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Digging Deeper #20: October Content & Podcast Changes (Patreon)

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A look back on September workflow, discussing the October content as well as changes for the Digging Deeper podcast!

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Aine

Oh, so you're kind of relaunching something similar to your old Kulture Study podcast from like ~3 years ago? You didn't do many of those episodes but I really enjoyed them! It's one of the things I miss about your old regular livestreams - your commentary about more recent kpop events/news, and kpop in general. Also, I've already expressed my thoughts about doing RtK2 (and w/ skipping QDP, as a mainly GG stan 💔) in the poll comments section, but I think maybe a better plan for you and your health would be to just react to the performances rather than sitting through the full episodes? I worry that your physical state will worsen again with taking on another lengthy program like in the past. It feels like you've been doing better with reacting to mostly shorter videos (or splitting up into more manageable parts like with the Nana Tour). I've slowly come to accept that by this point in your life, survival shows and other long programs like that are probably not in the best interest of your health, as much as I've loved watching those shows along with you through the years. It's the original reason I first subscribed to the Patreon way back in 2020. There's so many programs I wished you had watched (My Teenage Girl, Girls Re:Verse, Nizi Project, A2K, Universe Ticket, I-land 2, etc etc) but I realize it's just unrealistic and selfish of me to ask that of you now.

WiseSmellyLegs
>>150775684

I cannot speak for the other shows, but when it comes to A2K… don’t say it is selfish to ask/recommend that… That is truly a healing experience and probably the best deep dive into the idea of creating a Kpop group with international/western members! My heart is still hoping for the day of rewatching A2K here!

t_k

Once again, I urge you to listen to Onew's "Circle" album - not only because it is a great album and one of the most musically and creatively rich albums I've ever heard in my life, but also because it helped me in getting through rough times after losing my mom and my fiancé, and having to change my life entirely - alone, in a different city and a different job, with a whole bunch of physical and mental health problems that have impacted my life severely. I had closed off, declined any opportunities to meet my friends, didn't answer any calls or messages, began drinking and overeating, while beating myself for doing so. I was in a very dark place, thinking dark thoughts that I was bashing myself for thinking about, but then continuing to do so. It was then that I heard this album, especially the title song itself, and I finally felt like something changed. It was honestly a moment like in the movies - I went home after a difficult day at work and multiple unanswered messages from my friends, made myself a cup of chocolate milk and sat by the window. Then I turned on the song, watched the MV on repeat, read the translation for the lyrics for a few times, then turned on the song on Spotify while looking outside my window where it was raining heavily, when the sun suddenly showed up and everything became so beautiful, so bright and warm. And suddenly, even though it was still raining, I saw this beauty and I went outside, on the balcony, and just sat there, watching the sun going down and listening to the song. Then, as it went dark, my friend called me again and everything suddenly weighed down on me, all the things that were heavy on my heart, so I cried as I finally answered her call and heard her voice. It became so much better after that. Slowly I returned back to normal, I worked a lot with a therapist, and I also accepted many things about myself, and I regained my strength, but I also let myself be weak and not be ashamed of it. It still hurts sometimes, I still feel lonely sometimes, but I accepted it and I don't blame myself for feeling that - it's just a normal part of life. Loss is normal, sorrow is normal, sadness is normal, just like love, joy and excitement are normal. It's all just life, a never-ending circle of everything. A beautiful circle, if a bit cruel sometimes. I firmly believe that this album might be like a helping hand to those that need it, even if it sounds strange to talk about music like this. It really helped me realize and accept so many things. Maybe I don't always understand many things, but I came to realize that acceptance is more important. It helps in healing. So I really hope you'll have and opportunity to listen to "Circle". It will be a different experience for you - we are different people after all, - but I think - I hope - you might feel the warmth of the helping hand on your shoulder just like I felt it.

