Loving You - Chapter 10 (Patreon)

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I jolt awake. The ceiling comes into my line of vision. My head is pounding and my mouth is dry. This isnt my room, I'm back in Damiens. I try and sit up and look around the room to see Damien sitting across from me in a chair, his expression unreadable.

My heart slams into my chest and my breathing speeds up, Seeing him sitting there terrifies me to no end. I would feel better if he would yell or someting but he's just sitting there, staring. His legs are crossed and his posture is stiff and rigid. He looks like a statue.

Finally, after what seems like forever Damien speaks.

"What were you thinking." It came out as a statement, rather than a question. Damiens eyes were cold and calculating, his rage barely concealed under his façade.

"Do you realize what you've done?" He stood up abruptly causing me to jump. "Do you fucking realize what you've done?!" What was he talking about? All I did was escape its not like I caused him any damage.0

He walks over to me, my eyes wide with fear. I had my one chance at escape and blew it. He looks at me anger clear in his eyes. "Why would you do this?"

I couldn't help myself. All the anger that I had tried to keep down suddenly came rushing back to me. The fact that he kidnapped me, assaulted me, hurt me, and starved me, finally came back to me. Everything I'd been holding back boiled to the surface and I couldn't hold back any longer.

"Because I hate you! I don't want to be here! You stole me from everything I knew and loved! You've abused me and been so cruel to me! I have no freedom here! What you've done is wrong and I will never forgive you for it! I HATE YOU! And I will always try and get away from you I will never stay here willingly!" That was all it took for Damien's resolve to come crashing down.

His eyes flash and before I knew it I was being pinned to the bed, Damiens heavy body on top of me. He wraps his hand around my throat and slaps me across the face.

"You fucking bitch! I'll make you regret what you just said. I'll fucking make you!" And with that, he brings his lips down and latches on to my neck. I gasp from the sudden pleasure that comes from that spot. Damiens hands glide up my chest and he roughly grabs my breasts.

"No! Damien stop!" He ignores my pleas and in one swift jerk, he tears my shirt off, exposing my breasts to his lust filled gaze. He leans down and starts sucking on my nipple I had to bite my lip to keep an unwanted moan from escaping my mouth. His hand glides down my stomach and into my shorts, he starts rubbing my clit, and pleasure explodes from that one spot.

"Nooo" I manage to moan out, and Damien laughs, he levels his eyes with mine. "You tell me no but your body is screaming for me."

Damien thrusts a finger inside of me and I gasp out loud as he starts to work up a rhythm. Tears begin to form behind my eyelids and they fall in waves down my temples and into my hair.

"Please, dont do this, Damien." He ignores me and adds another finger and quickens his pace. I cant help but pant and I can feel something inside me, building up. Before I can reach it though he stops. He yanks off my shorts so that I'm lying naked on the bed under him. He tries to lean in to kiss me, but I put my hands up on his chest, trying to stop him. This makes him only angrier as he grabs both of my hands in his one hand and pins them over my head.

I can feel his legs spread mine apart and then I feel his hot cock against my thigh. I struggle and try to kick and get him off, the tears are neverending, but the position he has me in makes it impossible for me to move. He leans into my ear, I can feel the smile on his face.

"Now, I'm going to make you mine." He thrusts into me tearing right past my virgin barrier, the pain is agonizing. I scream, I scream and beg for him to stop but he just covers my mouth with his hand and continues to fuck me. As the pain begins to subside, something else builds up inside of me. It was the same feeling i had earlier, when Damien was fingering me but now it was much more intense. Damien seemed to sense this change because he nuzzled my neck and whispered in my ear. "Oh fuck, baby."

His thrusts sped up until I was crying out from the pleasure I was experiencing. Suddenly, without warning, I exploded, I could feel my body clamp down on his thick cock that was still thrusting inside of me. I couldnt help but scream. Damien finally came with a roar and one final thrust, I could feel him spilling inside of me. He collapsed on top of me crushing me with his weight.

When I finally came down from my high, everything went numb. My first time. MY first orgasm. Taken from me by the likes of him. A monster. I had no more tears left. Damien gets up and carries me to the bathroom. He sets me down on the sink and I look down to see a clear and pink fluid running down my leg. It must be Damiens semen and my virgnity. He cleans me up quietly and gently, not making a sound as he does so.

