PD’s First Feature Film: It begins… first steps! (Patreon)

I began this year with one goal: one way or another I’m making my first movie. Whether it sucks or not, I’m making this movie.

Now, I’m trying real hard to make sure it doesn’t suck so I’m going all out and writing to you all from an overnight train to Washington to tell you that the process has finally begun. I’m embarking on a writer’s retreat!

Over the past six months I was able to write 70ish pages of the screenplay to my first feature film ‘i only love in the summer’. Over the next 10 days however, I’m locking down and finishing the rest of this script. It won’t be “done” per se, but the goal is to get a working first draft completed and then retool that over the next few months until I’m ready to begin principal photography.

Writing this film has been hard. Even today I’m only just getting started and the process has been like taking a surgical knife and cutting open my chest, and forcing myself to look at what comes out.

Truthfully, I have been very scared to make this movie for a long time. I avoided making it for 7 years. I used my YouTube channel, this Patreon, COVID lockdown as excuses to never pursue this.

And it’s true I was busy, but I avoided making this by throwing myself more into working. And when I inevitably burned out, lost my mind, and everything else—I was faced with the cold truth. I was running from what I wanted to do the most, what I needed to get out of me. I spent the past two years doing healing work to better myself, prepare myself, and put myself in a mentally healthy position to finally do this. And so here we are. At the start of a long sprint.

I want to just express my gratitude for those who have supported me all these years. I know a lot of people are here just for reactions; that’s cool. And I know some were aware of my ambitions. And I know few have been waiting for this. It doesn’t matter what camp you’re in—you’re all allowing me to create a movie completely outside the traditional indie film industry system. You’re allowing me to have a rare opportunity; full creative control. Self funded. No studio. No investors. Just the vision.

I intentionally GRINDED all these years to put myself in this position. And then I got too scared once I was able to. Silly me.

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Because I’ll be back at the end of next week, no Kulture Studies this week; but I’ll catch up when I’m back. I’ve already prepped and scheduled all the content for this month, and I’ve also got a Leemujin ATEEZ Yunho reaction (this man blew me away) and the ENHYPEN member versions reactions set to drop as bonus drops for this Friday.

I’ll be checking in to my DMs once a day in the mornings before I begin my writing sprints everyday to make sure there’s no tech support or refunds that need attention. If you do, please be patient as I will be able to check starting Wednesday morning!

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I’m also using this opportunity to get back into photography. I haven’t done photography in… God, since 2020? Six years? It’s to transition back into my mind as a director, to see the world in a different and more romantic way.

While on the train today I took a handful of photos but there were a few selects that I thought really evoked the essence of the film I’m writing. These photos I think capture the soul and tonality of what the film will feel like, so I created a few mood board film posters with the photos I took by simply just adding text. I hope these give you a vague idea of what my film will feel like and illicit some kind of reaction.

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Let’s go.