I Am Back (Patreon)

Hey, I'm sure you've all noticed that I've been gone for some months. Firstly I want apologize to anyone that I worried. Some of you sent me DMs and messages checking up on me. I've never considered myself very good at talking to others in the first place, and mixing that with the anxiety I was feeling caused me to just not respond to anybody. I am sincerely sorry for that. It was rude of me to not say anything until now. Just know that I did genuinely appreciate that you reached out and cared. I will do my best to actually communicate in the future.

Now the reason I was gone for so long was because, for lack of better words, I wasn't satisfied with my art. I've always had some form of imposter syndrome, those that have followed me for a bit might have there were times where I would disappear for a few weeks, but this was probably the worst it's ever been. Every time I made something I would end up comparing myself to another artist in a way that wasn't healthy and just not post it. Then I would feel ashamed for being anxious over something that meaningless. Then I would try to make something to post and end up comparing myself to others again. This negative feed back loop resulted in me disappearing for months.

I know that I'm not in the best position to complain about things like this. I'm aware of the fact that I have a decent enough following. I'm aware that there are plenty of people that they wished they were as "talented" as me. I'm aware that the solution to my problem is just get over it and post things anyway. But being aware of a solution and having the will to act on it are two different things. But I think I've finally gotten the willpower to do it.

As I said earlier in my text wall of cringe, I never stopped drawing I just didn't post it anywhere. So get ready for me to dump all of my hiatus pictures. 🎉