I can't help but wonder. He didnt use any protection and I'm not on birth control. What if I get pregnant? Or worse catch an STD? Damien picks me up once I'm clean and carries me back ti his bedroom. He pulls back the sheets and crawls under with me, pulling me to him so that my back was against his front.

"Damien?"

"Hm?"

"What if I catch an STD"

He laughs softly. "You wont."

"What if I get pregnant?" I whisper, the idea of having his child chills me to the bone. He strokes my hair. "We'll be fine."

That makes me feel a little better. He kisses the top of my head and soon his breathing pattern evens out. Sleep eventually reaches me too, and I fall into a slumber, Damien at my back.

*****

I awake the next morning to find Damiens side of the bed empty. I look around expecting to see him somewhere but he's nowhere to be found. The events of last night came back to me. I felt so disgusted with myself. How could I enjoy his touch? How could i come under the man that took everything from me?

I sprinted across the room, the sound of my feet slapping the cold marble the only sound. As soon as I got to the bathroom door, I jerked it open and regretted it instantly. Damien stood in front of the sink in the bathroom in all his naked glory messing with his perfectly curled hair. He abruptly stiffened and turned to look at me with a murderous glare. I instantly recoiled as soon as his icy gaze landed on me. His gaze softened only a little when it registered that it was me who had entered unannounced.

"I-I- Oh gosh- I'm so sorry" I was trying to back out of the bathroom as quickly as I had entered.

"No, it's quite alright angel. I was just about to take a shower. I'm assuming you'd like to join me?" I wanted to say no and shake my head, but the gaze in Damiens eyes warned me not to say no. So I stepped in and closed the door behind me.

Damien held his arms out for me and I walked right into his arms. I could feel the heat of his arousal pressed firmly against my lower stomach and my heart kicked up speed in fear. Damien stared down at me, a rumble of appreciation emitted from deep within his chest. I was still currently naked since he had torn the only thing that resembled any form of clothing off of me last night. Damien reached behind me and turned on the steaming water of the massive shower, carrying me with him under its warm spray.

I tried to struggle against him and this was clearly making him angry as he shoved me against the wall of the shower, catching me off guard and trapping me in between both of his muscled arms. I felt vulnerable and weak in this position. He took a finger and grabbed a strand of my hair in between his fingers. His cold glare swept down my face before it crept its way onto my body for his viewing pleasure.

Damien grabbed my breast and started tweaking my nipple then captured it in his mouth, sucking on my nipple causing a gasp to escape my lips from the sudden pleasure. I could feel the heat beginning to pool between my legs and Damien had barely touched me. He intertwined his other hand in my hair and jerked my head so that my neck was exposed to him. He wasted no time latching his lips to my sweet spot and started sucking, earning an involuntary moan to come out of my mouth. He snaked his arm that was playing with my breast down to my core and began stroking. An inhuman growl ripped from his throat.

"So responsive." Damien thrust two fingers into me and begin stroking my insides with the perfect rhythm. I could feel the tension building up inside of me and Just when I was about to have another orgasm Damien removed his fingers. I had to bite my tongue to keep a frustrated groan from escaping my mouth until I felt something much bigger at my entrance. My eyes shot open in realization at what was going on and I brought my arms up to his chest trying to push him away from my body.

Damien grabbed both of my hand and pinned them above my head with only one of his hands

"No, Damien! Please!" I couldnt move with him holding me in this position with his strength. I felt his hard length prodding at my entrance.

"Now angel. You enjoyed it so much last night," he smiles at me and his smile turns to a cruel one. "Dont make me have to punish you again. Damien thrust into me hard and fast. Damien pulled his head back and looked into my tear streaked eyes, his blue gaze piercing mine as he thrust in and out of me. my orgasm began to build up within me. Damien bent his head down and captured my peaked nipple in his mouth as his pace began to pick up and I could feel his engorged shaft pulsing in and out of me.

Suddenly, my climax hit me and I was sent over the edge moaning uncontrollably as Damien continued to ruthelessly fuck me through my orgasm. I heard Damien groan and with one last push he thrust up into me, holding himself in place there, and releasing his seed within me.

