"Hey, where's the update?" - 9/9/26 (Patreon)

Howdy chat, it's been a minute. Since this update has once again been delayed past when I wanted to release it, I felt that I should give a more in-depth explanation of what's going on and why it's taking so long. To be clear, it's not that I'm on hiatus again or anything- these updates have just been harder to get out lately.

As with most things, my issues with updating have stemmed from a few different causes.

First, the Laptop incident. A while ago, my laptop's keyboard broke in ways I still don't really understand. The U, J, M, 7, and = keys all just straight up don't work, requiring me to use this stupid little accessibility keyboard on said laptop.

Obviously there's a couple of workarounds to this. I can simply type at my newer PC or I could plug in an external keyboard, for instance. Believe me, I've tried both. They work, yes, but it's just not as pleasant or convenient as typing on a laptop was. It winds up with this constant frustration I feel every time I have to type something out.

Second, Renovations™. My parents are adding a whole room to the house, basically, and that's been a whole process. Moving heavy furniture, packing things up, putting things in storage, demolishing old cabinets, it's been a lot and for a while. On top of being exhausting, it also often leaves my wrists in pain from lugging around a huge sofa or desk or whatever, which inhibits my ability to write or draw. It's not even done yet as of right now. I'll have to help install new cabinets, which is sure to be an even greater pain than before. Fun, fun, fun.

Third, ADHD and whatever else. I started going to a psychiatrist after a very very low point a little while back, and I can say that I'm definitely doing better than I was. I'm on some meds now and trying to get my focus and whatall improved, which has been fairly difficult. Finding the right medicine and dosage, as it turns out, can be very tricky- especially when there's other stressors getting in the way of things.

Even when I'm not in pain and not exhausted, working up the energy to start typing or start drawing and keep at it is legitimately a herculean task. Every day I wish I could just "lock in" and work on it. I've tried, again, and again, and again- but when the focus isn't there, it's hard to concentrate on weaving together everything that Sihai is. There's so much that I have to keep in mind when writing this project that the bare minimum focus necessary is often more than I have in me.

Sometimes I just don't know what to do, but I do know what I will not do.

I will not give up on Sihai's Legacy.

I have a story I want to tell, characters I want to live and breathe. I don't think me as I am right now is even capable of releasing updates the way I used to, especially with how much more work an update becomes later in the route. However, I will keep on trying, and hopefully I'll be able to catch up to my ambition and get back on track to making Sihai's Legacy a masterpiece.

So what does this mean for the next update?

I'll continue working on it to the best of my ability, and hopefully I'll be able to push it out during September. After that, I'm not really sure what things will shape up like. As always, I'll let you all know through updates here and (especially) on the Sihai's Legacy Discord server.

Thank you all for your belief and your patience. I hope I can live up to your expectations- if not today, then one day.