Lyrics: Redemption (take 1) (Patreon)

Mikey Mason and I recorded episode 3 of In the 'Verse on Wednesday. We watched "The Name of the Doctor" from Doctor Who's 50th anniversary special.

I'm finally sitting down to write a song. This is my first draft. I even have a melody. And I don't really like either. But I thought I'd share it anyway. It helps me to sort of purge my mind. Or possibly reformat this into something new.

The things that bother me are: 

One, the lack of a good chorus. It's just not coming.

Two. I still prefer writing songs inspired by but not necessarily ABOUT the show. I just haven't figure out how to do that... yet.

Three, one of my goals was to write an upbeat song that will rip your heart out. Just not doing it with these lyrics.

But on the bright side, I love how I compiled the notes at the end. 

That said, I'm still happy to share with you the lyrics for this song.

He called himself The DoctorBut he didn't always heal.He's haunted by a MomentThat forever feels unreal.He always had hope.But it always felt like a bitter fightSmashing statues of himselfTo hide in plain sight

Never cruel or cowardlyHe would never give up.It took years of regret to forgetBut it still tears him up.He's off saving worldsHe helps everyone he canBut he's filled with dread and disgustThat he's that horrible man.

He will face his crime and realizeHe's the same person insideHe made a terrible mistake and grewDon't burn yourself up and hide.The Doctor saves worlds with hopeAnd hopefully he'll heal.When he finds the answer in plain sight

WHAT'S THE STORY?

It's the story of The Doctor using their conscience as a weapon against himself. He ultimately finds redemption by taking a step back to be objective. That's how he finds hope.

A man. The Doctor. Always has hope. But he committed a heinous crime. Genocide. He is haunted by regret. He tries to hide from his crimes. Smashing statures to hide in plain sight.

He chose a name  that is never cruel or cowardly, gives up or gives in. So he tries to be the good man he first told himself he would be. The good man he thought he was. He helps people. He saves worlds. But deep inside he believes he is a horrible man. Dread.

It takes years of regret before he can forget enough to think with an open mind. He finds a new way to face his crime and to realize, he is the same person. He made a mistake. But that doesn't mean he's a bad person. He finds hope again to be a better person.

NOTES

"Waste no more time arguing what a good man should be. Be one." Marcus Aurelius

The man would commit a crime that would silence the universe.

He's a fool. No. He's a madman.

A weapon with a conscience that stands judgement on you.

Bad wolf

I've lost the right to be The Doctor. Then you're the one to save us all.

If I ever develop an ego then you've got the job

Giving up hope

I could kill them all. But there will be consequences.

How many children on Gallifrey? One day you will count them all.

Do you want to see what that will turn you into.

You have a stomach for war. This face has seen conflict.

In 1200 years I've never seen anything that wasn't important

They smashed statues because they needed somewhere to hide in plain sight

No one can know we have it. Americans with the ability to rewrite history? You've seen their movies.

The way you look at me... dread.

The man who regrets. The man who forgets.

Same screwdriver. Same software. Different case. Different face.

I may have the body of a week and feeble woman, but at the time so did the zygon

You have a promise to keep (marrying Elizabeth)

I love the round things.

Alien technology. Plus human stupidity. It's unbeatable.

Because I got it wrong. I'm gonna make you get it right.

I'd do anything to change it. It's time I grew up.

Great men are forged in fire. It's the privilege of lesser men to light the flame.

The sound of the Tardis brings hope

Go and be the Doctor I could never be. Make it worthwhile.

This time you don't have to do it alone. Not out of fear or hatred. Because there is no other way for the lives we fail to save.

The warrior. The Hero. Be the Doctor.

The name you chose was a promise. Never cruel or cowardly. Never give up or give in.

You could have hope.

Failed doing the right thing as opposed to succeeding doing the wrong.

I have to live with that even tho I don't remember. The Doctor changes faces.

Things don't get lost. I dream about where I'm going. Home the long way round.

Answer is in plain sight. You just can't see it. You don't have to fight.

Secret from himself. FORGIVENESS