July 2020 update (Trigger Warning Everything) (Patreon)

I wouldn't say I get raw in this one, but I am real. My real thoughts on life, value, this country, politics, the mindsets of others, the healthcare system and even a bit of nationalism show up. This is an intense piece where i talk about what I'm doing, what's keeping me going, what I see ahead, and how I plan to plan for the unplanable.

Specific trigger warnings for depression, suicide, PTSD, bad childhoods. I got into all of them.

To get the low down on my productivity without clicking on the link: I know people are hurting right now, and that's really slowed down my creative process. Between the Holiday, the news, the fireworks, the heat and some personal stuff, July just wasn't a good time or place for me, and I know it's getting harder for others, too.

This has really made me feel under the gun to produce. It's really sapped my desire to do it, sometimes. And I have to fight that, just like I know many of you do, too.

All of my uploads for this month are for every patron tier because I just didn't even get half the recording that I should have done, and recording erotic audio this month just felt impossible, even if the writing worked.

I put a lot of energy into singing practice, into working out and diet.  

I'm trying to show you guys that i'm in this for the long haul, and I even know to some degree how I can help others, especially the most needy in the fanbase, if the economic 'crunch' does come. 

Thank you for sticking with me. I understand if you can't be a patron through all this, or if you dip in and out until I get a full suite of stuff up on here, I promise, no hard feelings, take care of you.

But thank you. For being a fan.

I have my lifeboat because of you, in some way, and it's more than so many.

So thank you. And I am going to keep trying.