A change to next month’s SUMMER tier content (Patreon)

I got some pretty difficult news last night.

My partner and assistant, whom you all may know as Blaire, is visiting her family and contracted COVID-19.

The surge of anger I felt for the irresponsible who caused this to happen, the wave of sadness I felt in fear for her health, and the guilt I felt because I couldn’t get past my anger and sadness to console her…

The tremendous fear of losing someone is a first for me. And I can shrug off anything but my fear of death is…irrational. If you’re new or you didn’t know, the reason why I founded FORM OF THERAPY was because of my own brash with nearly dying, and my inability to cope with it.

Blaire is vaccinated but that doesn’t mean it’s all great news. She is returning in the beginning of August once she clears a COVID test but to be responsible we will place her in quarantine for 10 days in our home. I am incredibly high risk, and even vaccinated we just can’t chance it.

With that said July was already a difficult month, a numerous mix of issues like our AC breaking twice during a record breaking summer heatwave and our Internet breaking down several times (it went down again yesterday during the start of our stream and has been down ever since), I have been unable to film any of our August content.

I was going to just fight through it in August but… this news broke me. Imagine being paranoid and taking every precaution because you have an insane fear of death so COVID was the #1 priority… and then your worst fears come true. I wish I could shake this anxiety but I can’t. Not until we can absolutely secure and make sure it is out of her system.

My parents told me to just take a month sabbatical, a hiatus for the sake of my sanity. But what my parents don’t get, what I don’t think a lot of people get, is that there is a REASON I built our channel and our Patreon to this point: I actually love doing this for you all. So much so that I am actually ADDICTED to being a workaholic. Blaire can attest to this. My mental health actually spirals out of control whenever I am not working. It’s my purpose. And when I don’t work I feel like I’m letting everyone down. (But then when I do work, I overwork myself and cause my health to deteriorate and hate myself so it’s just a giant paradox.)

So here’s my compromise.

It’s true. I’m tired but that’s never stopped me. But my mental health took a major hit in July due to all the things going on with this move, and this news has only worsened it. I’m not really in a mood to laugh. I’m not really in a mood to feel joy. But I do need… something.

So for August SUMMER VARIETY content we’ll be pausing SOME of our ongoing series. Not all of them, and frankly I don’t know which ones yet, and I’ll have a concrete list for you soon (before the 31st when your subscriptions auto-renew).

For August I want to temporarily change things up and do new content and check out some different things. What do I mean by that? Well frankly, one of the biggest healing things for me lately has been BTS IN THE SOOP. That honestly changed my life man. It’s a very relaxing and healing show. I would love more “healing” shows so PLEASE comment below with your suggestions. I will continue some stuff, and some stuff I may only do one or two episodes of. Some shows I will put on PAUSE until September.

August will have less content but please know that with the rest of my time I will be both taking care of Blaire and also handling moving all on my own so I’ll still have my hands pretty full.

Please leave your suggestions down below for some “healing” content and tomorrow I will be posting our August schedule. I am posting it early so that YOU can determine whether you want to continue your August patronage or skip the month.

Everyone please stay safe. Please stay vigilant. I know many in the rest of the parts of the world still don’t have access to vaccines. Please be safe.