Once Damien was finished I could feel his tongue on my neck as he kissed the same spot where he had the night before. He then roughly grabbed my jaw, forcing my head to one side and roughly started to suck on my neck. Once he was finished he looked at my neck in what seemed like approval.

He finally pulled his now softening cock out of me and let me hit the ground of the shower with a thud. I felt numb as he walked out of the shower and didnt even look back. The tangible reminder of what he just did was running down my leg.

After a few minutes I finally started crying. The sobs making my shoulders violently shake on the floor of the shower. No love, no romance, no sweet promises. Just emptiness.

*****

Damien

Fuck her. I was going to treat her right and give her everything. But she had to go and ruin it. I had just left the shower and gotten dressed. She was still in there. Probably fucking crying. I felt a small tug in my heart at the thought of her crying. What the fuck? I wasnt supposed to feel anything like this! My father had groomed me to become the perrfect killing machine, without emotion.

And now this girl shows up and I'm suddenly caring of her feelings? Fuck that. My phone began to vibrate on the night stand, I pick it up to see Jax is calling me.

"Yeah?"

"Damien we've got a serious situation on our hands."

"Ok what?"

"Looks like Ramirez wasnt too pleased with the way you put a bullet through one of his guys, and he's starting rumors through the underground. I smell a rebellion brewing."

I laughed to myself. Such trivial things. Looks like people were beginning to forget who I was. "I want you to call a sit-down. Gather everyone. We'll head out this afternoon."

"What about the girl? Are you bringing her?"

I frow slightly to myself. I hadnt thought of that. "No." The last thing I wanted was for my enemies to find out that I was going soft for some female. Then theyd do everything they could to get her and use her to control me. And that couldnt happen.

"We'll tighten security and leave her here. No one leaves or enters the base while I'm gone. Wouldn't want another thing like yesterday to happen again.

"Alright I'll get our men together and get packed. I'll notify you when we're ready and the locations been set."

"Great." I hang up and walk over to my desk and pull out a piece of paper, leaving it for Nevaeh. I needed to go get some things before I left and I wanted to see her one last time before I departed.

I sat the note down on the bed, picked her an outfit to wear today, and left to do some business before lunch.

*****

I've scrubbed my skin about 8 times. It's currently red and burning from me rubbing it raw. I finally turn the shower off and step out and wrap myself in a towel. I want to cry but I've cried myself out. The steam from the shower floods out as I open the door to the bathroom.

I cautiously look around, in fear that Damien will be standing there, ready to rape me again. But the room is empty. I cautiously walk out and notice an outfit on the bed and a note atop it.

Nevaeh,

Get dressed. Once you are dressed come to the patio for lunch with me. I have something important to tell you. Your guard will show you the way.

Damien

I ball up the note and throw it in the corner. I really dont want to see him. Ever. I pick up the outfit he's picked out. It's a pink romper and some wedges. I just put the romper on and put my hair up in a messy bun. I dont bother with the wedges. This place was on a beach for crying out loud the last thing i needed were shoes.

I open the door to meet a familiar set of green eyes. I cant help myself I gasp and jump on Gabriel and envelop him in a hug.

"Oh my God!" I thought he killed you! I could feel him laughing, the vibrations rocking through my body. He sat me down on the ground in front of him.

"Thanks to you, he didnt."

"It was all my fault in the first place. If I hadnt done what I did he wouldnt have turned on you."

"No. Don't think that it was your fault. I never should have taunted you the way I did. I'm sorry."

I look at him. Really look. He looks different than the last time I saw him. That spark in his eyes are gone. And for the first time I notice his arm has a now pink a fading scar on it. It's very jagged.

"Gabriel, what did he do to you?" I reach for his scar but he jerks back. Alarm coming on his face.

"Nothing to worry yourself over princess. Follow me." He turns on his heel and walks down the corridor expecting me to follow suit. Once we reach the patio he stops at the door and motions for me to go outside. I look at him one last time and leave through the door.

Damien is sitting at the table with his back to me. Once again he is on the phone and in the seat next to him are 3 boxes. I stand behind him and clear my throat causing him to turn around and quickly end his phone call. A smile breaks out across his face. He looks truly happy to see me. But I'm not feeling the same way towards him. Not at all.

