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Hello everyone I am updating and informing you that tomorrow’s Patreon content will be out at 6PM KST on the 28th (2AM PST / 5AM EST) I can not adhere to the 9AM release as my movements today went incredibly awry and put me behind schedule.

I attended the LE SSERAFIM pop up shop as today was my only day where I could have fit it in. I left at 7AM PST expecting to be back by 12PM. Due to the sheer volume of people I was on standby until 12:30PM and was not even able to leave the venue until 4PM and was only just now able to return home (it’s 6PM PST).

I hope many of you can understand why I had to do this. It’s been hard having to accept that I am depressed again, and because I’ve been working on having healthy mental tools, I know there is nothing more I can do than just let myself feel this way and take care of myself. Today was such a day.

I have felt emotionless and out of touch with reality for a week now but today sparked a strange flutter in my heart. It felt like I was remembering what it meant to be an actual K-Pop fan not just someone who has to do work pertaining K-Pop.

This is actually the first fan event type experience I’ve ever been to and it made me very emotional. I even experienced the classic fan thing that I’d only heard about!

This one person asked if I would trade photo cards with them, I said sure, and the flood gates opened and 4 others came up to me. I lost really cute Chaewon and Kazuha cards to them but I wanted to be nice and figured they would appreciate them more than me but still 😭

But this experience also made me a deeper LE SSERA fan and also made me realize how much I both love and look up to these women.

Anyway, I hope you understand that I needed this day! I will film some extra bonus drops for keeping you waiting even longer but FEARNOT! It’ll be worth it 😁

There was also something incredibly moving for me to be surrounded by a bunch of K-Pop fans. It really gave me a breath of fresh air and gave me inspiration to work harder on my videos.

Thank you to the Patrons who gave me an advance notice on this event happening. It was very meaningful to me. God dammit they were sold out of everything I wanted but I am grateful that I got to be in a position to get even anything at all!

I’ll also be making a whole LE SSERA-DRIP outfit video on my TikTok soon so stay tuned!!

See you tomorrow!!!

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Ana

That sounds like an amazing experience! I'm lowkey jealous, it sounds so fun even with the huge wait time hahaha. It's always nice to meet people irl who like the same things you do & are as passionate about them. I'm glad you had fun!!

Gabrielle Renae

Finding joy in the little things or the big things is amazing. Very happy you had a good time and got to do the trading card thing. I've also never got to experience that, and it sounds so fun. Take your time, we're all here for you.

Violet Joo

I am so happy that you did something that made you happy. This fan things are really nice. I remember going to BTS concerts and armys giving candy and photo cards and making friends with everyone. It's a really nice experience.

Juliana Ferrari

Yay!! It seems like this pop up store is amazing! I'm kinda jealous right now, the desserts and drinks look so good! Glad that you enjoyed the experience, let's stay Fearnots for a long time! 🩵

Clare B

Woah that looks amazing! Wish we had pop up stores of that level here in the uk, though mind you the ateez one looked pretty good even though we decided to skip out due to the queues (ended up getting the mythical ateez sling bag at the concert venue anyway so that’s a massive win!)

Wheezefest

I don't know if you'll get the chance BUT there's going to be a SVT Cafe in seoul starting from May 4th to May 28th!! They released a short promo video for it today

Oligom

The pun made my day 😂😂❤️

채채즈

Wow PD, I'm really jealous of you, really wished could be there with you too. They sold out everything fast since yesterday, curious did you get anything other than what you posted, I really want their tracksuit, griplock and ring. It's also nice to see you enjoying your day as a kpop fans, hope this will made your days better 😁. Can't wait for May 1st!!!

Mik

I am so very happy (and jealous) of you😱

Sakurayuna

Obviously this will make you more hyped up for May 1st 😁

mm

Videos don't run away. But opportunities like these are rare. So I'm glad you decided to go! I always love reading about experiences from events like this :)

Eduarda Boff

so glad y'all enjoyed the pop up store!!! it looks so cool!!!

Elisa

omg you're so lucky, I wish they did events like this in europe but we barely get concerts 🥲 actually I was watching your reactions to produce 48 again and I'm really happy to see yunjin and how good she did, I'm just not ready to see her leave again 😭😭 I got to know le sserafim in september last year and since then they became my ult group and I'm just the happiest everytime I see them somewhere. I couldn't believe someone would ever be my ult over bts but I just grew apart from them and I found le sserafim when I was at my lowest and they were "there" for me when i needed it the most....

ice4fresh

Omg I'm so jealous. The merch looks so good. I would've sacrificed a lot to go to that event.

Daniela Padilla

happy for you! hope we get some fromis_9 content of some kind in the near future from you guys

sdixnx

so happy for you PD!! hope you had a great time 🫶🏻

Sascha

Argh PD that looks so fun and exciting! Happy for you that you got to experience it first hand!

