Back to Normal WIPs (Patreon)

As pathetic as it sounds I'm trying to go back and do things I remember enjoying so I can maybe remember how that feels since, after a lot of introspection, I realize that art has become so much of a *job* for me that I can't seem to bring myself to do things that I could do freely just ten or so years ago.  Much of the surge of fanart has been for this reason, trying to go back to things that I like and made me happy in perhaps a futile effort to feel that again.  These days I find it so difficult to just do something I know I want to do because every image is essentially an advertisement and not just the result of wanting to make it-- I *have* to make it and I *have* to care about how much people like it, because I quite literally can't afford for people not to.  With dwindling support on this and Ko-fi it's that much harder to be motivated.

I know what the issues are but I don't know what I can do about them, if I can do anything at all.  These things have been my attempts to do something about them and stay busy, hoping that people at least still like these images at the end of the day.  I'm trying to find the courage and motivation to do things I used to not even think twice about and it's...really difficult for some reason.

Thanks for putting up with me.