WEEKEND SCHEDULE, YT suggestions & personal updates (Patreon)

Yo guys, please leave your YT comebacks/debut suggestions below in this post! I'll be filming YT videos all day tomorrow.

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Today I was in meetings going over YT logistics and I'm very satisfied and will be both posting early access YT videos here starting tomorrow, but my two months of videos sitting unlisted that was only on Patreon will all start releasing live over this next week, starting tomorrow as well.

WHAT TO LOOK FORWARD TO

SAT & SUN

-KULTURE STUDY VIDEOS

SUN

-October Schedule

-New Week 4 Schedule

MON

-Expect a response on street team applications by Monday the latest!

The new week 4 schedule is something new but it's essentially just a reshuffling of the videos that are going to be releasing for the last week of September. This reshuffling will be based on the new PHASE 2 schedule.

THE PHASE 2 will be the new schedule format going forward and unless there is a huge issue or unforeseen inefficiency to the schedule, it will be our permanent one. Again, I was being selfish and greedy trying to do everything myself and I instead consulted a third party on the MOST efficient calendar, weekly release schedule, and how. I told them my needs and wants both for my own preferences and you guys and...

I did a huge face palm when I got my new schedule format going forward. It's simple, it's easy, it's no pressure for me. Once y'all see it, I will even give you the explanation why it was designed for that efficiency manner.

I know some people are a little uneasy because scheduling has been inconsistent so that's my only goal going forward: CONSISTENCY.

So I'm reshuffling week 4 and showing how easy this new schedule makes it to stay consistent.

I also have a new thumbnail, new style, new motivation, and a new attitude for the YT videos.

I know my process to getting back to YT has been slow but I don't care. It took however long it did because I needed it. Life is a journey and perhaps if I had taken it slow in the first place I wouldn't be here. I tried to rush things too much, trying to have an answer, trying to be perfect.

When I say I don't care, I definitely don't mean about you guys. I just... Need to stop caring about myself. I'm so so hard on myself like a fucking 2008 K-Pop Producer and it's just made me hate myself, what I film, what I do, and questioned why I do anything.

I'm trying my best to ground myself but I'm also back to updating. I'll try my best to be semi-daily and regularly. As I talk about what I've got planned for the day or the week, it helps to see people reminding me to slow tf down.

So I took my time but I'm ready for the Kulture Study again. I'm transforming it way more into the way I want to do it. Reactions and reviews will feel the same for you but, opening and endings will change. There will be more of an overall "vibe" to the Kulture Study as it becomes a show in its own right.

Some of you may have wondered "why are there episode numbers on some of these" and it's part of the steps. Honestly to get to where I truly want to the show, it would probably take me another two months. But when I say I'm ready, I have a vision for the Kulture Study and that's all I need, a clear direction and a plan. In the meantime, I'm ready to just come back with my imperfect videos and just make the changes over time given I know exactly where I want to go with this.

Sorry. I've had a lot in me. It's been rough since I've been back from Seoul but I've accepted I won't be there for a while, and I'm now taking instant actions moving and operating like I already live in Seoul though.

Thus this update to keep you all in the know.

I've been a week+ clean from vaping, zero nicotine in my system, and my sister said it today "you seem 100x more normal" as I've crossed the worst bits of addiction withdrawal. I even found a vape in my house today and passed on it, instead turned it in to my sister to toss it for me.

Also, after seeing my friend actually worked on MISAMO's Do not touch, and given that she was the first songwriter ever to really encourage me to go for it, I felt the fateful calling that I really really need to be making music.

I'm ACTUALLY starting to learn music and not just music theory. I got an electric piano and a guitar and will start learning in person next week! After that, we'll see which step is next. But these will act as both skills to take me into the audio production realm but also as a healthy replacement hobby for my addiction to vaping.

It's one thing to admit you have a problem, but taking the actual steps to work on it, and then WORKING on it... That's the toughest step. I hope anyone else who is trying to do better as well remembers that the most important component: is consistency!

Let's work hard and be happy :) Hope you guys have a good day!

*PS: Can't promise I'll get to every YT video tomorrow. But I'll do my best and go crazy. Getting back to basics and how I used to run shit.

EVNNE, KISS OF LIFE pre debut, V, RIIZE, NCT U are what's on my mind/aware of. So leave any YT C/Bs + debuts down below that AREN'T those!