Sven Lenders

재혁/PD, First of all, I think you should also include more stuff you feel like you want to check out for yourself and where you just can shut your mind off a bit more. You are filming all of these videos on high energy and don’t really take a break between those videos. Look for some content that is very easy to watch so you can chill a bit during those recordings (I really don’t mind watching you sit back and saying a few things while just watching the show, that would honestly be the most genuine reaction you could give). Maybe that will help you regain your energy a bit faster and doesn’t need as much planning, just watch it whenever you feel like wanting to watch it. Listen to your body, give it the time to regain the energy it needs to make the content that needs your expertise even better. Let me tell you the people who told you to “Just get over it” are just straight up losers themselves. They don’t want to face their troubles and move on so they don’t have to worry about them anymore, while in fact, those emotions and worries keep following you till you finally hit rock bottom and can’t get away from them anymore. Face your worries, face your emotions, let it all go whenever you feel like you need to let them go. You are just restraining yourself from being the person you really are. There is nothing such as “You should just get over it”. Let me ask you this “Do soldiers just get over killing people?” answer: “Yeah they do, until they get home and get PTSD and brake down, go on a killing spree or commit suicide”. Taking the time to heal is a good thing and you shouldn’t rush it at all, in the end it is still YOUR patreon. Some people might ask for a refund (which I find really weird for just 5 - 20 dollars/euros). Whenever you see a bad comment again, just remember my LOONA guidelines I put on another digging deeper episode “Oh you think this, So What”, “Oh you say I am weak, So What”, “You think I should do this or otherwise you are a loser, So What”. You’ve got to stop worrying about what others think of you and listen more to yourself. Besides that, there are also a lot of positive comments. Let me also give you some to lighten up the mood: The fact that you keep this patreon running whilst also making a film is crazy to me. that I admire You actually lost a lot of weight over the last year and I think you look really good these days. Your haircut really suits your image, I honestly might like it even more than the longer hairstyle The fact that you are building up your company at a really fast pace is pretty insane to me. I feel like speaking to a therapist is a really big step in your progression as a person and I think it gives you the grip you needed on life and someone who can help you go through it I also thought of this schedule for your day by just music choices and how you can gear up for the day: Getting out of bed: TWS - Plot Twist, IZ*ONE - La Vie En Rose Getting breakfast: Treasure - Darari, BND - Nice Guy, BND - But I Like You Before recording: ATEEZ - Work, Getting Lunch: TripleS - Rising, IVE - After Like, GOT7 - Lullaby Going to the gym: SEVENTEEN - Super, Stray Kids - Boxer, Any Monsta X song Dinner: Enhypen - Bite Me, BTOB - Blue Moon Emotional cry: Stray Kids - Lonely Street, Day6 - Shoot Me, Bang Yedam - Wayo Angry rage: ATEEZ - Guerrilla, Stray Kids - Side Effects Late night vibe: George - Boat, BTS- Butterfly, Before going to bed: Dean - Half Moon These are just some examples, everyone feel free to add certain songs. What I meant to say by making this is that I as an autistic person really get my vibe during the day from the music I listen to, and I think you might feel the same way about music.

Aprill

More more enhypen please

Taiwo

Here to support your healing <33

Form of Therapy
>>150784106

Thank you for this suggestion with such a powerfully vulnerable comment. How could I not finally tackle this with a recommendation like this. I hope it'll be a gift to me like it was for you. Stay tuned...

Sven Lenders

I also thought of this, look back at your TWS - 내가 S면 넌 나의 N이 되어줘 (If I’m S, Can You Be My N?) reaction time stamps 12:05 - 14:52. You actually give the answer yourself here to all of your worries. The boys talk about it being hard doing things for the first time like calling each other with informal speech, doing things like high jumping and more things that might seem impossible at first. But they know that toghether they can pukll trough those hardships. Also, the choreography is made based off the fact that each MBTI S member had an MBTI N member to dance with. The whole song is actually besides being an uplifitng pop song a song with a very deep meaning that always makes me cry because of the imagery they try and portray. So 재혁, ask this question next time you are having a hard time: "If 재혁 S, Can Patreon Subs Be 재혁 N?" and also the other way around, because that is what "Form of Therapy" was made for.

izzy

Love to hear about your healing journey, it sounds like you already are on the right track! In regards to Kingdom, I honestly don't think it's worth it to film Road to Kingdom because it sounds like you already have a lot to film in October. But maybe the compromise could be to only watch the performances and look up the rankings after? Idk, do whatever you feel is the right thing to do for yourself :)

Sven Lenders
>>150792861

Looking back on this comment actually made me realise that giving other people advice/confidence is way easier than giving it to yourself. I am in a burn out myself right now, and I remember how you would always say you felt like you were dying. For someone who hasn't been through such a period of time, that seems pretty vague, but I really understand what you meant right now. I feel the same way you did, and although I am getting my life back on track, moving a lot, losing weight, and even got assurance from therapists and doctors that there is nothing wrong with me (except for the burn out), I still feel like I might die one of these days. I know the chances of that are very slim, but it just sticks into your mind and doesn't go away fast. But now that I've looked back on this comment, I know I can do it as well.