An update on Panda Bear (Patreon)

We got home yesterday.  It was a long drive.  There was pouring rain for most of it, and more than once I broke down crying.  It's rough.  I always knew I'd lose her one day, but now I know I'm going to lose her soon.

Thank you for all the donations.  You guys covered the bill and then some.  I'm going to need it.  Have a follow up vet appt with my local vet over taking care of her.  Mom's vet told me I'd probably wake up or come home and she'll be gone.  I honestly don't know if that'd be easier or worse.  Otherwise she'll stop eating and that'll be a sign she's done.  Or she could just be in pain from her heart being 3x larger than it should be.  That'll be rough, but I'll be there when she goes, which is how Blackjack would want it.

The hardest part is just me kicking myself.  4 weeks ago she was in for a cough and the vet mentioned it could be her heart, but she'd need an expensive X-ray to know.  I took the cheap route.  If I'd acted then, maybe things might be different.  I don't know.  I'll never know.

Anyway, I wanted to keep you all in the loop and thank you once more for all your help and support.  It means a lot to me that so many people pulled together to help.  I hope I can write enough to repay your generosity.  Thank you.

Somber