WiseSmellyLegs

I hope you didn’t mention this somewhere else before… but since you will be taking a break on Patreon, is there any chance you would stream time to time? I don’t mean like reaction stream, but just having a talk with you. There is a huge amount of content here, so I don’t mind you taking a break. I was just thinking if there is a chance for streams like that. I fully respect if you want to take break completely and have a time for your own. This is just a random thought, which came to my mind. Also… it’s always nice to see you being happy as on these photos!

Letícia

The pop-up venue looks absolutely gorgeous! I wouldn't miss it either if I was in SK. Glad you had a good time :)

Jericho

Ooooh that looks so nice, I'm so jealous, we get nothing in europe. Can't wait for the videos to come, its coming on my birthday so its a nice birthday treat. :)

maya k

so happy for you!!! may 1st can’t come fast enough! i wish you got to go to a svt music show taping or some kind of live event while you’re in korea 🥲

Kuro Kurt

At some point they will just drop an actual clothing line not just merch xD dosnt really Look like merch to begin with

Winter Rian ~

PD Woodz just had a comeback with a new Mini album if you want to check it out. Its amazing again. I swear I love this dude so much

Bright G

Yoooo! Love that you did get someone's message and was able to find some available time to visit that pop-up! I know you had to move things around, but I would never begrudge someone reprioritizing things when it's a very limited event and it made you happy and re-energized. But don't worry about missing out on the stuff you wanted to purchase, they're going to start selling them online on WeVerse as well (but here's hoping they will keep stock up or use the orders as pre-orders because a lot of FEARNOTS really want their stuff and can't be in Korea to get them).

Wiktor

If I could go, I would too. How was the experience!?

laura

Love that you go to go to the pop up store! Seen some pics of it and the merch is super pretty + the desserts looked so delicious🥲 Hopefully you can enjoy more of these events in the future, it really does make the whole fan experience so much better. and! only a couple more days till the comeback!!! i cannot contain my excitement any longer tbh

Staci

Le sserafims aesthetic tho... 💕

Jessy

Glad you went and had a good time! 😊

Brianna

Glad to see you doing things for your own enjoyment as well pd! The event looked fun just from your pictures

Elisa

wait omg I just saw that I won't see any of the content for le sserafim's comeback since I can't stay for the month of may (broke student things lmao) I'm so freaking sad 😭😭 have a good comeback with the girls and at least I'll see your reaction to the mv on youtube 🤠

ian

I was so happy seeing your IG post last night from the pop up!! Love this for you PD

Dan

not the chaewon pc 😭

Céline Verhaeghe

Seventeen just had their mcountdown comeback stage and I highly recommend you checking it out. Even though I have no doubt we will see a lot of seventeen content coming. They did such a good job on putting the concept on stage + they are wearing the traditional clothes from the video. Here's the link : https://youtu.be/RU3JCW3cAMk

Xari

aaaa im so glad you had this beautiful experience pd 🥹

Jade

Hey PD just so you know ZB1 did a commentary episode of BP/ like an interview with LipJ and OneStar today and it was hilarious!! Would love to see you react to it when you go back to filming eventually!

Ivy

yup it was so nice to see personalities of them that we didn’t get to see on boys planet!! its pretty much equivalent to ep 13 for PD’s ref :)

BE

Ahh! This looks like so much fun! I'm glad you got to go!

Ani Hernández

this is so beside the point but you look so cute in these pictures 😌 i'm glad this experience brought you joy!! i feel you on the lack of "fan" experiences. I've always lived with the shame and fear of judgment of taking my fangirling too far, i live in an enviroment where being an intense fan is not very common, you can be a fan of things as long as its "normal", or at least that's how i've always percieved it... i've always wanted to partake in fan activities but been too ashamed to do so, so i do it subtly and quietly in my corner. I hope one day I'll have one of this moments like the one you had today. Where I can be a fan unashamedly.

sunnyside

aw, pd im glad you had fun! there really is something about finding community when times are rough, even if that community is a silly little hobby event about a shared interest. humans are social creatures, even when some of us need a lot of time to ourselves, and that sense of belonging really can be refreshing. :)

beannieswife

hope you feel better soon jae <3 :( do what gets you back on a good mood!! for the sake of happiness always!! btw, xdinary heroes just made a comeback and.... if you think youre ready, youre not, youre gonna LOOSE IT, istg pd, they keep outdoing themselves, oh im scared for their future lmao theyre insane this early in their careers..

Wambits Ran

damnnnnn, that venue look awesome. if i were not know anything about kpop i would have thought that a branded expensive clothing store like adiddas, nike etc2

Ri Chang

It's beautiful that you're not letting depression stop you from still enjoying and welcoming goodness in your life! Emotions and brain chemistry is like the weather, you can perform all the right rituals, rites, build shelters and buy all the rain gear. It'll rain when it wants to rain, which really sucks when you're caught in it. Thanking for always being honest with us sharing your journey and experience in this world that seems to demand unrealistic levels of positivity. <3

Iris

Hi PD just letting you know zerobaseone ZB1 released a commentary episode of boys planet! MCs were LipJ and OneStar, the boys reacted to a lot of stuff(like their reaction at the finals), it’s really entertaining and lets you know the boys more, sort of like a peek into their future variety shows? Would love you to see it!