He motions for me to sit across from him and he lifts the top off my plate revealing some kind of baked fish with a yellow sauce on top. I only stick my fork in it and move it around the plate, not wnting him to get mad at me for now having an appetite.

"Nevaeh, I'm going out of town for a few days, and I dont know when I'll be back."

I look up from my meal in surprise. Was he making me go with him? I opened my mouth to ask but he continued on speaking.

"You are to stay here and not wander off grounds. I will be able to find you anywhere you go if you even think about it. And I have more important things to worry about than your whereabouts."

What he said caught me off guard. What was he talking about he could find me anywhere? Then a thought hit me.

"How did you find me? when you caught me in that village?" He smiles at me, revealing that damn dimple again. How could someone so evil be so beautiful?

"I wondered when you were going to pick up on that. Well you see, when I first had you brought here I had a GPS inserted in you. Dont ask me where it is because I dont want you to try and pry it out."

I could only gape at him "You had something inserted in my body?! Without my consent?! Thats a violation of my rights, my body! Thats-" I had already risen from my chair and was standing over him as he sat and watched me. His eyes darkened.

"Sit. Down. Nevaeh." I stood for only a fraction longer and slowly returned to my seat, fuming. "You're rights? As you like to call them, you have none right now. Your body? It's mine. And as for violating you, i think we're way past that." He ended with a smile in my direction.

I looked down at my lap in defeat. I didnt want to be beat and I didnt want to be raped. So i just took it.

"Now, I want to show you what I got you." He said with a smile. He pulled out the biggest package first and pulled it out of the bag to revea a brand new touch screen laptop. I looked at him in disbelief. If he gave this to me, I could contact my family!

"Now dont get your hopes up and your ideas twisted angel. This is for my out of town use only. I want to be able to video chat you whenever I want to. It can only contact me and no one else." My heart dropped in defeat. And I wanted to cry. But I would not give him the satisfaction.

He pulled out the next gift which was a brand new iphone 6 plus. I eye it and look at him and then it dawns on me.

"Let me guess. I can only contact you on it." His smile widens.

"Such a clever girl." He stands up with the last box and walks over to me, squatting next to me as he opens a small rectangular box. In it is a bracelet and its absolutely gorgeous. It's gold with diamonds in it.

"I want you to wear this while I'm gone. This is a personal gift from me. It would mean a lot to me if you wore it." He looks me in the eye and waits for my response. I cant bring myself to do it.

"No." He looks at me with shock and suddenly his eyes change to a menacing shade of blue and I know I just made a huge mistake. He wraps his hand lightly around my throat, caressingt my jaw. He's not choking me but the threat is still there.

"Neveah. Will you wear this bracelet?" My tears started to form. I would never win against him. He was bigger and stronger and cruel. I would always lose. "Yes."

He smiles at me and places the bracelet on my arm I had to admit that it was beautfiul. Once the bracelet was on my arm h didnt let go as he dragged me from the table up to his bedroom. My heart rate sped up. Surely he wasnt going to make me have sex again?!

Once we reached his room, he walks over to a door and opens it, and motions for me to walk over. Once I get to the door my mouth drops open in disbelief. It was a walk in closet. Half belonged to Damien obviously and half belonged to me i was guessing. The side had such a colorful assortment of colors, I was beyond overwhelmed. This was more clothes than I had ever had in my life. I'm sure I would be a different size by the time I reached the back half of the closet! In the middle was a large wrap around couch and on shelves above were so many shoes! This closet was amazing it was somethng out of a magazine called pimp my closet.

I looked at Damien and he was smiling at my reaction.

"I'm glad you like it. We've been working on it for a while. This is now your room and partially your closet" He motioned to my closet. He walks me out of the closet and sits down on the bed, pulling me standing in between his legs.

He moves his hand to remove a stray curl from my cheek and tucks it behind my ear. "I will miss you while I'm gone my sweet angel. Don't get into any trouble while I'm gone. I dont want to have to punish you when I return.

I nod my head and he smiles at me and leans forward to kiss my forehead.

"I will be checking in frequently and I expect to video you every night. Understood?" I nod once again. He smiles at me revealing straight white teeth and that dimple I've become so accustomed to. "I'll see you when I return" He stands up and walks out the door, leaving me in the middle of his room, confused.