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💙 English:

Here we go — OF COURSE it’s Friday (and for some of you it’s probably already Saturday XDDD).

I took a bit longer because I went swimming with Kito today, after feeling kinda crappy again (maybe tmi, but I suffer REALLY badly from PMS — it’s honestly close to chronic fatigue syndrome in that last week of the cycle x_x). But it did me good, and now I feel recharged and ready to go :3

I’m super curious what you’ll think of the current pages! Honestly, I wanted to include at least two more… but that would’ve delayed things way too much. XD So they’ll come with the next update!

This one… I have no idea how it’ll be received. It’s a little more somber, because it dips back into the past, to the moment Derek found Gogo. He’s been reflecting a lot lately, connecting his thoughts back then with what he’s feeling now. It was weirdly satisfying to redraw those scenes in color, too! I had to completely rebuild the environment around the train tracks in 3D to match the current style, but I think it paid off. It kind of gives you a glimpse of what black & blue would’ve looked like if it had been colored from the very beginning. :3

This scene marks a bit of a turning point for Derek. Something’s starting to click. He’s realizing that he can’t be as spontaneous, careless and easygoing with Gogo as he was with his previous subs. Maybe he’s just been lucky so far — and now, with Gogo, he has a chance to actually grow.

The thing is: Derek doesn’t fully realize how immature he still is. XD But now he’s slowly getting there, step by step. Is he going to succeed every time…? Probably not! XD But it’d be boring if he figured everything out overnight, right? XDD

Can’t wait to hear what you think of this one! <3

Love you all!Your MAUS!

Link to the ENGLISH version:

https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/gp0fx0lj5oy2tepqwhdhm/ANGSBjFq29jtG5VAwXDSvYA?rlkey=n1cjld46fkjtori4lzxtucf3r&st=9rij7f6l&dl=0

🖤 Deutsch:

Here we go! NATÜRLICH am Freitag (für manche von euch ist es ja schon Samstag XDDD).

Dafür war ich heute mit Kito schwimmen, nachdem es mir mal wieder nicht so gut ging (Maybe tmi, aber ich leide echt HEFTIG unter PMS. Das geht schon Richtung chronisches Erschöpfungssyndrom in der letzten Zykluswoche x_x). Das hat gut getan – und jetzt fühl ich mich wieder frisch aufgeladen :3

Ich bin schon gespannt, was ihr zu den aktuellen Seiten sagt! Wie gern hätte ich noch MINDESTENS zwei weitere drangehängt… aber dann hätte das viel zu lange gedauert. XD Die kommen dann beim nächsten Update.

Dieses Update… ich hab keine Ahnung, wie es ankommen wird. Es ist ein bisschen schwermütig, weil es nochmal in die Vergangenheit reist – zu dem Moment, an dem Derek Gogo gefunden hat. Derek denkt gerade sehr oft zurück und verbindet seine Gedanken damals mit denen, die er jetzt hat. Und es ist irgendwie saucool, all diese Szenen nochmal neu in Farbe zu zeichnen! Die Umgebung rund um die Bahngleise musste ich z. B. komplett neu in 3D nachbauen, um den aktuellen Look beizubehalten. Aber ich finde, es hat sich gelohnt. Man kriegt so einen Eindruck davon, wie b&b ausgesehen hätte, wenn’s von Anfang an coloriert gewesen wäre. :3

Es macht jedenfalls so’n bisschen Klick in Derek. Er begreift, dass er mit Gogo nicht so spontan, careless und gedankenlos sein darf. Dass er vielleicht bisher einfach Glück mit seinen Subs hatte. Und dass Gogo – auch für ihn – eine Chance für Wachstum ist.

Eigentlich checkt Derek gar nicht so richtig, dass er selbst noch verdammt unreif ist. XD Aber jetzt kommt er step by step drauf und versucht, dran zu arbeiten. Ob’s ihm immer gelingt…? Wahrscheinlich nicht! XD Aber es wär ja auch langweilig, wenn er’s von heute auf morgen sofort checken würde. XDD

Ich freu mich jedenfalls auf eure Meinung! <3

Hab euch lieb!

Eure MAUS!

Link zur DEUTSCHEN Version:

https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/hwr0lcjddwyd6pwjgzhtu/AGP0uuz34r7bLtOy_mLT2tY?rlkey=nh7rcfgndlgvzwfmuq3b698lw&st=w8d2488p&dl=0

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CrowCall

Oh my god the beginning scenes in color look so good!!!!!!

Jade

My babiesss 🥹❤️❤️❤️

Luna Lena

😭 poor sweet Gogo and his shoes 😭 also, thank goodness for Hanjo, honestly. Derek is such good person at heart, but he definitely needs someone to say things out loud to him sometimes so he has “permission” to be himself and to grow. I also hope Gogo’s tiny taste of “oh, this person wants to stay and doesn’t care if what Davido said is true or not” helps to start chipping away at his self-loathing 🥰

IAmALeaf

It was so cool seeing those earlier scenes in color. The way Derek was so tender with Gogo then and him realizing her needs to show that same tenderness now. And the thing with the shoes and Derek thinking he's gonna keep walking with Gogo in those shoes ugh too sweet

Rainbro

It’s easy to forget how fragile Gogo’s mental state is. Even as a reader, it slips the mind when he smiles. However we all know that just because a person smiles, it doesn’t mean that everything is better. Gogo needs a LOT of therapy and I’m hoping that he will eventually get some because I don’t think releasing things through his submissive side is going to cut it. Sure, it’ll help, but trauma like this needs proper intervention. It’s hard to get someone help who doesn’t want it tho and I think that’s what Maus might have in store for us. Gogo realising that he needs external help and maturing enough to accept it. Fuck, this one was heavy.

Sarah

The shoe call-back...ik everyone's saying it, but wow. Powerful

Peach

I think this scene already shows some growth. Derek’s a dom - in a position of power with permission normally but with this situation of knowing something he shouldn’t it’s without permission so it feels bad. Following Gogos lead is the right thing to do.

Levia Than

I love the scene, it feels very tender, raw and real at the same time. Also, as someone who suffers from post-acute infection syndrome (kind of like a milder version of chronic fatigue) I can just say: Take your time and rest. I know how hard it is sometimes (I'm also still learning to do that), but if your PMS behaves any like my illness, you're just making it worse if you push yourself.