rest of my life. If I move to another country in half a year, will I need to learn the local language there?

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We all worried about my health, and if in Ukraine I had problems with money to do additional tests or examinations, then there are no such problems here because there is medical insurance. But here the problem is different, these are stupid appointments. For 8 months, I was able to send documents for disability and get a response. “In principle, I can be congratulated, I am 20% disabled and 80% healthy, according to German statistics. I'm not saying this sarcastically, I'm really glad to hear that my body is still in order "But the problem is that I did not want to receive privileges in transportation or payments (everyone didn't give me exactly this), I wanted to get priorities for visiting doctors. I have a serious diagnosis, and if I have something critical, I can't be sure that they will help me quickly and efficiently. I have to do examinations every half a year. The last time I did them was at the end of February, that is, at the end of August, I had to do a second MRI, but my doctor said to come at the end of September. And so, here you need to follow the consequences. I took a referral for an MRI to the doctor and, in fact, now I need to go to the clinic to sign up. Without a referral, I can’t take a record, or how do I even know which referral they will give me to sign up in advance. I came to the clinic and they told me that the next appointment would be in mid-November. After calling and visiting all clinics, I could not find anything for October. That is, I need to postpone my examinations for 3 months just to get on the schedule.

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Bureaucracy in Germany is a very big problem. I'm just not used to this whole system. But I can’t understand how, after 6 months with the documents, we came to the conclusion that they were not properly drawn up for me. I just don't understand how to live in this country. Germany seems to want me to do everything according to the rules of a refugee (get a food allowance, get a paid apartment, and insurance). But I'm not one of those refugees who needs that kind of help. I have one-third of Youtube from Germany, and I want to be honest with my subscribers, I refused payments and do not stand at the jobcentre in order to receive some kind of privilege. But I was led into a trap. I can't rent an apartment because I don't have any official income documents. I can't pay and receive my insurance because I am Ukrainian and there is simply no such function. Therefore, I now live in a dorm (the state pays), I have insurance (the state pays) and I can’t do anything about it because the state says “I depend on it”, but without this, I can’t do anything myself, so how not allowed. I know it will be very difficult money, but I want to go on my own, pay my own insurance and rent my own apartment. I want to be an honest person and not take too much so that later the evil people in the administration would not tell me that I was just another visitor and I only want to receive money and do nothing.

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What happens with the movement, how do I understand how to get to the point I need? I'm starting to hate transportation a little. I'm already used to the fact that the trains are late, I leave an hour earlier, but I don't understand when the train was canceled. I have to enter not the train itself, which should arrive in an hour or two, or during the day, but the canceled at all. I wanted to get to the Airport from my city (and I was on this train a couple of weeks ago), I even left 3 hours before my flight to make sure I was on time. But there was no train. The only board had information about the fucking masks, but nothing about this train. I was lucky with the circumstances and I found another way to get there, but when I flew back to Germany, the problem was, now, to return to that station. When I went to the information center at the airport to inquire about this train, they told me that the entire flight was canceled and they changed to buses. But these buses also no one knows where they stop and I had to run and look for a stop because the stop is not from the central station. How can I understand all these subtleties? I also had another experience. I took an urban train from one city to another city. We got to the middle of the road and just drove back. I was sure that we did not reach the city I needed because I always checked the map. But when I started arguing with the driver, he firmly told me that we had come from that city. But I heard from the passengers that they announced (in German, of course) that they needed to transfer to another train. Or when I was in a hurry for an MRI early in the morning, my bus did not consider it necessary to stop and slowly drove through my stop looking at me. Even though I gave him gestures to stop.

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