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I'm still struggling to motivate myself to draw. This picture took an unreasonable amount of time to finish, and I'm not happy with it, but still wanted to post something. If nothing else to tell you all I'm still alive.

As someone that has connected what little self worth they have to their drawing output, being unable to draw has left me feeling rather depressed and unneeded.

Even as I type this, I wonder if it's at all useful, but I hope it is.

I can't recall if I've told this story before. If it sound familiar, feel free to stop reading.

Back in 2023 my wife and I went to Iceland. It's a beautiful place that's cold and wet, the sort of weather we both enjoy. We'd gone on a tour, were we saw the sprawling beauty of the land, and got repeatedly spat on with hail.

Towards the end of the tour we reach Thingvellir. It's a cliff side, and the tour bus stops at the base of the cliff. After a long day of walking, I was aching all over. Each step hurt, my pace continued to slow, and I wasn't sure if I could keep going.

However, I wanted to see the view from the top of the cliff. So despite everything, I took each painful step, one after another until I was standing at the top.

The view was well worth the pain.

I know we all have our struggles, I'm still fighting mine, but I want everyone to know that the view is worth it.

Continue to look after yourself, and others.

B.

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infernalperson

Glad to hear from you, I hope you get through it all one way or another.

candidgamera

We all need to remember that we have value beyond what we make. I hope inspiration hits for you again soon, though.

Rod Basler

It doesn't matter how many times you get knocked down - it's how many times you stand back up. And yes, that view of the plains of Thingvellir from the cliffs is amazing - the scars in the ground where tectonic plates are literally being pulled apart. Breathtaking.

Kyle

You got this man! You also got this, man! God speed to you and Gary! Avoid gas station hot dogs if you haven't got a cast iron stomach!

brianchristyburke

I don't think I've ever had one, and intend to keep it that way!

Graeme Thorburn

Hugs B! As I've said before your worth and your creativity go well beyond your drawings. Look at all the wonderful comments on the LGS Yuri build. You are Talented, you are Valued and you Loved, no matter your output, then or now. Take care of yourself and try not to let that Black dog bite too hard.

Chakat Thriceborn

Somehow this update missed my email, hence my delay in replying, but I am glad you are still out there. I was actually just thinking bout ya and hoping you were doing well, which brought me to snoop your Patreon. All good things take time; not always the same amount of time, but time none the less. And, I hope that with time, you can get back to where you want/need to be.