My schedule today 😌 (Patreon)

Good morning everyone!

It’s currently 11AM at the time of writing this where I am. What’s so very strange, the day before I slept 8 hours and I felt both physically and emotionally exhausted.

After my late night livestream, I only slept a little over half of that amount but it’s the most clarity I’ve felt all week.

Here’s my schedule for today:

11 - 12: Breakfast + wind up

12 - 1330: Clean

1330 - 1500: Filming Block

1500 - 1630: Lunch, E-mails, Gotta do my taxes!

1630 - 1730: Go to the park & take a walk (I’m gonna need some air after taxes)

1730 - 1900: Filming Block

And I’ll be offline starting 19:00 / 7PM PST.

Cleaning is a big part of my mental health and it’s something I’ve put off in favor of both my anxiety and work, which only obviously worsen the two.

Thank you to the Patrons who helped me calmly work this out. A balanced way to get a good amount of filming done, my “life chores” (ARGHHH TAXES!!!), and having time for my mental health as well.

I’ve always been an “all or nothing guy” “100% or nothing” “make choices and never look back”. I’m trying to alter and reframe my thinking based on my CBT practices.

I want to make mindful and intentional choices, and reflect later.

The Roman Emperor Marcus Aurelius committed to using the morning to prepare for the day ahead, and reflecting on the day in the evening. When I was healthier, I was doing that out of interest, but I see now how fulfilling and how much clarity that gave me so I’ll be doing that again now.

I’ve always had a terrible ability to keep track of journals and notebooks, so I’m trying to do so here. Not “journal” per say, I’m using my own notes for my private and more darker thoughts to expel them, but because this helps me clear my thoughts, get feedback (god damn y’all are some smart people) and I can reflect, adapt, and adjust.

Through this process I’ve been hearing that just as many of you are going through difficult times in your lives. So let’s promise to make today just 2% a better day than yesterday.

I’m going to get started, I hope you all have a wonderful day or evening, and I’ll see you soon in today’s girl group videos 😊